Grayson's Vow (75)
I laughed despite myself, creasing my brow at the same time. “Did it ever work?”
“Rarely.” And yet, despite his comment, he smiled affectionately. He loved Walter too.
“Thank you for sharing what you did with me, Shane. It means a lot that you trust me enough to confide in me.”
He studied me for just a second, his face breaking into a smile. Without thinking, I leaned forward and hugged him, picturing the small boy he once was, alone in the dark as his brave older brother took his hand. He laughed, hugging me back. When I pulled away, he started to say, “I’m mostly—”
“You already stole one woman from me. Figure you might as well steal another?”
We both stood quickly as if we’d been caught doing something wrong. “Grayson, we were just—”
“Stay out of this, Kira,” he said, his furious gaze focused on Shane.
“Jesus, Gray,” Shane said incredulously. “We were just talking.”
Grayson stepped forward to Shane, his jaw hard and tight. I sucked in a sharp breath, not knowing if I wanted to cry or start throwing things. “I’m familiar with how just talking works,” Grayson said, his voice raised but his tone deadly cold, “and it doesn’t involve arms and bodies. So tell me, is that it, Shane? One isn’t enough? Looking to seduce Kira too?”
“Seduce Kira? What the fuck? God, you really are an idiot when you’re jealous. Do you think I would seduce your wife, you stupid fool?” he yelled.
Out of my peripheral vision, I saw Vanessa and Charlotte rushing toward us.
Grayson’s jaw ticked at the word jealous, his eyes lowering to slits as he glared at his brother. “Jealous? You think I find you untrustworthy because I’m jealous? Not because you’re a lying, betraying bastard? I’m not jealous.” He moved a step closer. “Jesus. She’s not even my real wife. We got married for money,” he growled.
I sucked in a breath of air that felt like I was inhaling razor blades, my face flushing with heat. The entire vineyard suddenly went quiet, not even the flutter of a leaf could be heard. I looked around: Shane’s and Vanessa’s expressions, shocked; Charlotte’s expression, pained. Grayson was still glaring at Shane, but when he saw that they were all looking at me, he turned his gaze in my direction, his expression seeming to clear momentarily as he became aware of what he’d just said. “Kira—” he started to say, but I turned around and ran, away from the looks, away from the judgment, away from the shame and searing pain. Away.
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
Grayson
I was a damn bastard. Not in the way my stepmother had often tossed it at me. In the way that meant I was a total ass. A jealous ass. Shane had been right. I’d walked up on him and Kira hugging and I’d lost my damn mind. I’d shut myself off completely since Shane and Vanessa had arrived, even ignoring Kira after I’d gone to her room and tried to sleep with her like a drunken fool. I could only blame myself if she went looking for comfort and companionship with Shane. Shane, who had always been the easygoing charmer. Shane, who had never disappointed anyone.
I don’t want you. I don’t want you at all.
No one wants you. No one ever has.
Of course she felt comfortable and safe with Shane—who didn’t? I felt another spear of jealousy, and I gritted my teeth. The possessiveness I’d felt when I’d seen Kira and Shane embracing had thrown me over the edge. I’d watched them over the past week, seen the way they strolled around the property, talking, even laughing. Something that felt close to despair swelled in my chest. Jesus, I needed to get ahold of myself. What was I jealous of anyway? She’d been willing to come to my bed—even if that was off the table now. What else did I want? Was I upset I’d sabotaged that for myself just like I seemed to sabotage everything good in my life? Or was it really just because Shane had stolen Vanessa from me? I hadn’t let myself think too much about it since they’d been here—hadn’t wanted to explore any of that. And so I’d simply shut down.
And then even worse, in some idiotic effort to prove I wasn’t jealous—and perhaps to hurt Kira too, I acknowledged that much—I’d exposed the truth of our marriage in a cruel, heartless way. The deep hurt and humiliation I’d seen in her eyes had sent guilt crashing over me. I’d become yet another man in her life using her as the scapegoat. Fuck. And then she’d run.
I turned the other way, heading down another path to find her so I could try to make it right after I’d left Shane, Vanessa, and Charlotte gaping after me. What a fucking mess this was. What a fucking mess I was. I felt like everything I’d been holding back all week was swirling inside me, coming to a boiling head.
What in the actual hell had happened to me?
I’d met Kira Dallaire, that’s what had happened to me.
I spotted her out in the south field, looking as if she was…collecting apricots off the ground. Was she holding them in the bottom of her shirt? For a second, I just stood and watched her as she hopped among the fruit, bending and collecting, bringing a piece of fruit to her nose now and again. What was she up to anyway? I tilted my head, watching the bewildering sight. I’d expected to find her sitting somewhere with her shoulders hunched or perhaps curled in the fetal position under a bush. Maybe I should have known by now only to expect the unexpected when it came to Kira.