Among the Heather (The Highlands, #2) (87)

I realized to get through to her, I needed to be honest with her. Vulnerable, even. Tell her things that I wouldn’t tell her under normal circumstances. “My life isn’t perfect. I have a good life, but it’s not what you think it is. And I’m not a perfect person you should put up on some kind of pedestal.”

“Right,” she scoffed.

Anger flared in my gut, but I shoved it down. “You think because my parents are famous and we had money that it made our lives perfect? My parents love me, I know that, but they didn’t raise me, Caitlyn. A series of nannies did. And when Allegra came along, I was ten years old, and I began to parent her, so I never really had a normal childhood on multiple levels. I had to see my parents’ relationship splashed across the tabloids because the world didn’t want to believe they were so in love. I had friends gossiping at school about whether my mom was cheating on my dad. I had friends jerking off to photos of my mom. Tell me that’s not weird.”

Her lip curled with a flicker of amusement.

“I had a mother who loved me but made me feel fat and ugly with her constant need to mold me into a mini version of her.”

Caitlyn’s amusement died.

“I had boyfriends who only dated me to get to my father and made me feel worthless when they were finished with me. I had friends betray me.”

Her gaze lowered.

“And because of that, I built up walls and shut out everybody. Including my family. And I almost lost someone I love because I didn’t know how to tear down those walls once they were up. When I did, strangers splashed photographs of me all over the internet and picked apart my appearance and questioned why the guy I love loves me back. Half of them are rooting for me, and the other half want it to fall apart just so they’ll have something juicy to read on the way to work the next morning. Do you know what it’s like to fall in love with the whole world watching and waiting for you to be humiliated again? My life is not perfect, and I’m far from perfect. But I choose to focus on what makes my life good. So should you. Because you’re worth something to this world without my approval or my friendship.”

“So you did abandon me,” she whispered. “You deliberately abandoned me.”

“You betrayed me when you slept with Lucas,” I explained gently. “I didn’t want to be friends with you anymore.”

Her look singed me to the bed. “Isn’t that a stupid thing to say to someone with a gun?”

I pushed through my fear. “You’re not going to shoot me.”

“I might.”

“No, you won’t.”

Desperate tears filled her eyes. “I might!”

And I knew at that moment that she wouldn’t. “Caitlyn—”

“It’s Ariella!”

“No, you’re Caitlyn. That little girl who has fought through so much to still be here deserves to be acknowledged. Don’t abandon her.”

I knew almost immediately I’d pushed too far, and my heart lurched in my throat as she pushed off the bed, pointing the gun in my face. “You don’t know shit! You’re trying to confuse me with lies! But we’re the same! We’re the same!” Tears streaked down her face, and I was terrified. Terrified she’d pull that trigger.

“Please,” I whispered. I hated her for making me beg.

My plea seemed to calm her. In fact, her face smoothed into a surreal mask that alarmed the hell out of me.

“Good. Good. This has been a great start,” she said, as if we were finishing work for the day and not that she was holding me hostage. “But I need some air. I think I’ll drive around for a while. We wouldn’t want your rental sitting out there for someone to find. I’ll be back in the morning.” She waved to the bedside cabinet. “There’s some food and water in there.”

“Don’t.” I stood, and she immediately trained the gun on me again. “Don’t you dare leave me here.”

“Oh, Ari …” She cocked her head as if I was the sweetest thing. “Don’t you get it? We’re never leaving each other again.”

But two seconds later, she stepped out of the storage room, gun aimed at me as she punched the code on the keypad and waited for the garage door to close.

Tightness crawled across my chest as panic set in.

This wasn’t happening.

How could this be happening?

North. North would find me. I nodded, shaking so badly my teeth rattled. North would be looking for me right now.

She couldn’t do this.

She couldn’t get away with this.

Calm down, I commanded myself. Stop panicking. I inhaled slowly and exhaled. Over and over, until my shaking decreased. Then I searched the rolling metal door, looking for weakness. I hammered against it. I tugged on it. Time passed—I didn’t know how much, but I dripped with sweat from my attempts to get the damn door open. For a while, I yelled in the hopes that someone would show up and hear me.

Voice hoarse, I sat down on the bed and gazed around the room, letting my rational mind take over. I was Wesley Howard’s daughter, and I was North Hunter’s one and only.

Between the two of them, they’d find me.

And if they didn’t and I had to face Caitlyn tomorrow, I had to come up with a plan to disarm her so I could save my damn self.