“What about Suyin?”
“She’s working on it, but current technology is difficult for her.”
“You should push her,” Illium muttered. “If Titus can learn, so can she.”
“She’s far older than Titus, Illium.”
“She’s not older than my mother.” Illium knew he was being obdurate, but he also knew he was right. “Staying stuck in the past won’t exactly help her.”
Aodhan stilled. Yes, Illium could be militant about technology, but the particular words he’d just spoken held far more meaning than was apparent on the surface. Because Illium was the child of the Hummingbird, whose mind had been stuck in a whirlpool of the past for most of Illium’s life. He’d never blamed his mother for her fractured mind and he probably wasn’t even conscious of why, his obsession with Kaia aside, he refused to cling to the past—but Aodhan had always seen it, known it.
Reaching out, he brushed the back of his fingers over Illium’s cheek. He didn’t take it badly when Illium flinched. There were scars in both of them that hurt, and this was one of Illium’s. Which was why he didn’t put it into words, either. Illium didn’t need the connection made apparent, didn’t need the torment of history to color his present.
As he placed the call, Illium walked away to examine the closest edge of the forest, his wings spread as if to block Aodhan from following. Illium was the one who’d first taught him to use this device and the ones that came before it. No matter the origins of his fascination, Illium had always been far more in tune with the technology of any given era than Aodhan, whether it was a teletype machine, steam engines, or computers.
Once, during Aodhan’s dark years, Illium had brought him a mechanical paint-mixing apparatus. It hadn’t been anywhere near as technologically advanced as what existed in the current time, but it had been a thing strange and fascinating, and it had pulled Aodhan a little further into the light.
“Aodhan?” Arzaleya’s voice held an echo that said she was in the air.
“Hello, Arza,” he said, for though the general could be formal with juniors, she was no stickler when it came to interactions with senior staff; she also had a dry sense of humor that amused him—and that he thought would be the perfect foil for Suyin’s quiet sorrow. “I need to talk to Suyin.”
“She’s flown down to talk to the mortals and vampires. Is it urgent?”
“No, it can wait a few minutes. But call me back the instant she’s free.”
“No, wait, she’s flying up now.” A short pause.
“Aodhan, you’ve found something.” Suyin’s voice was alert, ready for another nightmare.
Aodhan told her what they’d discovered. “Right now, we have no answer for any of it.”
“I think we all knew something was coming.” There was nothing of defeat in her tone. It held only the bite of a simmering anger.
That anger had been a part of Suyin since before her ascension. According to Naasir and Andromeda, both of whom had stayed in contact with Suyin since the day they helped her escape Lijuan, her anger had woken as her body knitted itself back together.
“At first, she was a wounded bird,” Naasir had said. “Stuck on the earth, unable to fly.” His silver eyes had been bright. “But strong, not willing to bow down to pain.” A glance at the angel he loved with all his wild heart. “Wasn’t she, Andi?”
Andromeda had nodded, her thick hair a beautiful chaos of golden-brown curls, aglow in the evening sunlight. “There was always grit to her. It just took her a while to find her way back to herself.
“But I don’t think she came back the same Suyin she was when Lijuan put her into captivity.” Thoughtful words from the woman who was Jessamy’s right hand. “Before then, all the records talk of her as a great architect, a woman of grace and art. No mention of the rage that lives in her today.”
Aodhan hadn’t needed Andromeda to spell out the latter; he knew better than most that some moments altered you forever. Suyin’s anger was now an indelible part of her, as his shadows were a part of Aodhan. She’d asked him once, if he thought her rage made her weak.
“As long as you don’t let it control you,” Aodhan had answered. “I allowed evil to steal away a part of my life that I will never get back, and I regret that.”
Suyin had returned the unadorned honesty of his words with her own raw truth. “I won’t allow my aunt to be a malignant ghost riding my shoulder, I promise you this, Aodhan. My anger . . . it fuels me.”