“Please.” Theodore rolled his eyes. “Elijah has perfect pitch and an eidetic memory. I’m not the ace.”
Elijah just shrugged.
“What about you two?” she asked, looking at Mikel and Kalen. “You put all this work into the group and then you get sent back to the settlements when they win? How does that keep us all together?”
“Actually.” Mikel grinned, his scars twisting along his cheeks. “The group has signed a contract with me and Kalen as co-managers. It has a ten-year term, and it was signed three years ago. Starting next year, we’ll be making no secret of the fact that we’re managing you and the boys, and the fans will begin to think of us as just as much a part of the group as anyone else.”
“You really think the officials are going to let this happen?” she asked, trying to keep the doubt from her tone.
“I look forward to watching them try to stop it,” Kalen said, far too casually. “What do you say, Carter? Do you want to play this game on your own, or do you want to play it with us?”
If she chose to go her own way, she would win. The officials would make sure of it, even if it was purely to stop the Alpha group from winning. She could get her hands on the surrogate pills and live her own life exactly the way she wanted to, without any mates to answer to.
That reality hit her suddenly, and heavily.
She could win the game.
They had to have reached the same conclusion, but they were still giving her the option. They were giving her everything. Even the power to destroy them. It would have been wiser to secretly get rid of her. To find a way to get her expelled.
To forget about her.
The longer she sat with her thoughts, the less control they seemed to have over their emotions, and little flashes of anxiety, fear, and uncertainty began to bat away at her chest. Theodore had gone a little too still, his breath no longer stirring against the top of her head.
“What about Cesar?” The thought popped into her head unbidden. “My dad made me sign a contract assigning him as my manager already.”
“We’ll find a way to deal with him,” Oscar promised darkly, making her head snap in his direction. He looked too serious.
“Mikel and I will deal with him,” Kalen corrected with a frown.
“What’s the name of your group?” she asked.
Moses barked out a laugh. “We don’t have one. Been trying to figure that out for years. Maybe you should name it, since you’d be the final member.”
She felt suddenly put on the spot, her mind racing for an idea that wasn’t terrible. “What about Eleven?”
“There are nine of us, doll.” Cian was smirking at her.
“There’s eleven.” She pointed to Kalen and Mikel. “You want the fans to include them, right?”
“That’s actually not bad.” Elijah sat up straighter. “That wasn’t on our list of options at all.”
“The list is long,” Gabriel added.
“Infuriatingly long,” Niko chimed in. “Sometimes, when I can’t sleep, I read it just to pass out from boredom.”
“Does that mean you’re joining?” Theodore asked, his deep voice uncertain. “We’re really doing this together?”
That little spark of joy was back again, threatening to turn into a bonfire if she wasn’t careful.
“I … guess I’m joining,” she said, squealing when Theodore suddenly squeezed her and stood, spinning her around.
The others all stood as well, gathering together in the middle of the living room. Kilian snatched her as soon as Theodore set her down, pulling her back against his chest.
“Is that everything?” she asked, a little breathless from the rush of adrenaline. “No more secrets now?”
For some reason, several of them glanced over her head at Kilian, who stiffened.
“Maybe one more secret,” he admitted gently. “Please don’t hate me, Illy.”
“What?” She spun around, getting whiplash from her own emotions.
“I’m not gay,” he said plainly.
She just stared at him.
“All right, let’s leave them to it,” Kalen snapped. “Everyone back to bed. You two—go to your room for this discussion before the cameras reset.”
Kilian brushed past her as the rest of the Alphas left the room, and she was left standing there alone with her mouth unhinged for a few minutes before she stormed into the room after him, slamming the door.
“What?” she whisper-yelled. “The fuck, Kilian?”
His pale cheeks flooded with colour, and he sat on his window seat, his head falling into his hands. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you.”
“So … you’re bi?” she choked out. “Or is the ex-boyfriend also fake?”
“No, he’s real. And I’m sexually fluid. Sometimes I feel gay, sometimes I feel bi, and whenever you’re in the room I feel straighter than Niko dancing to a 90s playlist.”
“I don’t understand.” She choked on an unwilling laugh, and then quickly cleared her throat to pretend it didn’t happen at all. “Why would you have to keep that secret?”
“I didn’t have to. At first, you just assumed and usually I just let people assume whatever they want, but then … I guess I felt like I was your only safe option and that you needed me to stay that way. And since everyone else here also made the assumption that I’m gay, I figured it would be good for you to have at least one public surrogate that people didn’t gossip about.”
She winced. “Obviously I’d prefer you didn’t hide who you are to make me comfortable.”
He groaned. “I know, Illy. I’ve just been really worried about you.”
“I’ve been really worried about you!” she shot back, planting her hands on her hips.
“I know, baby.” He was actually pouting.
Colour flooded high into her cheeks. “You can’t call me that anymore.”
“Why not?” His pout grew more pronounced.
“Because …” She started pacing, pausing every now and then to glare at him. “Oh my god, I can’t believe this.”
“I can still be a safe option for you.” He stood up, interrupting her pacing path by planting himself in her way. “Nothing has to change.”
“You kissed me,” she said numbly, staring up at him. “To …”
“Because I wanted to,” he inserted. “Aron was my first boyfriend and I’ve never had a girlfriend. I guess I was a late bloomer. I don’t know. I just really needed to kiss you.”
“And?” she asked, afraid of what else he might say.
“I want to do it again,” he rumbled, before his eyes widened and he quickly straightened, almost like he didn’t realise he had been looming over her. “Just to be honest. But I can control myself. You don’t have to worry about me.”
“H-How long have you felt like that?” She gaped at him, her stomach flipping over, nervous tingles running all through her limbs.
“Since I snuck into your room while you were sleeping, saw your note to Theodore and found out it was your birthday.”
“What?” she croaked, her mind going blank. “I … the next day there was a cupcake—”