He wasn’t laughing now.
She’d tried to imagine what had been happening while she’d been waiting in an adjoining chamber. The dungeon guard had told one of the palace guards that a young woman claiming to be the shahzadeh wanted to speak to her brother. From there, the news must have gone up the chain of command, until one of the shah’s personal attendants had found him in the garden and told him his sister had been caught talking to the div in the dungeon.
And Soraya might have felt sorry for causing him all this trouble on his one day of merriment away from royal duty, except that she was too irritated with him for bringing their mother, who was standing beside the throne with a severe expression on her face.
Soraya came forward, went down on her knees, and pressed her forehead against the cool tile, as was appropriate when addressing the shah.
“You may leave us,” Soraya heard him say, and she thought he was talking to her until she felt the reverberation of the guards’ boots against the floor as they all left the chamber.
Even when they were gone, she kept her head down until she heard her brother say in a weary tone, “Soraya, please stand.”
She rose, and unsure how much formality he expected from her, she said, “I’m sorry if I’ve done something against your wishes, shahryar. I meant you no disrespect.” She wasn’t sure if it was the throne itself or the crown overhead that made the shah seem like he was an eternal fixture of the palace itself instead of her flesh-and-blood brother. Even in her mind, it seemed more appropriate to think of him as the shah than Sorush.
“There’s no need to call me that,” Sorush said, referring to his royal title. “I know you meant no harm. I only wished you had asked me first—”
“She asked me,” Tahmineh said sharply. “And I forbade it. I’m surprised you would do something so dangerous, Soraya. I always thought you were more careful than that.”
Soraya bit the inside of her cheek, her eyes stinging. For anyone else, that might have been a mild reprimand, but for Soraya, being careful was a matter of life and death.
“What did the div tell you?” her mother asked.
Go ask your mother if I lied to you.
Soraya studied her mother’s expression, looking for some hint of fear or guilt, but her perfect mask never fell. Still, Soraya couldn’t bring herself to tell them what Parvaneh had told her. For one thing, to accuse her mother of lying to her would be unforgivably disrespectful. But also, even if Parvaneh were lying, it was exactly the kind of manipulation her mother had warned her about, and she would be even more insistent that Soraya never speak to the div again.
“I asked her if she knew of a way to lift my curse. She told me nothing useful,” Soraya answered, which she hoped was true enough not to count as a lie. “But I think it’s possible that might change with time.”
“You mean you wish to return?” Sorush said, a note of interest in his voice.
“Yes,” Soraya said, “with your permission, of course.”
“Absolutely not,” Tahmineh said at once, turning to her son for confirmation. “It’s too dangerous.”
Both Soraya and her mother watched Sorush, waiting for him to make his decision. Soraya could imagine her mother’s frustration at knowing that her son could go against her wishes if he chose—and she, too, felt a prickle of annoyance at waiting for her twin brother’s blessing to do anything.
But during her brother’s thoughtful silence, Soraya noticed something other than frustration on her mother’s face. It happened so briefly: The stony look on Tahmineh’s face flickered, revealing something closer to fear or despair. It was like looking at a fine tapestry, its uniformity presenting a single image, and then, between one blink and the next, seeing every thread that held it together, ready to unravel at the slightest touch. For an instant, Soraya saw the fragility of the threads holding her mother together, and that was how she knew that Parvaneh was telling the truth.
Soraya’s mother was keeping something from her. And whatever the truth was, she was terrified for Soraya to discover it.
“I agree with our mother’s judgment,” Sorush finally said. “I must ask that you not enter the dungeon or speak to the div again.”
Soraya didn’t trust herself to speak. Her mother said, “It’s the right choice, Soraya,” but Soraya kept her eyes down, unable to look at either of them.
“I’d like to speak to you alone, if I may, in a less formal setting,” Sorush said. Soraya hated the way he phrased commands as if they were requests—as if she had any choice in the matter. It was as false a pretense as the crown floating a hair’s breadth above his head.
“Of course,” Soraya murmured.
“Please wait for me there,” he said, stretching his arm toward a door to the side of the chamber.
Soraya walked with heavy steps to the door, which opened onto what seemed to be a council room. A long table took up most of the unadorned chamber, and Soraya paced its length as she waited for her brother to join her.
At last he arrived, looking smaller now without his crown and his state robes, an apologetic smile on his face. Soraya turned away from him and continued to pace. She should have wished him a happy new year, or congratulated him on his engagement, but she was sure that anything she said to him now would be laced with poison.
“I know you’re probably upset with me, so let me say this first: I didn’t mean any of it.”
Soraya froze, turning her head toward him. “What?”
“I didn’t want to worry our mother, but I think you should speak to the div.”
Soraya turned to him fully now, forehead wrinkling in disbelief. “I have your permission?”
“Not … officially,” he said. “You found a way into the dungeon without anyone stopping you—I’m guessing you could do so again?”
Soraya nodded, but offered no further explanation.
“Then I would only ask you to keep your visits discreet. I’ll inform the guards that they shouldn’t bother you, but no one else should know. And I’d like to ask you a favor in return.”
Soraya started to tilt her head, but stopped herself, the gesture reminding her too much of Parvaneh. “What favor?”
Sorush went to a cabinet in the corner of the room and brought out a long roll of paper. He spread the paper out on the table in front of them, revealing a map of Atashar with red marks in various places. “Those marks,” he said, “are where the divs have attacked in the last few years. The attacks have grown more prevalent recently, but my larger concern is that they’ve become more organized and united. Div raids are usually swift and brutal, with no end other than destruction, but these have seemed deliberate or planned, and they’ve been more interested in fighting our armies than in ransacking the villages. It’s almost as if they’re practicing for something.”
His voice had grown more frantic as he spoke, his dark hair falling over his forehead, and he clutched the edge of the map as though he wished he could shake answers out of it. Gone was the polished image of the shah on his throne, no crown or burden too heavy. Now, Soraya saw only a boy who had become a king too soon.