She turned around and ran up the stairs before he could say anything else.
Izzy proceeded to take the best shower she’d ever taken in her entire life. It was long and hot and steam was coming off her body by the end. When she stepped out of the shower, she apologized to it for not embracing it as she’d embraced the bathtub.
God, it had felt great to yell at Beau Towers like that. She’d snapped back at him sort of that first day, and then again some when he’d made fun of her job, but this time she’d just lost it on him, and it had felt…incredible.
He was probably on the phone complaining to Marta about her right now. Any minute, Marta would call and yell at her, maybe even fire her for this. Fine. So be it. She’d spent all night obsessing about her job—here was her answer. Marta would fire her and she would go to law school or something, like her smarter friends had done. And then she wouldn’t have to worry about publishing or Marta or Gavin or Beau Towers anymore.
She pulled her most comfortable leggings, her favorite T-shirt, and her warmest cardigan out of a drawer. Even though the shower had warmed her up, all she wanted were the coziest clothes possible right now. She didn’t particularly want to go downstairs and risk running into Beau Towers again, but she was way too hungry to even care about him that much.
She didn’t hear him in the TV room, and he wasn’t in the kitchen, thank God. He was probably in one of the many “off-limits” rooms in this stupid house that was way too big for one man to live in alone.
There were two mason jars in the refrigerator neatly labeled BUTTERNUT SQUASH SOUP. Soup was just what she needed tonight. Had Michaela known it would rain today? Probably. She had magic powers like that. Or, you know, she’d checked the weather, unlike Izzy. Either way, Izzy was grateful. She poured some of the soup into a bowl, stuck it in the microwave, and checked the Post-it note Michaela had left on the jar.
Garlic bread in freezer; reheat in toaster oven—400 degrees for 5 min.
God bless that woman. How had someone as terrible as Beau Towers gotten someone as great as Michaela to come work for him? Izzy slid the foil-wrapped bread into the toaster oven and pressed start.
“You’re right.”
Izzy jumped and turned to see Beau Towers in the doorway. Again. Had he come to kick her out of his house finally?
“Sorry,” he said. “I didn’t mean to scare you. I guess I have a habit of doing that.”
“I guess you do,” she said. She turned back to the toaster oven. And then she turned back around. “I’m right about what?”
Beau took another step into the kitchen. “About me. You’re right about me. That I’m spoiled and selfish and don’t think enough about other people and all those other things you said.”
She just stared. That had been the last thing she’d expected him to say to her.
He kept talking. “Well, except for that thing about torturing you for sport—I wasn’t doing that on purpose. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make fun of you today. Or last night. I think I’ve forgotten how to talk to people. It’s been a while. I only laughed today because I didn’t even know you’d left the house, and I opened the door expecting it to be UPS or something, and there you were, soaking wet, and you looked so…I just laughed because it was so unexpected. Anyway, that’s not the point. The point is that you’re right about me. Why do you think I’m having such a hard time writing this book?”
Izzy turned all the way around and looked straight at him. “I don’t know,” she said. “You wouldn’t tell me.”
He shrugged. “I know. Well, it’s because of that. And, I guess, some other stuff, too. But how do you write a memoir about your life when you know your whole life was a lie and you’re cursed to be a privileged asshole forever? What am I supposed to write? I have nothing good or uplifting or meaningful to say. I read those memoirs you recommended, and they all had some hopeful message at the end, and I just don’t have one. But I tried—I listened to what you said the other day and I made myself sit down and write something and it all felt wrong and I don’t know how to do it in a way that’ll feel right.”
He’d actually listened to one of her pep talks? And did what she’d suggested? She hadn’t expected that at all.
Wait. Something else he’d said clicked.
“You read the memoirs I recommended? Snack Foods Month! You did read my emails!”
He grinned at her for a second. “Yeah, I read them all. They got kind of funny, you know. I almost started to look forward to them. I almost said that last night, but then…” He trailed off and shook his head. “Sorry that I never responded to them. I just…couldn’t.”