Betting on You(73)
But kissing her because I looked into her eyes and just wanted to?
Such total dipshittery.
Because nothing good could come of it. I was certain Bailey was lying on the pullout, losing her shit this very second. She would freak out, things would get awkward, and everything would change.
It was asinine that I’d been careful enough to label her “coworker” instead of friend, just to ensure there was a mutual understanding between us, yet stupid enough to try to absorb her sadness into my body through osmosis because I didn’t like hearing her sound unhappy.
But her face; God, her face had been too much.
She’d looked at me through teary eyes, and all at once I’d seen someone whose scrape I wanted to kiss better, the funny friend I needed to convince of her worth, and a stunner whose lips beckoned to me with promises of deep, satisfied sighs.
Combine that with the emotional punch of connecting with every fucking word she’d used to describe her feelings about her family life, and what else could I do but kiss her?
Thank God for Scott, trudging downstairs like an unwieldy bear at a sleeping campsite, because I didn’t know what would’ve happened if we hadn’t been interrupted. I couldn’t speak for Bailey, but I knew I had lost total contact with my smart side. Dipshittery was in control, and I’d been a thousand percent focused on diving into the deep end and drowning myself in Bailey Mitchell.
What the fuck was wrong with me?
I had no choice. I had to fix this.
CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX Bailey
“You sure you don’t want to try?” Scott asked.
Scott and my mom were all smiles in their ski gear, and I told myself that her glowing face was all about this much-needed vacation, as opposed to a response to spending quality time with Scott.
“No, thanks,” I said, pointing toward the chalet café next to the lift. Charlie and I rode with them instead of going out on our own, aborting ghost town plans to make my mother happy, and we’d all had breakfast together at the Blue Moose before she and Scott changed into their gear. “I plan on reading by the fire with cocoa in my hands all day, only stopping to wave whenever you bunnies reload.”
“Charlie?” Scott raised his eyebrows. “You’re more than welcome to join us.”
Ugh—he really was a nice guy, asking even when Charlie was a total pain in his butt.
“Thanks,” Charlie said, his fingers clenching between mine as he held my hand. “But if someone doesn’t keep an eye on this one, God only knows what she’ll do.”
They headed out for the slopes, and we went inside. I had a huge knot in my stomach, worried things were going to be awkward with us after what’d happened on the pullout sofa. I still had no idea what to think about what I’d felt for him, but I would prefer figuring that out on my own while our friendship remained unchanged.
God, please let things be normal.
Charlie’s phone rang when we got to the front of the line, and when he looked at the display, he said, “It’s my mom. Would you mind ordering for me so I can take it?”
I made sure my face remained cool as I said, “Sure.”
“What can I get for you?” asked the barista in the ski cap.
I placed our order and went to the other end of the counter, but I kept stealing glances at Charlie, who’d moved to stand beside the windows at the front of the store.
Was it his mom, or was it the ex that wouldn’t leave him alone?
And why did the thought of it being his ex make the knot of nerves in my stomach feel even heavier? She had nothing to do with me.
That thought made me pull out my phone and check my messages—still nothing from Zack—before putting it back into my bag.
A few minutes later I watched Charlie put his phone into his pocket before he came over and stood beside me. “Sorry about that. Apparently she just realized that she isn’t sure who my friend Bailey is, so she’s melting down about my safety.”
“Is it okay now?” I asked, remembering the way he’d sounded when discussing his family.
“Oh, yeah,” he said, grabbing our drinks as the barista set them down. “I told her you’re an uptight rule-follower, so now she’s thrilled.”
I gave him an eye roll and turned, heading straight for the big fireside sofa.
“You seriously want to read all day?” he asked, setting his mug on the end table before taking off his jacket.
“It sounds amazing to me, but if you’d rather do something else…” I shrugged and trailed off as I set down my mug and plopped onto the couch.
His eyes narrowed. “What is up with you today? Since when do you want to do whatever I want to do?”
I shrugged again. “I’m just trying to compromise since it’s our last day.”
“You’re freaked out about the bed kiss,” he said, smirking like it was amusing to him.
“No, I’m not,” I said, not really knowing how to act. It was good that he didn’t seem freaked, but then again, shouldn’t he seem something about it?
“Oh, yes, you are—don’t lie to me, Glasses, come on.” He propped his feet on the coffee table and said, “Admit it.”
“Okay.” I pushed my glasses up my nose and turned my body so I was facing him. “I do feel a little… confused by the kiss.”