Martin holds Colin’s hand while William kneels in the corner with the bulging plastic bag and takes out the newspaper, laying it flat on the floor.
Martin glances from Colin to the photo they’ve propped up on the bedside cabinet. ‘You’ve got your work cut out.’
‘Watch me.’ William rolls one of the towels and angles it under Colin’s head. He hacks off the outer three inches of hair, dropping it onto the newspaper. Dipping his fingers in warm flask water, he teases through what remains, breaking the lugs. Looking every now and then at the photo, he combs it, parts it, and cuts again.
‘How long have I got?’ He asks without looking up.
‘They left London about half an hour ago, so I’d say less than an hour.’
‘What did you say to her?’
‘That Colin had been in an accident and wasn’t going to make it. That I knew the three of them were always on his mind, and if they wanted to say goodbye they should come now.’
William’s hands are still. ‘What did she say?’
‘Once she’d ascertained who the hell I was, she asked what state he was in and would it upset the children.’
‘And?’
‘I told her not to worry about that.’
‘Well done.’ William gets on with the final touches to the hair.
While William tips hot water onto a flannel, Martin leans in towards Colin and starts to sing ‘Myfanwy’。 William wipes Colin’s face, rubbing at the corners of his eyes and the encrusted edges of his lips. The skin feels thin and tired against the pull of the flannel. Shaving cream expands like a living thing on his palm. William is soothed by Martin’s voice, the resistance of the stubble to the razor, and the clear path of fresh skin that appears with each stroke.
William trims the eyebrows, then shapes them with his dampened thumbs until they lie sleek and thick, with a touch of grey. Martin’s back at the first verse, but William has no idea how many times he’s sung it. With the remaining water, he washes Colin’s hands, dragging his nails through the bar of soap, then scooping out the gunge with a nail file. He cuts the fingernails down to a slim arch of white. Once the hands are dry, he files each nail. Finally, he dowses the toothbrush in mouthwash and carefully slides it into Colin’s mouth.
Colin looks ten years younger, thinner, smaller. William smooths the left eyebrow again with his thumb and then sits next to the bed opposite Martin.
‘Sing the last verse with me,’ Martin says, nodding towards Colin’s other hand, which William scoops up.
‘He was in London,’ William says after a few moments of silence. ‘He watched his daughter come out of school.’
Martin exhales. ‘Poor thing. At least he got back for the “Miserere”。’
The room smells of soap, shaving cream and antiseptic. It’s dark outside. William stares at Colin’s neat crescent thumbnail. ‘If I’d had my wits about me, I could have grabbed him. Saved him.’
Martin shakes his head. ‘Try not to waste any time on that, William. You did more for Colin than anyone.’ He smiles gently.
The second hand on the wall clock clunks its way through another minute.
‘We’ll miss him, won’t we?’ William swallows. ‘All of us, I mean, the whole choir.’
‘Yep.’ Martin nods. We’ll have to sing something special next week. To remember him.’
Neither of them speak for a while. Colin snatches at breath, making them jump, but then seems to settle, his mouth hanging a little open.
‘How was it then?’ Martin’s voice is barely a whisper. ‘Being back there.’
‘Horrendous,’ William answers, ‘it was the first time I actually let myself remember the whole thing. God! It was awful.’
‘I’ve always wanted to tell you,’ Martin says, ‘I was hoping Phillip would let you back in after you missed the first one. It’s bothered me that you might have thought I stole it from you.’
‘I never thought that. Imagine if you hadn’t! What would have happened then?’
‘We’ll never know.’
‘I’ve been so ashamed, Martin, for so long. The most spectacular balls-up in the history of the choir.’
Colin gulps for air again. They watch him for a few moments until he’s quiet once more.
‘It’s not how I remember you,’ Martin says. ‘And I bet you anything it’s not how Phillip remembers you. If you were the worst, you were the best too. Stunning. Absolutely stunning. However’ – Martin sits up a little straighter and looks William full in the face, a hint of mischief in his eyes, a twitch at the corner of his mouth – ‘there’s no denying, it was the most delicious moment of high drama, you ripping down the aisle like a bat out of hell.’ He smirks. ‘You should have seen Phillip’s face! He didn’t move a muscle, just stared after you!’ Martin lets out a giggle. ‘I thought I was going to have to conduct the choir, as well as sing the solos.’