The Wishing Game(74)



“He likes you. Our Hugo. I bet if you went down to the house right now and told him you wanted him to kiss you, he would. If you told him you had decided you didn’t want to finish the game, didn’t want to talk to your sister, he’d understand.”

“Maybe so.”

“So why don’t you? It’s either talk to Angie or quit the game.”

Lucy pictured herself giving up, giving in—one less thing to worry about, as Jack said—and it was a nice picture. Walking down the stony path to Hugo’s little house, knocking on the door, telling him what happened, that Jack had sprung her sister on her, the sister who’d hurt her unforgivably. Hugo would be sympathetic. He’d hold her. He’d kiss her if she told him to. She’d cry to him. He’d comfort her. They’d go for a walk on the beach…the first of many walks on the beach together. I can’t do it anymore, she’d tell him. How can I take care of Christopher when I can’t take care of myself?

And maybe he would say, It’s all right. I’ll take care of you.

And someone else out there could take care of Christopher. And he’d be fine. Eventually.

A nice dream.

Tempting.

Lucy stood up and went to the big picture window in Jack’s office. She gazed down the path to Hugo’s, then at the sunlight dancing on the water.

“I went to live with my grandparents when I was eight. I always wanted my parents to come for me at school,” she said. “Just show up one day, pick me up and take me home. Never happened.”

Jack went to the window, stood beside her. “I’m sorry. It should have happened. If you’d been mine, I would have gone into your classroom with balloons, an ice cream cone, and then put you on the back of a pony and thrown a parade to have you back.”

“I can’t give Christopher a parade,” she said, “and I can’t…I can’t even pick him up and take him home. But I can show up. I can do that.”

Jack turned and kissed her gently on the forehead—like she always wanted her father to do—and said softly, “See? I was right. I told you Astrid was still here.”

Astrid. Her.

Lucy went downstairs to face her fears.



* * *





Lucy opened the library door and found Angie standing at one of the bookshelves holding a copy of The House on Clock Island in her hands. She closed it and held it against her chest like a shield.

“Hey,” Angie said.

“Hey.”

“Sorry to surprise you. I…Anyway, you look great.” Angie smiled. “I can’t believe how old you are. I barely recognized you. What were you, seventeen, eighteen maybe, the last time I—”

“Angie,” Lucy said. “I’m here only because Jack asked me to talk to you.”

Her sister didn’t seem surprised by that. She looked at the floor, then said, “Sorry. Really.” Angie sounded scared. Or was it ashamed? She finally looked up at Lucy. “But it is good to see you.”

“Is it?”

“It is. Believe it or not.” She crossed her arms over her chest, pressing the book to her heart.

Lucy sat on the sofa’s arm where Hugo always perched when in the library. Angie gave her a wary smile and sat opposite her on the sofa.

“Before you say anything else,” Angie said, “I wanted to tell you that I’m sorry for showing up here without warning you. I wanted to call you, but Jack asked me not to tell you. Plus, I thought if I tried calling you, you’d hang up on me.”

“I would have.”

“Yeah, which I understand.”

“Do you?” Lucy leaned forward, studying this stranger who was supposedly her closest family. “Do you have any idea what it’s like to grow up feeling unloved and unwanted by your entire family? And not just to feel like it but to know—for a fact—you weren’t wanted? Didn’t you say so yourself? Your exact words: ‘Mom and Dad only had you because they thought I needed a bone marrow transplant. They didn’t want you and neither do I.’ You said that, right? And in front of literally twenty people at your sixteenth birthday party. Your birthday party I was so excited I was allowed to attend? You were like a celebrity to me, Angie. I used my own money to buy a new outfit. Grandma did my hair up perfect. Stupid me thinking maybe I could finally move back home? Oh, but you couldn’t stand that idea. You couldn’t share Mom and Dad for a single second. All I did was ask Mom if I could move home and you decided to tell everyone in the entire house that I was basically an expensive purchase you all couldn’t return.” All the anger and pain Lucy had bottled up for years poured out at once. “Do you remember that? Because I remember it almost every single day.”

She could still hear those words ringing in her ears—They didn’t want you and neither do I…

Lucy had been twelve years old.

“I…” Angie glanced away.

Coward, Lucy thought. Her own sister couldn’t even look her in the eyes.

“I did say that, yes. I did say those awful words.” Finally, Angie looked at her. “I would give anything to take them back. And I’m sorry. I’m very, very sorry. Sorry enough I won’t ask you to forgive me or make excuses. I was only sixteen, but you know what? I knew I was being horrible, and I said it anyway. I’d take those words back if I could, but I can’t. All I can do is tell you I’m sorry.”

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