It’s been years since he revisited his emotions from the time when Melanie went missing.
Was murdered.
Was left in a lake near campus.
So similar to Beverly Cooke. Too similar.
But Melanie’s murderer is dead, and Beverly was killed by his son. His son!
They’re exhuming Melanie’s body. She was pregnant. God, to have that revealed all these years later. It isn’t his. There’s no way. Right?
Honestly, he has no idea. He hadn’t lied when he said they’d been on a break. It depended on how far along she was. Two weeks? No chance it was him. Two months? That’s different. And what if they dig up her poor body and rip whatever cells remain of her child from her shriveled womb and test it and it does come back to him? Surely, they won’t really exhume her. Surely, that was just a threat to make him nervous.
He understands enough about how the legal world works, how law enforcement thinks, from his book research. If he were writing a cop in this situation, he’d have him deep into the suspect’s life at this point, digging out everything. Everything. Looking for a fracture line that could be pressured into cracking wide open.
Why is this happening? A wail builds inside him, choked off because it wouldn’t be manly to fall apart. There’s too much at stake. He has to hold it together. For himself. For Olivia.
He doesn’t like the way he feels right now. Defensive. Frightened. Confrontational.
Desperate.
He slams his hands against the steering wheel again, and again. His whole life is coming apart, and he can’t control it. And the manuscripts from his safe are out there in the world somewhere. What happens if they leak? If the police find them before he does, everything comes apart, that’s what.
A car whips around the corner and honks at him, long and angry, pulling him from his reverie. It whizzes by and pulls into the driveway of the charming cottage he’s been scouting.
Her. It’s her.
He watches Scarlett—my daughter—get out of her car and is seized with the sudden urge to speak with her. He pulls his car to the front of her house. She stops on the neat slate sidewalk between the drive and the house, watching him suspiciously.
Beautiful. She is so, so beautiful. Long legs, curly red hair, heart-shaped face, a dimple in her chin—she could be Lindsey at sixteen, though that red hair—my God, she looks like his mother. He is filled with pride, and wonder, and something else, an instantaneous affection. She is his. She belongs to him. He wants to know everything about her. Wants to talk to her all night.
Will it be the same with the others? Will he feel the same sense of pride and possession and infatuation with the boy who thrust them into this mess? Does a parent love their child regardless of the terror they bring, the mistakes they make?
Murdering a woman is not exactly a mistake, though, is it?
Their eyes meet. He wants to get out of the car. He wants to put down the window. Something. Anything.
And realizes, here he is, a man in a car, a stranger to the neighborhood, staring at a young girl. This doesn’t look good. This isn’t the way.
Panic seizes him, and he smashes the gas pedal. The car fishtails away, and in the rearview, he sees his daughter looking after him, then running for the house.
Stupid, man. Really stupid. Now she’ll think you’re a stalker—or worse.
This is all Olivia’s fault. She made him feel small, and he crawled over here to make himself feel better.
Way to go, asshole. It’s always someone else’s fault.
At home, Park stands by the front door, looking out the sidelights toward the street. The lawn needs cutting, he’s suffused with a low-level panicked buzz about the manuscripts that were taken, and he’s embarrassed by his actions in front of Scarlett, but honestly, he’s started debating whether he should pack a bag and disappear. Olivia has tons of clients who have second homes; he’s sure it would take a single call to the right person, and they could be lounging on a beach somewhere, looking at the ocean and trying to make sense of all of this in private.
Running would be stupid, he knows this, but he can’t just sit here and wait for the world to collapse around them. Now that another woman is missing, this is all going to explode.
He has to do something.
He flees to the shed, takes a seat at his computer, and looks up Winterborn. The website is slick, three-quarter-screen shots of smiling partners standing in a field of tall grasses, holding the hands of a beatific child, couples hiking among redwoods with a baby in a carrier strapped to a chest, moms and kids jumping into shimmering blue lakes.
Apparently, sperm donation equals a happy, active life outdoors.
He locates the number for the facility and dials it. An actual person answers, chirpy and hopeful.
“Winterborn Life Sciences. Amanda speaking. How may I direct your call?”
“I’d like to speak to the director.” He skims the About page, lands on a name. “Thomas Slade. I am a donor, and I have an issue I need to discuss with him.”
“Oh, I’m afraid Dr. Slade is busy at the moment. Perhaps I could route you through to his lab assistant and you can leave a message with him. Hold please.”
Chirpy Amanda is gone, replaced by the deeper lilt of a man who identifies himself as Juan.
“How may I help you?”
“I’m a donor with an issue. I need to speak to the director. It’s urgent.”
“May I get your name, sir?”
“I’m—”
“Get off the phone, right now.” Lindsey storms into the shed, abject horror on her face. “Seriously, hang up.”
“I’ll call you back,” Park says into the receiver. Then to Lindsey, “What the hell?”
“Park, what in the name of God were you doing?”
“I—I wanted to find out the names of the women who used me as a donor, so I can start figuring out who he is.”
Neither of them need to qualify who “he” is.
“Don’t be daft. You can’t go off and play detective. The police are all over that, though the privacy laws are making their lives difficult. But you—you have to stay away from this. We need to plan this out. I want you and Olivia to sit down with my friend Lucía Perez. She’s the best crisis management lawyer in town, and I’ve already cleared it with Olivia. Where is she, by the way?”
“At therapy,” he replies absently. “Crisis management lawyer? We don’t have the kind of money it would take—”
“Park. You don’t seem to have any real concept of what’s happening. Lucía will run you through how you need to act going forward. We can’t have the police dragging you in for questioning again. They are not your friends.”
“Technically, they didn’t drag me in. Olivia was giving them a statement about the guy who broke into her build this morning. They think it’s the same person who tossed this place overnight. I went to give her moral support.”
“Moral support?” He hates that smug raised brow she gives him that makes her look like a sulky thirteen-year-old again. “The police suggested you come down to give Olivia moral support? I suppose they didn’t ask you anything about your past?”
“Olivia asked me to come. And yes, they mentioned they learned Melanie was pregnant and they’re exhuming the body—”