Just Friends(73)
My heart starts drumming in my chest, and I stand from the couch to smooth out my wine-red floor-length dress. Lottie gifted it to me two summers ago, and I picture how she would smile if she saw me in it now.
A knock at my door startles me out of the thought. I exhale fast. Why do I feel like a middle schooler who’s about to go on her first date? I swing the door open. Declan and my eyes meet, and it feels more invasive than the Spanx digging into my thighs. His mouth parts like he’s about to speak, but he closes it as his eyes skim my body.
“Blair, you look”—he raises a hand to the back of his neck—“jaw-dropping.”
“Thank you,” I say. He studies me for another moment, and the blatant indulgence in his eyes causes me to speak again, like a knee-jerk-need to kill earnest moments. “Mm-hmm. That’s weird.”
“What?”
“Your jaw is still firmly in place.” I furrow my brow, searching the bottom half of his face.
A boyish laugh rushes out of him, so fast it changes the landscape of his entire face in an instant. And I think, those tiny lines that crinkle by his eyes when he smiles will never not make my heart clench with painful adoration.
Declan helps me into his car and then drives us to the banquet hall. The stunning venue sits at the top of a cliff, with a breathtaking ocean view, black rocks jutting out melodramatically. The type of place that costs thirty thousand dollars to rent for a single night.
Older couples are stepping out of luxurious cars, brands I have never heard of, in opulent ball gowns and accompanying men in suits. My breath becomes uneven as I recognize the parents of my old peers. It will be my first time seeing Declan’s parents since the accident.
“Come on,” he says softly, holding his elbow aloft so that I can loop my arm through his. My breath stutters as I remember that he brought me here as his date.
“Yes, monsieur,” I tease.
Declan exhales sharply through his nose in response.
My hand tremors slightly on his arm, and my eyes can’t focus on a single target, darting around anxiously at the patrons entering around us.
“Okay, so here’s what’s going to happen. There will be a five-course dinner comprised of tiny geometric shapes that barely look like food, a few thank-you speeches, and some dancing. We’ll dance like we’re in one of your favorite fantasy books, and we can play that game where we guess who the highest donor will be.” He speaks soothingly in a low voice near my ear as we approach the entrance.
I nod and blow out a breath. Declan going over the order of events eases my nerves. The nerves I hadn’t said a word about. Registering that fact sends a familiar zing down my spine.
We pass a sign that reads: TIDES OF CHANGE
And then in a smaller font below that: Preserving Seabrook’s historic charm, marine life, and wildlife habitat
We find our seats near the front of the ballroom, at a round table covered in a white cloth, delicate china placed in perfect formation. Declan pulls my chair for me, tucking it in as I sit down.
“Thanks,” I murmur.
He takes the seat to my right. The rest of the seats are occupied by faces I don’t recognize, but there are two empty spots across from me. A glass is clinked into the microphone, quieting everyone and signaling the official start of the event. I look up to find Declan’s mom, Gwen, behind the microphone, and my body unexpectedly tenses. My vision goes fuzzy at the edges, and I have to remind myself not to stare at her with wide eyes. The last time I saw her face, I was on her front doorstep, begging for the opportunity to see her son.
“Good evening, everybody!” she purrs, hair balanced in an impressive updo. “Welcome to the Cypress Grove Community’s annual charity gala.” She pauses to allow the audience’s applause. “We know you’ve all been hard at work, and we are grateful for your generous contributions to the Tides of Change fundraiser this year. And of course, none of this would have been possible without my husband, Randall. Randall, please come up, honey.”
At an intimidating six foot three and a stern set to his jaw, he strides from the side of the ballroom as the crowd erupts in applause again. He smiles and waves with the perfect amount of bashfulness to pass beneath the bar of conceit. Randall checks every box when it comes to being a charismatic man. Everyone in Seabrook loves him. But I’ve always found him unnerving. Perhaps it was from seeing the amount of pressure he put on Declan behind the scenes. The pressure of keeping up the appearance of a perfect family, garnering accomplishments that deserve their peer’s veneration.
But it seems like Declan has grown up to crave the opposite. He could have led with the fact that he owned the coffee shop, but I had no idea until this week. It was like he’d rather people underestimate him so that he knew your affection was coming from a trustworthy place.
My train of thought is broken when I hear Gwen’s voice go soft. “Randall, my beautiful husband, thank you for all that you do, not only for this community but for how you take care of us at home, first and foremost. As you all know, our family has been through some unexpected trials in the past few years.” She glances at Declan, and when she catches sight of me, her eyes flicker with something. Her expression falters for a split second, but she recovers so quickly I think I’ve exaggerated it. “But your steadfastness and strength has been the grounding pillar that guided us through the toughest of days. And despite it all, somehow, you still managed to support the health of this thriving community.” Gwen gestures to the audience with a dramatic flourish, eyes shining beneath the spotlight, and everyone breaks into applause again. The speech feels forced to me, but something about the way Gwen and Randall are locking eyes right now feels real. Weighted in a way I can’t pinpoint. I glance over my shoulder at Declan, who is clapping along with the crowd with an easy smile on his face.