Hoarded by the Dragon (Monstrous Matches, #4)(96)
Each word smooths over some of my riotous anger, even when I don’t want to lose those sharp edges.
Kalos’s eyes glow with determination even as his arms cradle me. “I was always going to return, but I needed to find balance before I could come back.”
The words are what I’ve spent days agonizing over, but now that I have them and everything else in the mix, I don’t know what to do with them. I look away from his imploring gaze and notice our surroundings for the first time.
We’re in his bedroom, but there’s no trace of the damage from the Leonid attack littering the sheets around us. It’s no different except for the flood of light in the room. I glance up, and my throat catches at the sight of the destroyed dome. There’s a distant birdsong from outside that conflicts with the broken part of our home.
My home.
“I love you, and it hurts so deeply,” I whisper without meaning to.
Kalos blinks in surprise. “You love me?”
“Yes, you thoughtless reptile!” I snarl.
Ignoring my animosity, the corners of his lips lift in a boyish expression of hope.
“Then I haven’t broken things beyond repair?” he asks.
The anger halts for a moment. It leaves a portion of calm that I don’t deserve.
“I don’t know,” I say, soft and broken. I don’t know anything. I don’t know how to get past what he’s done, what I’ve done. I don’t know how to resolve all of it with the knowledge that this place and these people feel like the only home I’ve ever known.
He lifts my chin and touches his lips to mine softly. “Then rest, Rina. Let me care for you. Everything else can be addressed later.”
“And she’s okay,” I say against his lips as a reminder to myself more than anything else.
Kalos nods. “She’s okay. You’re okay. And I’m never letting you go.”
That should be alarming, but my tired mind mercifully leaves it for later.
43
KALOS
“EVERYTHING IS SET TO BE FINALIZED,” Ben says with a professional air as if we stand in a conference room rather than the back of a cathedral. His manner is fitting. This is a business deal after all. One that he’s been able to pull off within seventy-two hours from the moment Stella sat across from my desk and made the choice that brought her father down.
The audience shuffles around to sit, lacking the usual joyful emotions of a wedding. The people representing the Leonid contingent, distant relations, and those who reside in the territory, are subdued and watchful.
Stoneheart’s half of the church is watchful as well. The gargoyle keeps an interesting mix of people as his inner circle. A lizard man stands beside him in the position of best man. They look to be conversing about business in the same manner that Ben and I are. The rest of his crowd are less wide-eyed than the Leonids and more tense in anticipation of a fight, but there will be no violence today.
This contract is neat, and by the end of it, the Council will be unable to blame me for any of it.
Councilor Moon glares at me from the end of the aisle, but I’m unconcerned with his ire. He loves to officiate weddings. If any of the other Council members invited are glaring at me as well, I don’t notice it.
The wedding is large and formal by necessity. Almost every pew is filled in the grand building. This union is a statement of Stoneheart’s power as much as it is of my influence.
Each Council member was invited, but I think only a few shifters have turned up. Probably to see if there can be any way of invalidating the mating agreement between Stella and Stoneheart. Moon reported that a good portion of the Council wants me drawn and quartered, but they must follow their own laws.
News of what I did to Lorenzo Leonid has become common knowledge, and none of the attendees around us dare to catch my eye. If the engagement hadn’t been signed in blood, the Council would have attempted to take my head by now.
The success of destroying a territory leader who meant my family ill should be a moment of triumph, but I barely register it. This victory is hollow if I cannot succeed in making my amends with Katarina.
With that thought, I glance at the closed door to the room where Katarina is helping Stella get ready.
To say that my mate is upset with how I circumvented the Council’s rules is an understatement.
“Do you think she’s okay?” Ben asks.
“Who do you mean?” My voice is cold toward my second-in-command.
“Katarina, obviously.” Ben looks away, and his cheeks flush.
It will take some time to forgive Ben for putting Katarina and our daughter in danger. His plan worked, and there were few other options for a good outcome, but that doesn’t stop my anger.
That this wedding seems to be tormenting him feeds my vicious nature some. Ben has denied all interest in Stella, but that doesn’t change the way his jaw clenches or the look of hate he casts toward Stoneheart.
The gargoyle has picked up on his animosity, but luckily for Ben, seems to find it amusing rather than take offense.
My friend has fucked himself with this plan of his, and eventually I’ll be sympathetic about it, but not at this moment.
“Katarina is… healing,” I finally say. I don’t know how else to phrase it. I’ve spent as much time as she’ll allow me holding her, feeding heat to our daughter, and sharing whatever energy I can through our thread-thin mating bond that is perceivable now that I’m not suppressing my dragon.