Stars in Your Eyes(76)

We get beers. Neither of us are eating. I guess we both want to get out of here as fast as possible. Maybe that’s just me. Briggs smirks over the rim of his glass as he drinks. His legs are long, so when he leans back in his seat, his knees bump into mine. He doesn’t readjust.

“I was upset you thought I assaulted you.”

“You did assault me.”

“We’ve fucked like that plenty of times before. You never minded.”

“I minded this time.”

“Why?”

I shrug. I know the answer is Matt. I just don’t want to say his name right now.

Briggs picks up on it anyway. “How’s the boyfriend?” he asks.

“We’re breaking up,” I say.

He laughs. “Of course.”

“Matt’s supposed to post something on social tonight.”

Briggs leans closer to me. “I’ll have to keep an eye out, then.”

I’m not attracted to Briggs. Not anymore. Was I ever? His knees start to open mine. I don’t want him to touch me. The thought makes me sick, and feeling his leg press against mine is pulling me out of my body again. I drink more beer. He takes the glass away from my mouth and out of my hand, forcing me to pay attention. That would’ve excited me, once. I would’ve considered him fun.

“Why don’t we help the announcement along, then?”

I squint at him. “What?”

Briggs pulls back again, eyeing me. “We could make a show of it. Like we’ve done before.”

I shrug. The fact that I didn’t say “no” out loud is enough for him. He leans forward and presses his mouth to mine. He pushes his tongue against my lips. My body shuts down. I wonder, distantly, if this is technically assault also. He has to know I’m uncomfortable. That I don’t want him touching me. I remember Matt. Even if we’d kissed a million times before, he always paused and asked me for permission. He was so aware of my constant need for consent that it upset me at first. Annoyed me, that he thought I was someone who had to be treated delicately. Who deserved to be shown so much care.

I pull away, unable to look at Briggs. “I’m going to go.”

He wipes the corner of his mouth. “You used to be a lot more fun.”

I slide my chair back, away from his knees. When I stand, I see that across the restaurant someone has their phone out, pointed at us. They’re not embarrassed to be caught. They keep recording or taking pictures or whatever the hell it is they’re doing. Probably going to make thousands on this. I can’t even be mad at them. I chose to come here, right? I try to take my time as I leave, even though I’m shaking and my legs are weak.

Fuck. I’m tired. I’m tired of being caught in this cycle. Why would I even agree to meet Briggs like this? I knew what was going to happen: he would treat me like shit, push my boundaries, touch me without my consent. Around and around I go again.





RED ALERT: BREAKING NEWS




My dearest cherubs,



Feast your eyes on this latest visual entertainment:



[Video begins: The setting is a dark, grainy restaurant. Beneath the table, we see one man’s leg rubbing another man’s leg. The camera shakes and zooms in. The faces are blurry as one man kisses the other. One man gets up, looks at the camera. The image is blurry. Video ends.]

[Photos, side by side: Clearer images of Logan Gray sitting with Briggs Stevenson.]

I am so excited—no, thrilled—to return with more Logan Gray Is a Fucking Asshole? content! I’m over the moon for this newest blessing, because honestly, where would I be in my life without reasons to shit on Logan Gray? It’s like he writes these posts himself, and I’m ever-so-grateful that he continues to be the sort of trash fire human being that should probably off himself to stop this endless humiliation.



What? Too harsh?



Fine, then I’ll revise: I think that he should politely excuse himself from this earth and life, for his own sake. But, thankfully for ours, he’s still around so that we’ll be able to witness and enjoy his consistent disgrace.



I’m looking forward to the vague apology for cheating on Matthew Cole that’ll be released, so that I can begin the official countdown to the next Logan Gray incident.



Goodbye, my loves,

Angel





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@parrotwars


I, for one, will be watching Write Anything to support Matthew Cole and the amazing cast and crew who put the movie together and to support the future of queer film. It’s unfortunate that Logan Gray was ever attached to it.

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@facinwashere


Is anyone really that shocked that he cheated???? He’s treated people like shit for most of his adult life. UM HELLO, yes he’s trash! He will always be trash!

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@everydayhustlin


Logan Gray has told us exactly who he is, again and again. He cheated on Willow Grace, so of course he cheated on Matthew Cole, too. Mattie seems like a sweetheart, and he deserves better.