Outside the cool air licked his skin. They took a taxi back to Quentin’s, and he was relieved to see through the window dark figures still smoking outside bars. He hated being the last one to go home. They pulled up in front of his building and he paid for the cab, blindly pulling bills from his wallet.
“You are rich,” said Alex quietly as Quentin opened the front door.
“My grandmother,” he said, dropping his keys and wallet onto the hallway floor.
“Me, I am very poor,” Alex said.
“Want a drink?” Quentin said, leading him through to the kitchen.
Lulu ran at them as they entered, yelping in happy relief to have Quentin returned to her.
“Is just like you!” Alex laughed, picking her up to let her sniff his face. “You are twins.”
He put her down and she skittered at their heels. Quentin tried to push her away with his foot but lost his balance, stumbling against the counter.
“You have some vodka?” Alex asked.
“Of course. There’s soda water and I think—”
“Just the vodka,” said Alex. “As long as it’s cold.”
“I have this too,” said Quentin, removing his other two vials from their hiding place inside the cutlery drawer. “If you want.”
Alex’s eyes snapped toward his outstretched hand. In the kitchen light Quentin could see they were eerily pale, with glossy black pupils the size of dimes.
“And ice?” Alex asked quietly.
“Um, sure.” Quentin turned toward the freezer, but Alex grabbed his forearm.
“No,” he said impatiently. “Ice. Crystal.”
Quentin looked at him in alarm.
“You mean meth? God, no.”
“Have you tried it?” asked Alex, dropping his arm.
“Well, no,” said Quentin. “But why do that when you can do this?”
“Because is like this,” said Alex, nodding toward the vials. “Times everything.”
Quentin looked at him skeptically. He’d seen what happened to men who got hooked on crystal. Their faces ended up looking like one of Lulu’s chew toys.
“It’s really that good?” he asked.
“In Russia we have a saying. ‘If you are going to drown, drown in deep water.’”
Quentin shook his head, unsure what that meant.
“Okay.” Alex smiled his sharp-toothed smile. “Tonight, we do it your way.”
Then he dropped to his knees, as though offering himself as a gift at Quentin’s feet.
An hour later, and Quentin was teetering around the living room in thigh-high boots and a silk slip dress, singing along to a glittering disco track while Alex watched from the floor. Strewn around them were half the contents of Quentin’s secret wardrobe: an assortment of plunging satin and velvet dresses, mismatched stiletto heels, and real hair wigs. Alex was lopsidedly wearing a platinum-blond bob and cutting them more lines on a plate, laughing as Quentin attempted to dance on top of the plump sofa, his ankles buckling beneath him. Quentin dropped to his knees, still singing, and shimmied his dress up to reveal the strip of thigh between the top of his boots and his boxer briefs. He felt lithe and sexy, feminine and free. Alex grabbed his wrist and tugged him, a tumble of legs and heels, down to the floor.
He pulled the wig from his head and rolled on top of Quentin, so they were face to face, his hands on either side of Quentin’s head. Alex was breathing hard; Quentin could see white clumps of powder clinging to his nostril hairs as he exhaled. Quentin turned his face to the side and threw his arms above his head. He didn’t want to see anymore, he just wanted to feel and be felt, texture on texture. Alex reached a hand down and worked Quentin’s legs apart, sliding the dress up his thighs. He yanked down Quentin’s underwear and slipped a hand between his buttocks to caress him, circling with the tips of two fingers, working him open.
“Your pussy is so wet,” Alex murmured into the air above Quentin’s face.
“It is?” said Quentin. He had meant it to sound teasing, but instead the question came out as genuine, his voice earnestly high-pitched.
“Mm,” Alex said. “It’s hungry for me.” He fumbled to unbutton his jeans and released his cock between Quentin’s legs. He held himself straight as he began to push inside Quentin.
“Wait,” said Quentin, louder than he’d intended. He brought his hands to Alex’s chest. “I need something. There’s olive oil in the kitchen.”
“No, no,” murmured Alex, taking Quentin’s arms and pinning them back above his head. “Girls don’t need that stuff. You’re wet, you’re wet already for me.”