Everyone Here Is Lying(3)

She looks back at him blankly, not mouthy now. He’s sickened by what he’s done. He’s a decent man. A doctor, not a brute. He’s not his father. And he loves his daughter, he does. How could he have lost it like that? “I’m so sorry. I’ll make it up to you, Avery, I promise. I shouldn’t have done that. It’s just, I lost my temper—I’ve had a very bad day. I know that’s no excuse. You know I love you, sweetie. I love you more than anything.”

Her eyes are a bit glassy, but otherwise she seems fine. She looks away from him then, won’t meet his eyes.

His voice is pleading, and he hates the sound of it. “Look, I’m sorry. I know it’s unforgivable, but let’s not tell your mother. She has a lot on her plate right now.” Avery doesn’t answer; she won’t speak to him. He pauses and says, “And we won’t tell her you came home by yourself, because that will get her upset, and you know she will have to give you consequences. You can say you walked home with a friend.”

She ignores him, staring sullenly straight ahead. He thinks she’ll tell, and it’s what he deserves. There’s going to be a bruise. He supposes he could try to deny it; there’s no predicting who Erin will believe. His daughter has a history of telling lies. He does, too, but his wife doesn’t know that.

He stands up and backs away from Avery. He has to get out of here, away from the sight of what he’s just done. He’s filled with self-loathing. He can feel his little girl’s reproach, imagines her calculating. She has something to use against him now. One more nail in the coffin of his marriage. He turns around and heads back out to the garage.

But when he gets to the car and reaches for his keys, he hesitates.





Two


Nora arrives home about a quarter to five. She’d run a few errands after leaving William at the motel, so that she’d have something to show for her absence. Faith is at soccer practice and should be home soon. Ryan must have gone out; his car is gone from the driveway. Her husband, Al, won’t be home till around six. She doesn’t have time for a shower, to lather away the smell of William. The smell of what they did together. How would she explain a shower in the afternoon if Ryan suddenly arrives home? Instead, she washes herself with a cloth at the bathroom sink.

She lets herself cry. It had to be done. Her own feelings don’t matter, she tells herself. She must live with the choices she’s made. She’s strong and she must get over him. But it won’t be easy—she’s in love with William. She knows now that she’d never been in love with her husband, even in the beginning. She and Al had loved each other once, but there had never been true passion there. Not like there is with William. Was.

She’s only forty-two. She still has her figure, her good looks. She’s not as stunning as she was twenty years ago, but she still turns heads when she enters a room. She can’t help it that she’s fallen for William, a handsome and charming doctor, that she still wants to be desired. But she can change her actions. She can stop seeing him. It’s too risky. She’s been selfish. Too many people will be hurt if they are found out: Her husband and children. His wife and their children. She doesn’t want to cause all that damage. She will have to stop volunteering at the hospital. She won’t be able to bear it, seeing him there, after this.

William’s impulsive suggestion that they leave their respective spouses and marry each other had come as a shock. Did he mean it? It had never occurred to her as even a possibility, but even if he did, it’s out of the question. Her kids, Faith and Ryan, would never forgive her, and they mean the world to her. No, she can’t risk losing them.

It’s right that she ended it. It’s a wonder they weren’t caught. No one must ever know. She’s been so worried that it shows—that she’s been feeling younger, prettier, happier, more alive these last few months. She has tried to hide it. She had to end things now, before someone noticed. Before Al noticed—if he hasn’t already. He’s been quieter than usual lately, more detached. But maybe something is going on at work. How could he know about her and William? They’ve been so careful.



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Michael is sweating after basketball practice. The coach is clearly pleased with him today, and it makes him glow. He wants to tell his mom and dad what the coach said about his play today. In the locker room, he wipes himself down with the towel from his gym bag. He slips off his basketball shorts and pulls on the sweatpants and sweatshirt in his bag. It’s almost mid-October, and it’s cool outside. He says a reluctant goodbye to his friends, who head out of the school in a pack, wishing he could go with them and enjoy being part of the team a little longer. Instead, he turns away and follows the halls to the music room at the other end of the school to pick up his little sister. He resents having to do this every Tuesday. Why can’t his mother get off work early one day a week and pick up Avery herself? She’s such a little pain in the ass, he thinks. He’s twelve now, in sixth grade, and he wants to hang out with his friends. There’s nothing cool about walking home with your little sister. He wonders what his friends are saying, what he’s missing.

He rounds the last corner to the hall with the music room. His sister isn’t sitting in her usual spot on the bench along the wall, with her backpack on her shoulder and impatiently scuffing her feet against the floor, waiting for him. He pokes his head inside the room and then enters. The music teacher, Ms. Burke, looks up and smiles at him. She remembers him—he was in choir, too, until he got to quit for sports instead. He glances around the room, but Avery’s not there.