Strange Sally Diamond(65)
Aunt Christine was surprised to see me surrounded by so many people. ‘But where did they all come from?’ she asked.
‘They’re my friends,’ I announced.
‘Oh darling, that’s wonderful. I’m so proud of you.’ Her eyes filled with tears and I knew she was thinking of Donald. I handed her a napkin. ‘Thank you, it’s … I wasn’t going to come. It feels wrong to celebrate … it’s so soon after, and I’m much older than everyone else.’
Mark appeared at our sides. ‘Christine, how lovely to see you. Come and take a seat in the shade here. May I prepare you a plate of food or would you like to come and see?’
‘Thank you, Mark,’ I said as Aunt Christine allowed herself to be led away to the catering end of the tent. I thought it was kind of him to make a fuss of her. She seemed a little suspicious of him after the funeral, but then I heard them laughing together in the tent. He arranged a chair and table for her and sat with her, filling her glass. The sun was high in the sky. I was drinking slowly, diluting my wine with water as much as possible. It seemed like it was the perfect day.
Later, a calm descended, which suited my mood. Rodriguo lit the outdoor citronella candles. It was still mild, but dusk was the time when the biting insects came out to play.
Mark sought me out and helped me ferry glasses into the kitchen.
‘Before you ask,’ I said, ‘there are no further developments in New Zealand. I think Conor Geary is no longer there, or he never was, and maybe he had the parcel sent from there to confuse me.’
‘Bastard. And he was free to kidnap another child, wherever he went.’
‘I try hard not to think about it. I want you to stop talking about him.’
‘Right. Sorry.’
‘By the way, if you like Anubha, you’ll have to try a little harder with her.’
‘What?’
‘Didn’t you tell me you liked her?’
His face flushed. ‘I suppose I did. But … it’s hard when you work together.’
I don’t understand romantic relationships. I let it go.
I heard loud laughter outside and when I went out Angela and Nadine were having a go on the bouncy castle. Sue winked at me. ‘Sal! I knew this would happen!’
Angela came back, breathless. ‘Jesus, I should know better. Do you have any idea how many injuries I see as a result of drunken adults on bouncy castles?’ She clapped me on the back. ‘Damn good party, Sally. I didn’t think I’d ever see this day. This is what Jean wanted for you. Friends and fun!’
Was this what happiness felt like? Laughing and smiling came easily to me today.
Until I heard the high-pitched whistle.
38
Peter, 1985
Dad kept Lindy locked in the barn, the same way he’d kept my mother locked in the annexe. Her ankle was shackled to the wall. Her disappearance had been on the TV news for weeks afterwards, but nobody mentioned seeing her get into our car. I guess Dad had parked a little outside the main car park for a reason and, if anyone did see us, we looked like a normal family. Lindy wasn’t forced into the car. There was no screaming or crying. We were all nondescript. Dad had told me that day to leave the hat at home, so there was nothing unusual about us.
The police theory was that she had fallen into the lake but, obviously, divers had not recovered a body. In the weeks afterwards I was worried sick about what we had done. Dad kept the barn key with him at all times. He told me that if we let her go, we’d both go to prison. He reminded me that I wouldn’t survive the arrest because the police would manhandle me. I would die in terrible agony. He acted like he had kidnapped this girl to do me a huge favour, to give me a friend. But why a girl?
After the first few weeks, I visited Lindy every day once he got home. He unlocked the door and then locked me in with her for an hour or two. In the beginning it was terrible because she was so hysterical and distressed. She tried to escape so many times that first year. She threw boiling water at both of us. Dad was badly scalded, but I got out of the way in time. After that, Dad disconnected the gas to her stove and she got no hot food for a month, and that was a cold winter. But each time Dad put things further out of her reach or discovered a new tunnel site and blocked it up, I would try and make things easier for her. I was saving up to get her a television. I used to watch her soap operas so that I could tell her what was going on with all the characters. I installed new lights to make the place brighter. I gave her Vaseline to ease the chafing of the chain around her ankle.
Dad let her go outside sometimes, behind the house, but each time, she tried to run, even though he was holding one end of the chain. I wished she would learn to accept it, that her place was here with us. It was too late after two years to release her. She was stuck with us. She hated me too, until she realized that I didn’t hate girls as much as Dad did. She begged me to release her and I asked Dad, several times, but he got angry each time, and I learned not to bring it up.
The older I got, the more I felt my isolation. What must Lindy have felt? I was earning some money from my market gardening. Dad and I had flattened Rangi’s house and tilled the land. I grew vegetables and some fruit: potatoes, carrots, silverbeet, string beans, broad beans, parsnips, strawberries, cabbage and lettuce. I sold my vegetables to Kai, the manager of the small Clayburn superette in town. It was best to keep as many crops going as possible. It meant that if one failed for whatever reason, I’d always have something else to sell. I wanted my own money and it kept me busy while Dad was at work.