“NMF,” said Malcolm, winking at Sasha. Darley pretended she didn’t know what their little private code meant.
Georgiana had brought her best friend, Lena, and Darley was happy to see her. She had known Lena since she was a little kid, and Darley had fond memories of babysitting them when she was home from college, painting their nails and letting them eat entire tubs of cookie dough while watching Zac Efron movies. Georgiana had been so erratic lately—it seemed like she was already tipsy—and it made Darley glad to think Lena was also watching out for her.
“Let me taste that.” Malcolm gestured to Georgiana’s cocktail, which looked like antifreeze in a martini glass. He took a sip and winced. “That’s like naked-wasted stuff.”
“Well, it is a gender reveal party,” Cord joked, clearly slightly hyper. “We didn’t say whose gender we would be revealing.”
Sasha had invited a handful of her friends, some from work and some from art school, including Vara, and Darley made a point of introducing herself to everyone, steering them away from the blue drinks when possible. Sasha’s parents had canceled at the last minute— her dad wasn’t feeling well—and Darley’s heart broke a little they wouldn’t get to be a part of this, drinking Pink Ladies and seeing Sasha in her flower crown. But Tilda was relishing her role as the matriarch, swanning about in her hat, breaking her own edict and sipping a glass of champagne, unwilling to stain her teeth either boy or girl colored.
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After an hour of eating and mingling, the party gathered around the cake, a gargantuan, wedding-style tower with three tiers covered in white and yellow roses. Sasha’s friends pulled out their iPhones to document the reveal, and she and Cord used a Tiffany knife to make the cut. Cord held the first slice aloft—but the inside of the cake was white.
“What does white mean?” Cord asked the room.
“Cut farther into it! Maybe there’s a filling!”
They cut again, this time all the way to the center. White. Cord dramatically started spearing each layer as though he were a magician attempting the woman-in-a-box trick. It was white all the way through.
“Oh raspberries, I’ll call the bakery,” Tilda announced, batting her hat brim out of her eyes and punching their number into her phone. It turned out the bakery had also filled an order for a fiftieth wedding anniversary that day, so somewhere across town a couple of old people were eating bright blue or pink lemon curd. The party gathered around the iPhone so that the baker could read aloud the note from Sasha’s obstetrician.
“It’s a boy!” the baker cried from the tiny screen, and Tilda screamed merrily and hung up on her. “What fabulous news!”
Cord and Sasha laughed and kissed, and everyone who had punished their livers with the Blue Arrow cocktails raised their glasses in victory. A boy! Darley was happy. The baby would be six years younger than Hatcher, but her kids would have their first cousin. And Cord would be an unbelievable father. As she looked around the room at their friends and family eating and laughing over the cake debacle, she noticed Georgiana wasn’t smiling.
“This is such a fucked-up thing to be celebrating, you guys,” she said loudly, and the party quieted as though someone had called for a toast. She was swaying lightly, her cheeks aflame as she spoke. “It shouldn’t matter if it’s a boy or a girl. Gender is a spectrum.”
“Georgiana, dear, nobody knows what on earth you’re talking about,” Tilda admonished her from beneath her enormous hat. “We would be just as happy if it was a girl.”
“That’s not the fucking point, Mom,” Georgiana said dismissively.
“Georgiana, do you want to come talk in the kitchen?” Sasha intervened. She was suddenly at her elbow and steering her out of the room.
“No, I’m fine, Sasha.” She said her name as though it were a swear.
“You’ve been through a lot,” Sasha said quietly. “It’s okay for you to be angry.”
“Don’t act like you know everything,” Georgiana hissed. “You don’t!”
“Okay, I don’t,” Sasha backpedaled. “I just think you’re ruining a family party when you’re actually hurting about something else.”
What the hell are they talking about? Darley wondered.
“I’m not ruining anything. This whole party is so out of touch. Gender isn’t binary. Gender isn’t about genitals!”
“Jesus, keep your clothes on, George.” Cord tried to reel his sister in, but she was only escalating, and Darley suddenly saw that tears were running down her face.
“Georgiana, let me walk you home.” Sasha reached for Georgiana’s elbow.
“Don’t!” Georgia jerked her arm out of Sasha’s grasp.
“I think you’ll feel better—” Sasha pressed.
“Sasha, back off. This isn’t even your house.” Sasha looked as though she’d been slapped, but Georgiana kept going. “Is this all you care about, Sasha? Your big house and your heir? It’s fucking embarrassing. You’re all embarrassing.” She looked around, glaring as if daring anyone to speak, and when nobody did, she stormed out, down the hall, into her parents’ bedroom, and slammed the door.
“What the hell was that?” Darley asked nobody in particular.
“Well, who knew we’d be in for a bit of dinner theater?” Tilda announced with a laugh. “Now everyone please have a slice of cake! Well, the slices Cord hasn’t defeated in a fencing match!”
Darley was often amazed at her mother’s ability to gloss over awkward situations. It was either incredibly sophisticated or completely psychotic, but in these moments, she supposed she was grateful for it. People quickly shoveled down slices of cake and then made their excuses to leave. Lena had been standing at the bedroom door, trying to talk to Georgiana, but the door remained locked.
“What’s up with her?” asked Darley.
“I don’t know.” Lena shook her head. “She’s been kind of chaotic.”
“What kind of chaotic?”
“Getting drunk really easily. Obviously mixing with anxiety meds. Kissing some guy she hates at a party then beating herself up about it and wallowing in self-loathing.”
“Yikes.” Darley felt her eyes go round. How has she missed so much? She rapped on the door. “George? It’s me. What’s going on, babe? Open up.”
Tilda joined them. “Sweetheart, everyone’s gone home now. Come on out and let’s talk about what upset you. I apologize if my theme missed the mark,” she tried.
There was a thump, a click, and the door swung open. Georgiana stood before them, her hair wild, her lips stained blue from cura?ao, radiant with fury.
“George, what’s going on?” Darley begged, her eyes filling with tears seeing her sister in such pain.
“Ask the Gold Digger,” Georgiana said, glaring at Sasha, who stood frozen at the end of the hall. “Ask the fucking Gold Digger.” And with that she swept out of the apartment and left her family gaping in her wake.
SIXTEEN
Sasha
Sasha told them. They sat in the living room and Sasha explained what Georgiana had confessed the day she found her sobbing in the closet. She had fallen in love; she didn’t know Brady was married. After she had found out, she did the unthinkable and kept sleeping with him. They were having an affair. Then the plane crashed, Brady died, and Georgiana couldn’t stop the grief.