She glares at me, rotating her hips, wanting me deeper, but I hold onto her hips, denying her demands. “Alec ,” she says, my name a plea on her lips.
A burst of satisfaction courses through me, and I smile in delight as I push back into her, hard .
“Good girl,” I tell her, taking her lips, losing myself in her. I’ve fucking missed her. Her body, the way she feels, the way she moans my name. I’ve missed feeling this close to her.
I lift her up higher against the wall, driving into her at an angle I know she loves. The way she moans is unreal.
“Oh God, Alec,” she says, panting. She looks into my eyes, and I watch as desire overcomes her. Her muscles tighten around me, and she fucking milks me.
I shudder as I come deep inside her, my head dropping to her shoulder. We’re both panting, and Elena pushes against me. I lower her to the floor gently, and she shoves me away, creating distance between us, the moment broken.
She fixes her clothes, her cheeks bright crimson. When she looks back at me, there’s no passion left in her eyes, there’s only anger. “Forget that happened,” she snaps. “Sign the goddamn papers and let’s be done with this.”
She walks to the door and opens it forcefully.
“Elena.”
She pauses and turns back to look at me.
“Nothing happened with Jennifer. I ran into her and spoke to her for a couple of minutes. I shouldn’t have let her touch me at all, but I swear to you… all she did was touch my face. That is all.”
Elena shakes her head, her expression sorrowful. “Just sign the papers, Alexander. I don’t want to do this anymore. I’m sick of being reminded of the way you used to love her, and probably still do. I’m tired. I’m done. I’m done coming second to the memory of her.”
I cross my arms over each other and shake my head. “Never,” I tell her. “I’ll never sign. If you won’t be with me, I’ll make it impossible for you to ever marry someone else. I’ll never let you go.”
She looks sorrowful as she tears her gaze away. “You already have,” she says, her voice breaking.
Elena walks out, the door slamming closed behind her.
Chapter 61
A lexander
I stare up at Elena’s house and lean back against my car, my eyes on her window.
“Are you ever going to talk to her?”
I jump in surprise, my eyes widening when Sarah walks up behind me.
“You’ve been coming here every night for two weeks now. This is getting creepy, Alec.”
I smile nervously. “I’m sorry. I didn’t realize you were aware of my presence. I didn’t mean to disturb you.”
I don’t even know what I’m doing here. I keep telling myself that I’ll do what’s best for her, that I’ll let her go. When she married me, she never had a choice. I want her to find her own happiness, I don’t want to hold her back and chain her to me. Yet I can’t get myself to sign the papers.
Sarah smiles and leans back against my car, standing next to me. She looks up into Elena’s window the way I just did and shakes her head.
“So instead of calling her, you just stand here for hours in hopes of catching a glimpse of her?”
I look away and shake my head. “No… I… I don’t mean to come here, yet somehow this is where I end up every night. It isn’t intentional, it’s just… I don’t know.”
She laughs. “Alexander Kennedy, flustered. Never thought I’d see the day.”
I look down at my shoes, unable to even force a smile.
“She’s going on a date tomorrow, you know? She’s moving on. It’s about time. It’s been a month since you two separated.”
I freeze, my eyes finding Sarah’s. I feel sick, the feelings coursing through me are ones I can’t even describe. Violent anger, intense fear… and regret. Intense fucking regret.
Sarah pats my arm. “It’s for the best,” she says. “Elena has had a tough life so far. She deserves to be loved, to be spoiled. She deserves to be swept off her feet. And you… you can’t give her what she needs, can you?”
She smiles as she walks away, and I stare after her. Elena… on a date. My mind spirals out of control, showing me images of her with someone that isn’t me. If she goes on that date, will she kiss him the way she kissed me? Will she smile at him? Will she ask him about three good things that might have happened to him that day? All those things that she used to reserve for me, will she give it all to someone else?
Chapter 62
E lena
I wake up to the sound of my window rattling and sit up in alarm, fear gripping me. I glance at the window and freeze, my eyes widening in shock when I realize it’s being pushed open by someone. I rise to my feet, ready to scream for help, when I recognize him. I’d recognize him anywhere.
“Alexander?”
He closes the window behind him, his movements uncertain as he walks up to me, and I meet him halfway.
“What are you doing here?”
He cups my cheek, tenderly, and I place my own hand over his, concerned.
“Alec, your hand is freezing. What’s going on?”
He shakes his head and wraps me into his embrace, holding me tightly. “Elena,” he whispers, my name a plea on his lips.
I pull away from him, worried. I’ve never seen him look so vulnerable before, so hurt.
“Alec, why are you here? Did you… did you seriously just climb through my window?”
I haven’t seen him since that time in his bedroom. I’d just about given up hope. I was certain that walking away was the right choice, yet here he is, standing in front of me in the middle of the night.
“I-yes. I did. You have so much security, this was the easiest way to get to you.”
I stare at him in disbelief as he grabs a strand of my hair and pushes it behind my ear. “I promised myself I wouldn’t approach you. I was going to let you go, Elena. I wanted you to have everything I knew I could never give you.”
He drops to his knees, trembling. Alec wraps his arms around me, his head pressed against my hip.
“Alec, you’re worrying me.”
I sink down to my knees the way he has, and he grabs my shoulders.
“Elena,” he says. “I can’t do it. I know you deserve better, but I can’t stay away. I can’t.”
My heart starts to race as I look into his eyes. Alec wraps his hand around the back of my neck the way he likes doing, his thumb resting against my throat.
“I know it’s fucking selfish. I fucking know. But fuck. I can’t live without you. I can’t let you walk into someone else’s arms.” He drops his forehead to mine and inhales shakily. “You always ask me about three good things that happened during my day, but baby, everything good in my life is you. The three best things to have happened in my entire life were meeting you, marrying you… and falling in love with you.”
My heart skips a beat, and I look at him with wide eyes.
Alec looks anguished, desperate. He raises his hand to my face and gently strokes my cheek with the back of his hand. “When I met you, I thought love was a fucking sham. I wanted no part of it. I didn’t think love could last.”