Ella nods. “He found me just before we left. He was worried—he wanted to know why we were heading back into the old regulated lands.”
I try to say something then, to marvel aloud at Kenji’s inability to make a simple deduction despite the abundance of contextual clues right before his eyes—but she holds up a finger.
“I told him,” she says, “that we were looking for replacement outfits and reminded him that, for now, the Supply Centers are still the only places to shop for food or clothing or”—she waves a hand, frowns—“anything, at the moment. Anyway, he said he’d try to meet us here. He said he wanted to help.”
My eyes widen slightly. I feel another stroke incoming. “He said he wanted to help.”
She nods.
“Astonishing.” A muscle ticks in my jaw. “And funny, too, because he’s already helped so much—just last night he helped us both a great deal by destroying my suit and your dress, forcing us to now purchase clothing from a”—I look around, gesture at nothing—“a store on the very day we’re supposed to get married.”
“Aaron,” she whispers. She steps closer again. Places a hand on my chest. “He feels terrible about it.”
“And you?” I say, studying her face, her feelings. “Don’t you feel terrible about it? Alia and Winston worked so hard to make you something beautiful, something designed precisely for you—”
“I don’t mind.” She shrugs. “It’s just a dress.”
“But it was your wedding dress,” I say, my voice failing me now.
She sighs, and in the sound I hear her heart break, more for me than for herself. She turns around and unzips the massive garment bag hanging on a hook above her head.
“You’re not supposed to see this,” she says, tugging yards of tulle out of the bag, “but I think it might mean more to you than it does to me, so”—she turns back, smiles—“I’ll let you help me decide what to wear tonight.”
I nearly groan aloud at the reminder.
A nighttime wedding. Who on earth is married at night? Only the hapless. The unfortunate. Though I suppose we now count among their ranks.
Rather than reschedule the entire thing, we pushed it a few hours so that we’d have time to purchase new clothes. Well, I have clothes. My clothes don’t matter as much.
But her dress. He destroyed her dress the night before our wedding. Like a monster.
I’m going to murder him.
“You can’t murder him,” she says, still pulling handfuls of fabric out of the bag.
“I’m certain I said no such thing out loud.”
“No,” she says, “but you were thinking it, weren’t you?”
“Wholeheartedly.”
“You can’t murder him,” she says simply. “Not now. Not ever.”
I sigh.
She’s still struggling to unearth the gown.
“Forgive me, love, but if all this”—I nod at the garment bag, the explosion of tulle—“is for a single dress, I’m afraid I already know how I feel about it.”
She stops tugging. Turns around, eyes wide. “You don’t like it? You haven’t even seen it yet.”
“I’ve seen enough to know that whatever this is, it’s not a gown. This is a haphazard layering of polyester.” I lean around her, pinching the fabric between my fingers. “Do they not carry silk tulle in this store? Perhaps we can speak to the seamstress.”
“They don’t have a seamstress here.”
“This is a clothing store,” I say. I turn the bodice inside out, frowning at the stitches. “Surely there must be a seamstress. Not a very good one, clearly, but—”
“These dresses are made in a factory,” she says to me. “Mostly by machine.”
I straighten.
“You know, most people didn’t grow up with private tailors at their disposal,” she says, a smile playing at her lips. “The rest of us had to buy clothes off the rack. Premade. Ill-fitting.”
“Yes,” I say stiffly. I feel suddenly stupid. “Of course. Forgive me. The dress is very nice. Perhaps I should wait for you to try it on. I gave my opinion too hastily.”
For some reason, my response only makes things worse.
She groans, shooting me a single, defeated look before folding herself into the little dressing room chair.
My heart plummets.
She drops her face in her hands. “It really is a disaster, isn’t it?”