If only I can get the funding for it, he thought. But that wasn’t her problem anymore. He wouldn’t burden her with that right now.
They stayed intertwined, listening to the water for a few moments before Kareena spoke again. “You know what I find funny?”
“What?”
“That we believe in a fundamental difference in how people connect, but in the end, neither of us have found peace. We both are alone.”
Prem snorted. She had a point, but he hated to hear that she still considered herself alone when they were together, holding each other. “That’s true. But at least I’m out here trying to make it work so we don’t have to be. When are you going to try, Kareena Mann?”
“I’m dating. I’m going out. If anything, I’m trying harder than you.”
“You know what I mean,” he said.
She looked away from him, as if their connection was something that she could avoid when it was already too late. He pressed a kiss to her cheek. “Will you tell me why the house is so important to you?”
She let out a deep shaky breath, and then, almost in a quiet whisper, she said, “I’m like her, you know. My father still says that some of the things I do remind him of her.”
“Your mom?”
Kareena nodded. “Her house is the one place I know I can be me. I don’t think I’ll ever find a place that I can be as connected with someone who accepts me for who I am.” She scrunched up her nose, as if to move her glasses. He did it for her and pressed a kiss at the corner of her mouth just the way he knew she liked.
“You are a wildflower, Rina. You will plant and grow wherever you land.”
“And with whoever?”
There was that strange twisting feeling in his gut again. “Yes. With whoever.”
They sat holding each other for a bit longer, their faces close and the sea breeze cooling their warming skin. The sound of joyful laughter and boardwalk games mixed with the echo of crashing waves.
“You know what this reminds me of?” Kareena asked. She had a little note of amusement in her voice that had him smiling. “A song.”
“Oh god, really?”
She dug into her bag and pulled out her cell phone and a pair of earbuds. “Will you listen with me?”
He couldn’t deny her anything. Prem held out a hand and took one of the earbuds. He put it in his right ear as she did the same with the other earbud in her left ear.
They stretched out their legs and lay back on the cool sand. Prem tangled his fingers with hers again and closed his eyes as they listened side by side. The soft strains of guitar and piano filtered through the earbud.
He felt Rina squeeze his hand.
Prem listened to the lyrics, the words that Kareena always resonated with, and he realized that the longer the song went on, the more attuned he was to the woman next to him.
His heart pounded as he slowly opened his eyes and turned to watch her in her meditative state for the rest of the song. Her mouth was relaxed, her chest rose and fell with easy breaths, and she’d pushed her glasses up on top of her head so he could see her lashes fan over her cheeks.
Never in a million years did Prem think his brain chemistry would betray him and make him doubt for the first time in his life that maybe, just maybe, love could be real.
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Chapter Twenty-Five
Kareena
“I feel like I’m the obnoxious friend who can’t stop talking about the guy they’re sleeping with. I don’t know how I became obsessed!” Kareena folded another tent card and passed it to Veera. “How many more do we have to go before we can leave?”
Bobbi checked her printed spreadsheet and the tablet in front of her. “About fourteen,” she said. “The Ramkumaran family. Adults, kids, and grandkids all confirmed for the engagement party. We have to split them between two tables. I think you’re obsessed because you’re getting laid. Hell, I’d be obsessed, too, if I was getting dick.”
“I don’t understand why I have to be here,” Veera mumbled. She looked at the small portable printer, along with the cardstock pages in front of her that she’d been feeding into the machine. “I’m not planning the engagement party. Why is my Friday night shot with you two talking about penis? It makes me feel FOMO.”