“Not for you,” Ben said. He knew about most of my cases. But he probably also knew I was looking for an excuse, any reason to say no to what he was about to ask. “They need your help,” he said then. “Do me this favor, Travis. I wouldn’t ask if I didn’t know the family; they live in the same neighborhood as my parents. You remember Aster Heights, with that old Rotting Hill Cemetery at the east end?”
Its real name is Rooster Hill Cemetery, but we always called it Rotting Hill, for obvious reasons. It was also the cemetery where my sister was buried, set down into the earth much too soon, eyes wide and blue beneath her closed lashes, as if searching, searching. Waiting for me.
I’m not sure if Ben remembered it was where Ruth had been buried, but hearing him mention the cemetery caused memories to coil tight inside my mind, painful and blunt-edged, like being struck on the back of the head with a hammer.
If it weren’t for this single thing, if he hadn’t brought up Rotting Hill, I might have flat-out said no. But instead I sat, watching the sky turn a muddy, washed-up gray as rain began to fall in oversized drops against the windshield.
“At least go talk to the parents before you say no,” Ben urged. “Hear the details of the case. I think it’s one you might want to take.”
I breathed into the phone and stared out at the truck stop parking lot, at the dark line of trees beyond. A good place to leave a body. To hide the things you’d like to forget. I know these kinds of places, I’ve found missing people in tree lines just like this one, half buried, pine needles woven into knotted hair, leaves pressed damply over the eyes. Dried blood under fingernails.
“Okay,” I said.
* * *
I stand at the side of a mountain road facing a decaying red barn, soft, lazy snowflakes tumbling down from a milk-white sky, turning everything noir-film quiet.
I curl my fingers around the silver book-charm, trying to squeeze memories from it like juice from an overripe lemon. After locking her car, Maggie St. James strode down the sloped side of the road toward the old barn. Her cropped blond hair, smelling of freshly cut flowers, lilacs, and vanilla. She was more bone than anything else, not unhealthy, but a woman who didn’t seem suited to long treks into the wilderness. She was a coffee-shop and gluten-free-croissant kind of woman, leisurely strolls through a city park maybe, but certainly not this.
There were a few stories online theorizing that Maggie’s disappearance was merely a publicity stunt for the final book in the Foxtail series. And watching the afterimage of her striding away from her car, casually surveying the landscape before her, I wonder if they might have been right. Perhaps she was mimicking the very thing that happened to the kids who read her books and ran away—she wanted to vanish.
And perhaps this is why her disappearance was never taken seriously, not even by the police.
But after five years, could she really just be in hiding, awaiting the perfect moment to reappear? Poof, and Maggie St. James magically strolls out of these backwoods, ready to reveal the sixth and final book in her series, all orchestrated by her clever publicist. Or did something else happen to her?
Maggie was twenty-six when she went missing. She’d be thirty-two now, if she’s still alive. Just another missing woman.
The words form and scatter my thoughts: just another missing woman. Like too many others. Like the one that keeps me up at night, the one I can’t shake—her eyelids gone still, pupils black and glacial and refusing to blink.
I take a step closer to the abrupt edge of the road, the wind creaking through the trees, whipping across the icy surface of the road, reminding me that I’m still standing at the edge of a winter forest. The memory of Maggie blinks in and out, fading with time, but then I see her—the afterimage—veering around the side of the barn, following a hidden driveway deeper into the trees, narrow and rutted and easily missed if you weren’t looking for it. If you didn’t already know it was there. But Maggie St. James walks down the little road with purpose.
She knew where she was going.
I stomp back to my truck and climb inside, melted snow dripping onto the rubber floor mat.
I won’t follow her on foot, not in this deep snow.
The truck heaves once before the engine turns over and I pop it into gear, steering off the shoulder of the road and down onto the snow-covered driveway. A gate that once blocked the drive when Maggie passed through here now sits bent and partially swung open, resting in the snowbank. The truck squeezes through the gate opening—just barely—the passenger side mirror scraping against the metal post, but it doesn’t sheer off. The truck tires sink into hidden ruts, and the driveway leads around what’s left of the old red barn, through the trees, to an open plot of land not visible from the road. Ahead of me, sits the remains of a house, only a chimney now rising up into the thick night sky—a solitary symbol of what once had been.