Falk had to smile at that. “Mostly, as far as I know.”
“So would they understand?” she said. “If they’d heard what you just said?”
He thought about it. The answer was clearer than he’d expected. “Probably.”
“They’d forgive you?”
He looked over. “I can see where you’re going with this.”
“So that’s a yes?”
“Yeah. I think so.”
“And now that a bit of time’s passed, would any of these normal, decent people have a huge problem with you forgiving yourself?”
He made himself consider, but he found he already knew the answer. “No.” The word itself felt like a release. “I mean, of course they wouldn’t.” He looked across at Gemma. She still didn’t seem surprised.
“What kind of farming was your dad in?” she said after a moment. “Back in your old town. Sheep, was it?”
“Yeah.”
“What was his general position on chasing losses?”
Falk smiled. “He thought it was bullshit.”
“I’ll bet he did.” Gemma smiled back. “And look, only you know what’s going to be best for you. So I’m really not pushing one way or the other—as much as I’d love to, I’m not. But I do think it’s worth stopping and looking around once in a while. Take stock. See if anything’s changed over time.”
Falk didn’t reply. He gazed out across the darkened valley once more, then he got up from the bench and reached for her hand. Gemma stood, too, and stepped in close as he wrapped his arms tight around her. He buried his face in her hair, and the smell of the shampoo and fabric softener blurred with the relief of the conversation and the memory of her sheets in the afternoon sun.
“Thank you,” he said, and he felt her shrug lightly against him and hug him tighter.
“Thank you, too. This was perfect, by the way. Sweeping, romantic. So practical.”
Falk smiled, his lips against her head. Night had fallen fully, he realized, when they eventually pulled apart.
“Well, I could seriously stay here for hours.” He glanced at the sky and reluctantly checked his watch again. “But we had better head off if we’re going to get you back.”
Gemma touched Falk’s chest gently with her fingertips and looked up into his face. “Do you know what my second-favorite romantic trait is?”
“I’m hoping it’s punctuality.”
“You read my mind.”
33
They drove back to the festival in a silence that was warm and relaxed, if not fully contented. Unresolved decisions, Falk supposed. He watched the winding road ahead as Gemma stared out of the window, both wrapped deep in their own thoughts. The streets grew busier as they neared the grounds, and when Falk turned in to the parking lot, Gemma sighed and pulled out her phone. She scrolled through her messages, and Falk glanced across at the passenger seat.
“Didn’t miss too much?”
“No. It all seems—” She paused, though, her finger hovering above the screen.
He maneuvered into a parking space as she tapped a button and lifted the phone to her ear. Falk could hear the tinny whisper of a voicemail and looked over in time to catch her frown.
“Everything okay?” he asked as she lowered the phone.
There was another pause, a little longer this time. Gemma was staring at her screen, her face lit by the artificial glow. “Has Greg called you as well?” she asked.
Falk turned off the engine and reached for his own phone. A few work messages, but nothing from Raco. “What did he want?”
Gemma was listening to the voicemail again. She hung up and clicked the screen to black. The lights from the festival entrance shone bright through the car windshield, and the sounds of music and crowds floated through the air.
“He wants to know exactly when I last saw Kim.”
“Does he say why?”
“No.”
* * *
Falk kissed Gemma goodbye inside the main gates and watched her disappear down the path in the direction of the festival headquarters. When she was gone, he took out his phone and tried Raco, listening to the ringtone on the other end. No answer. Falk thought for a minute, then set off in the direction of the vineyard stall.
The Monday-night festival crowd was lighter and easier to navigate, and Falk could see farther ahead than he was used to. He spotted Raco’s family and friends gathered around the stall before any of them saw him. The casual workers were once again behind the table, smiling and pouring for customers, and Falk saw Charlie unloading a crate of bottles. Shane was there as well, leaning against a post, chatting to someone. As he laughed and shifted his weight, Falk saw a blond head appear. Naomi. She was laughing, too.
“Hey, you made it.”
Falk felt a hand on his arm and turned at the voice. Rita.
“How was your evening?” she asked, interested but not intrusive.
“It was really nice, thanks.”
“Well, it’s about to get even better because we’re heading over to tackle the kids’ rides in a minute.” She grinned. “If you want to join me for the walk? Please say yes.”
“I would, but—” Falk scanned the group. Across the track, Raco’s older brother, Ben, was shepherding his various children out of the way of passersby while managing to simultaneously hold a conversation with Rohan. Zoe was watching them from her stroller, looking bored. “Where’s Greg?”
“He’s with Eva and Zara. They’ve gone to see Joel at the first-aid station.”
“By the east exit? Did he say why?”
“No. Just to say hello, I think.” Rita had caught the note in his voice, though, and frowned. “They should be back soon.”
“Right.” Falk’s eyes met hers. She’d lived with a police officer long enough that some things could go unsaid. “Listen, has he mentioned anything to you?”
“About what? Kim?”
“Yeah.”
“Not to me. Not today, anyway.” Rita shifted her weight to glance beyond Falk, over to where the rest of the family was starting to move, gathering up children and belongings. She turned back. “Go and talk to him. You know where we’ll be.”
The east of the site was as empty as always, and Falk passed only a handful of people after he cleared the rides and stalls and drew closer to the exit.
He spotted Raco straightaway, standing alone, a few steps beyond the rope that hung across the break in the fence. He had his back turned and his arms folded across his chest as he stared out at the bushland. Joel and Zara were watching him in silence from the first-aid station, while Eva played with Joel’s blood pressure cuff. They all looked up as Falk came nearer, and he caught a flash of relief cross the teenagers’ faces. How long had Raco been standing there like that? Falk raised a hand to them, then ducked under the rope himself.
Raco turned at the sound. “Oh. G’day.” His voice was flat, and his eyes slid straight back to the reservoir track. He wasn’t smiling.
“Hi, mate,” Falk said, stepping onto the path beside him. They stood shoulder to shoulder, looking down to where the body of water lay hidden beyond the trees. Falk hesitated, but only for a moment. If he couldn’t trust Raco, he couldn’t trust anyone. “Gemma says the answer is around fifteen months before Kim disappeared.”