“The fuck he does.”
My face twists in a grimace. “Yeah. That. His new tactic appears to be ‘wear him down,’ and it’s nearly working because I don’t want to fucking think about him and his thirst traps anymore.” I consider a second. “But this is what kept me up all night.”
I turn to my phone and tap around for the link Lorelai sent me. While I work, Arlo moves in, and forgoing the chairs, he circles around and perches against my desk, facing me. I turn up the Bluetooth speakers next to my monitor in time to hear the opening chords of Lorelai’s song.
Just like the first, second, third, and fourth times, I have an immediate and visceral reaction to her voice. There’s a breathless quality to it I know I haven’t ever heard from her before. At least not in years and definitely not stone-cold sober. It’s sexy and sensual and teeming with … something I won’t actually say out loud.
Something that brings to mind shifting silhouettes and soft, pliable skin. Moonlight crisscrossing and bleeding through drawn blinds. Swallowed whispers. Feverish wanting.
I come back to myself, double-checking my lap is securely hidden under my desk and clearing my throat. All of that might be in my head. The power of suggestion, maybe. Likely that, even. Which is why I want Arlo to hear. I need to know if I’m projecting before I see her.
Arlo’s expression is hard to read. “Where’s the rest?”
“That’s all there is.”
“She sent a half-finished song?”
“Yeah. And she texted it, rather than emailing like usual.”
Arlo taps to play the song again, possibly because he likes to torture me.
I try not to listen so close this time—to shore up my defenses against the siren’s call of her voice—but it’s inevitable.
So you want me to cannonball into the icy depths of the Pacific and swim until my internal organs flatten and my eyeballs explode? Sure. Just let me take off my shoes first. Can you send them to my nephew along with my spare Xbox controller?
This time, when the last of the clip finishes, Arlo appears different. Smug, even.
“Tell me.”
He shakes his head, playing at being demure. “I mean, I’m no expert in women.”
“You’re the closest I have.”
Arlo smirks, fedora snugly in place on top of his curls. “Which is to your detriment for sure. Nevertheless,” he says. “I would venture to say she’s making a move.”
“A move?”
“Yes, Craig,” he drawls slow as honey from the comb. “A move. She’s trying to get your attention.”
“For what?” My friend stares at me. “Not for that,” I insist, even as my heartbeat kicks into a trot. “This is Lorelai we’re talking about. She was engaged to my bandmate.” I’ve never told him about the one night years ago. It’s never seemed worth mentioning. Ancient history and basically a fluke.
He blows a raspberry right as there’s a knock at the door. It’s Dr. Josh with our lunches. Arlo jumps up from my desk, skipping over to his husband and kissing him on the cheek. “Come on in. We’re gonna eat with Craig. He needs our homosexual input on his hetero life choices.”
To his credit, Josh doesn’t so much as bat an eye. He settles down in one of my office chairs, scoots close to the desk to use it to eat off of, and unwraps his sandwich.
“Play the song for him.”
I peel open my sandwich and frown at it. “Pfft, I’ve heard it enough today. Besides, it feels like an invasion of privacy.” I shrug at Josh. “Sorry.”
Arlo hums in the back of his throat. “Interesting that you think it would be an invasion of privacy. It’s a song. You’re a songwriter and she’s a renowned country artist. This is the business we’re in, isn’t it?”
I swallow my bite before speaking. “I guess, but it’s half-finished.”
Arlo’s sandwich remains untouched in front of him. He leans forward, elbows on his knees. “Exactly. That she sent through text, rather than email, like usual.”
“Right. We said this all already.”
“Recapping for Dr. Handsome over here.”
“Oh. Right.”
“Basically,” he explains to Josh while finally tearing open his sandwich, “Lorelai sent our Craig a sexy nibble of a song via text, unprompted. And he doesn’t know what to make of it.”
“How sexy?”
I feel my face burn beneath the barely day-old stubble and Arlo’s eyes glitter with triumph. Josh nods sagely. “Well, if the guy moonlighting as a famous erotic poet on Instagram is blushing…”
So Arlo and Josh know about my poetry account. Don’t ask. Just know it involved the one time I tried to record a spoken word version in the studio after-hours and a horny Arlo thought to sneak Josh in for a little late-night lovin’。
“It’s not like that. Exactly. But yes, it’s pretty sensual. Of course”—I massage the back of my neck, the tension ache returning in full force—“I think everything Lorelai does is sensual. Clear bias in this vicinity.” I wave a hand up and down myself. “Which is why I asked Arlo to listen.”
“Naturally. So what did you say to Lorelai when you got the…”—Josh casts an amused glance at Arlo—“sexy nibble of a song?” His husband winks over his grilled chicken Caesar wrap.
“Nothing. At first,” I rush to clarify. “I was super busy in the studio yesterday. I listened for the first time between clients and couldn’t actually believe what I was hearing, so I waited until things quieted down and…”—I sigh, beyond humiliation at this point—“listened a thousand more times before bed.”
“Where you shot your man-custard all over your duvet like a fifteen-year-old, presumably.”
My face is the surface of the sun. “Jesus, Arlo,” I mumble. “I texted her back this morning, apologizing for taking so long to respond. I explained how busy I’d been and asked her to come over tonight.”
“She’s coming over?”
“Yeah.” I gesture at my phone, resting on the desk between all of us. “She just confirmed.”
Arlo falls back in his chair and lifts his wrap to the heavens. “Praise the Lord.”
“Arlo, Lorelai comes over all the time. She literally lives at the same address. We share a balcony.”
“Yes, but not after sexting. This is definitive progress.”
“It wasn’t a sext!”
Arlo looks to Josh. “Survey says?”
Josh gives me an apologetic look, nudging his frames up the bridge of his nose. “It’s a sexy text, so calling it a sext isn’t that far off the mark. I’d say for two people who are so into the written word, as you two clearly are, this is legitimate.”
I take in his reasoning and roll it around my brain as we finish our lunches. It’s not that I don’t think they know what they’re talking about, but the risk is high. Higher than I’m certain I want to pay. If we’re reading this wrong and Lorelai isn’t making a move, I could blow years of friendship. She doesn’t need another guy she trusts sniffing around her, hoping for sex. Not that that’s what I’m about. Not totally, anyway, but the fact remains, she’s a beautiful, fiery, out-of-this-world talented woman and I’m … the guy who’s been hiding his hard-on behind his sound booth for the last twelve months.