But right now, I can feel that my intuition is lacking. I need to be able to improvise, to think faster than I did back in Melbourne, to understand my opponents instinctively.
Before I know what I’m doing, I drive to the arena.
There, I take a seat in the middle of the stands, and I watch.
I watch Nystrom vs. Antonovich. I notice the way Antonovich’s serve is accurate to the inch. I watch Moretti vs. Machado. I see the sheer power behind Moretti’s groundstrokes. Her forehand is stunning, but her two-handed backhand leaves her open.
When the match is over, I look down at the schedule and let my eye wander to the men’s tournaments. Bowe is playing O’Hara again. Now. And so, instead of checking in on Perez vs. Cortez, I head over to another court.
Bowe is wearing navy blue shorts and a white polo. His hair looks a bit shaggy under his navy baseball cap. He is tied two sets to two against O’Hara and up in the fifth. I am surprised, but perhaps I shouldn’t be. I can’t help but feel some pride in him.
O’Hara is so blond that his hair is almost white, with eyebrows the same. He is a frustrating and uninteresting player, often a moonballer. He plays percentage tennis to an absurd degree. It’s well known that there are big rifts between O’Hara and his coach, Henry Bouchard, for that exact reason. There’s no passion in O’Hara’s game, no personality.
That’s what made Bowe such a compelling player his whole career—whether he won or lost. Back in the eighties, even when he was yelling at the umpire—maybe especially when he was—you knew you were watching a man throw his heart onto the court, a human being with flaws that threatened to do him in. You knew you were watching someone fighting, willing to risk everything.
I have always admired that about him.
Bowe holds the current game. He’s up 6–5 in the fifth set. If he breaks O’Hara’s serve, he’s got the match.
I want it for him—the whole arena wants it for him. You can hear it in the way the crowd quiets. All eyes glued to the court.
For a moment, I smile at the idea that Bowe has no idea I am watching him. It feels vaguely sneaky, oddly intimate.
O’Hara scores. 15–love.
Then, 15–all.
30–15.
30–all.
Bowe wipes his brow with his shirtsleeve, fiddles a lot with his hat, bounces a little too fast as he crouches, waiting for the serve. He’s wired up and nervous. But I suspect no one else is noticing those things right now. Because Bowe is returning beautifully. I cannot help but beam.
40–30.
Then deuce.
Bowe scores again; it’s ad-out. This is break point—it’s match point. Bowe has this. It is so close. One more and he wins the match.
O’Hara serves the ball wide and high. Bowe returns it swiftly, hitting the sideline. It’s in! I stand up as people begin to cheer all around me.
Then the umpire calls it out.
O’Hara looks shocked. I turn to look at Bowe, who has already ripped his hat off his head. He slams it down on the ground. “ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!” Bowe screams as he marches toward the umpire. “YOU CROOK!”
I can’t make out what the umpire is saying.
“YOU’RE A COMPLETE LIAR! YOU DON’T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THE ART OF THIS GAME.”
Multiple officials come onto the court as Bowe starts walking back to the baseline. “YOU DON’T NEED TO CONTROL ME,” Bowe yells. “CONTROL THAT ASSHOLE.”
O’Hara is laughing at him.
Bowe is throwing his hands up in the air.
I scan the crowd for a moment, unable to look at Bowe as he’s being reprimanded by the official. He’s going to get a point penalty for the swearing alone. Oh, Bowe. C’mon. He’ll be that much further from winning now.
There are some young teenage fans in the row in front of me, watching Bowe with rapt attention. I can’t decide if I think Bowe is a good influence, standing up against an umpire biased for the opposition, or a terrible influence, a grown man throwing a temper tantrum when things don’t go his way. But of course there are no absolute morals or lessons. Only perspectives. One man’s bitch is another woman’s hero.
As I look through the stands, my eyes land on a woman in a pair of sunglasses and a baseball cap, four rows ahead of me. My heart leaps into my throat.
It’s Nicki Chan.
I look at her, trying to convince myself that I’m crazy. But it’s clearly her.
Her long, broad body is unmistakable. Her strong, muscular arms. Her wide shoulders. Her long black hair. Nobody ever talks about it much—which is telling—but Nicki Chan is gorgeous. Showstoppingly gorgeous. A round face with high cheekbones, full lips.