Let Me Love You (10)
“And you promised not to get involved.” I reached back and patted one of his hands, a request to let me go. He backed away, and I took a moment to process everything before facing him. “You broke your word to me.”
His head was bowed, hands on the rolling cart alongside the cake. His broad shoulders relaxed forward.
“Thomas already hates you. But like it or not, he’s in my life because of shared custody.” I lifted my eyes to the ceiling, trying to prevent the tears from falling. There’d probably be twenty-nine of them, too. “I don’t want him making things worse for us. We’re friends. Colleagues. Next-door neighbors.”
“And you think I fear him?” he asked once our eyes met again.
“I know you don’t fear him, but what if he—”
“If that man ever hurt you or Chiara, there’d be no mercy, Maria. No fucking mercy, and you have to know that.” That harsh tone of his had chills rolling over my heated skin.
He straightened to his full height of six-three and rounded the cart to stand before me. “He lost you. Lost his perfect family because he’s a fucking idiota, Maria. And the least he could do was be honest so you could get out of that marriage quicker. I couldn’t take seeing you in pain anymore, knowing you wanted to be free of him.”
While he stood tall, my shoulders shrank. I wanted to cover my face and hide from this man. A man who made me feel so many different emotions all the time, and I couldn’t always make sense of them.
After my split with Thomas, I’d ridiculously hoped one day Enzo and I might have a second chance now that he lived in Charlotte and had swapped his suit for a chef’s coat. “And is that what you wanted? Did you want me to be single?”
“I just want you to be happy. You’re my friend, and I care about you.”
Friend. I let go of a flustered breath, and he circled my forearm, unexpectedly drawing me closer. Swallowing my personal space. Something a friend wouldn’t do. “The second I left him last year, you moved me into the apartment next to yours, and—”
“Yeah, to watch out for you and Chiara. To keep you safe.”
“And did you force your neighbor to move out so I could move in the same way you forced Thomas to confess about the cheating?”
I’d been living next to Enzo in the city since the separation, only five minutes away from the home I’d shared with Thomas. Part of the agreement with Thomas was that I live nearby with our daughter.
Enzo happened to already be living in the area, and when he’d mentioned the place next to his was available, it seemed too good to be true. But it hadn’t been fate, it’d been grade-A Enzo interference. He was about as frustrating when it came to my safety as my mother was regarding my love life.
“I’m just trying to protect you,” was all the stubborn man would give me. Not a shocker.
“From what? Going down dark halls with strange men?” It was a joke, but he didn’t seem to find me funny.
“If I have to, yes.” He let go of my wrist but didn’t back away. No, he was still so close it wouldn’t take much for him to give me yet another birthday kiss. “Listen, I don’t want to fight on your birthday.”
“Then you should’ve waited until tomorrow to confess your guilt.”
“I’m so sorry, Maria,” he rasped. “You’re right. I suppose I owe you a birthday do-over.”
The sudden distressed look of his hurt my heart, so I admitted, “I’m relieved to be divorced earlier than expected.” And of course that was the truth. “I just don’t want Thomas causing any more problems for anyone because of whatever you did to convince him.” No bruises on Thomas’s face recently, so that was a good sign. I didn’t think Enzo would hurt Chiara’s father even if he wanted to, though. “I know he’s not a threat to you because you’re . . . you. I don’t know. Thank you, I guess?”
I nervously threaded my fingers together, wondering if I ought to tell him something that’d been on my mind ever since I’d signed the divorce papers. We were already having an uncomfortable conversation, why not make it worse?
“What is it?” he asked, reading my thoughts.
“I’m going to start dating again in the near future,” I shared. “At the very least, I need rebound sex.” Damn my lack of filter. But hell, since I’d dug the hole, why not bury myself? “I’ve only ever been with Thomas, and I—”
“He took your virginity? He was the only one you . . .” His fingers dove into his hair as he turned toward the cake.
“It could’ve been you.” And I’d lost count of the number of times I’d wished it had been after that hot kiss in New York. “You had rules, though.”
He whirled around as if I’d insulted him. Pointing toward the floor, his gaze harsh and nearly cutting, he hissed, “If you’d been with me, you’d never have had sex with anyone else after, that I can assure you.”
“You said you’d break my heart,” I reminded him, and he prowled my way in two quick steps and gently snatched my chin.
“Do you really think if we’d slept together, I would’ve been able to walk away from you?” He didn’t give me a chance to respond before sharing, “But I wasn’t lying about being bad for you, and then you would’ve been stuck in hell with me, and I couldn’t do that to you and . . .”