“Yes?” she prompts, impatiently.
“It was like my shadow reached for it.” He looks at her face. “You must think I’m daft.”
“No,” she says. But it’s as much a response to his story as it is a plea. That kind of shadow can’t be here. Not at Grace House. Not near Eden.
The gardener is walking down the drive to his truck when he stops and turns back to her. “The village will be real sorry about your girl,” he says shyly. “We still remember you, from the summers. Your boys were some fast little ones. I tend the cemetery too, you know. There’s speedwell growing about, and I always leave a bit on your little ’un’s grave. You probably never seen it—it dries up and blows away after a day or so. But, well, he’s not forgotten.” He scuffs his shoe against the gravel, then walks away.
As his truck pulls out, Holly walks to the tree. She leans her forehead against its trunk, closes her eyes. The leaves rustle overhead and it’s as if they’re whispering secrets too low for her to understand. It’s the time of day she used to love, a sleepy early evening when the sky is still unnaturally light. The rich smells of earth and cut grass fill the air, and beneath it all is the sharp scent of the sea. What time does it get dark in England in the spring? She’s been away for so long she’s forgotten. She’s let herself forget so much.
Chapter Eight
The day of the accident, Holly forgot the cocoa.
It was a beautiful day. The first morning since the car crash that Holly had woken up and realized there was still color left in the world. She looked out the window and saw blue sky, saw green grass, and it shocked her. Everything had been a flat, monotonous gray since Isaac and Robert died.
The day demanded to be recognized. So she bundled the children up and took them outside, carrying Jack, letting Eden run ahead in her favorite blue party dress. At two, she was almost as big as her five-year-old brother. Holly spread a blanket under the tree, unpacked the hamper that she’d filled with sandwiches and fruit and a cake. A party, of sorts. A quiet celebration that they were still alive, even if the ones they loved were not.
While Holly set out the food, Eden took a book from behind her back and began reading it to Jack. It was Peter Pan. “Where did you get that?” Holly asked, trying to hide her loathing for it. Not, How did you learn to read? She’d almost ceased being surprised by what Eden could do. After all, she’d been a surprise since the beginning.
The doctors estimated Holly was four months along when they found the pregnancy. Their shock was obvious—how had they missed it, with all the tests and exams they’d performed during her hospital stay and recovery?
But Holly knew better. This baby came after the car crash, no matter what the growth charts and sonograms said. And she grew crazy fast, at a rate the doctors couldn’t explain. They fiddled with Holly’s medication, blaming the growth on the drugs she took after the wreck. Still, she went into labor almost two months early, delivering a perfect baby girl. Perfect, and by all appearances full term. Eden hadn’t stopped amazing everyone since.
Now Eden paused her reading as Holly looked for the thermos, then realized she’d left it in the kitchen of Grace House.
“It’s okay, Mama,” Eden said. “I can watch him.”
Holly hesitated. Since he’d come home from hospital, it was rare for her to let Jack out of her sight. She’d even put a bed for herself in his room those first few weeks. But how much trouble could he get into, in the short time she’d be gone?
So she left them and ran to the house, breathing in the sharp, sweet scents of spring. She’d grabbed the thermos off the counter and hurried out. She’d been gone for what, maybe five minutes? She’s been over it so many times in her head, but the outcome never changes.
When she’d come back, they were both sitting on a branch of the elm, tucked into the crook, the book open between them. Ten, perhaps twelve feet off the ground. Sunlight dappled their faces, tiny bits of gold. There were no steps, no easy handholds, no ladder to explain how they’d gotten there. How had Jack, who could barely walk unsupported, managed to climb that high?
“Jack, Eden!” Holly called, not thinking. They looked down, startled, and Jack wobbled precariously before regaining his balance.
“Mummy, Eden says she can fly,” he said, excitedly. “She can, can’t she?”
“Don’t move,” Holly said, trying to keep the panic from her voice. “Stay there. How did you even get that high?” She searched the trunk for a foothold. Nothing.