“Thanks. This will really help her. She’s pretty distraught.”
Ling clicked on her phone, and I heard the resulting ping. “Okay, I’m taking this ice chest back to the gym. Why don’t you take those to the teachers’ lounge, and then we can come back and help clean up.”
Thirty minutes later I climbed into the warmth of my van’s interior. The day had been a bit breezy, and my well-loved Town & Country felt like a piece of home. Julia Kate was riding car pool with one of her soccer teammates so I could run up to Printemps if I wanted to check on things.
But I didn’t.
I just wanted to sit here in this unknown neighborhood outside of the school, soaking in the sun and pretending everything in my world was okay. What would be wrong with that?
Except eventually I would need a bathroom, some sustenance, and to pay my quarterly taxes, which were due. So living in my van wasn’t going to work out, after all.
And it was beyond time to shake the blues away and roll up my sleeves.
I made myself pull out my phone and open Safari. I needed an attorney, and I needed one who didn’t know Scott, which would be harder than most would think. Everyone knew Scott because he made sure they did. He schmoozed his way into charity boards, political fundraisers, and business deals. We rarely went to dinner or the movies without someone stopping to chat with my husband. So I needed a woman. A sharky, nail-his-balls-to-the-wall female attorney.
Asking that of Ling would be too obvious, so this would be up to me.
I typed in FEMALE ATTORNEY SHREVEPORT.
A bunch of male names popped up. Of course they did. And these were all guys that I knew. No, thank you.
So I clicked the first female name that I saw. Jacqueline Morsett.
After looking at her website and her pedigree （impressive） and reading reviews on several sites, I dialed the number.
“Morsett and Vickery. This is Samantha. Can I help you?”
I could hardly get the words out.
I want a divorce.
“Hello?” Samantha asked again.
“Um, yes. Hi. I’m calling to maybe set up an appointment with Ms. Morsett.”
“Sure. Are you already a client?”
“No. Um, I’m new. I’m actually looking for an attorney, and I wanted someone who was, well, a woman.” Was I supposed to admit that I wanted a female to handle my case? Was that reverse sexism? Did I care?
“Divorce?” Samantha asked.
“Yeah.”
“I get it. Jackie was the attorney for mine. That’s how I ended up working for her. And it’s okay to want a woman. I could kind of hear that in your voice.” Samantha sounded warm. Friendly. Like divorce was no big deal.
“Oh, okay.”
“Jackie loves to talk face-to-face with potential clients. She’s super personal like that, but unfortunately, she’s out for a deposition. So what I’ll do is get your name and your number, and once I talk to her, we’ll set up a time for you to chat. She likes to meet clients before she takes them on.”
If I gave my name and number, it would be real. An attorney was going to call me. I was going to meet with her. Wheels would creakily move forward. Fear seized me, but I shook it off like a bad chill. I couldn’t hide from this. Scott had been cheating on me, and I wasn’t in love with him enough to save the marriage, no matter how painful divorce would be. “Um, okay. My name is . . . Catherine Crosby. Catherine with a C.”
“Okay, Catherine. Give me your number and a good time to call, and Jackie will be in touch. May take her a day or two. Is that okay?”
“Sure.”
One minute later, I hung up. Then, since I had already pulled the trigger on a divorce attorney, I clicked on the phone number Ling had given me, my heart beating in my ears.
I was doing it.
Seizing my own life by the horns and steering it where it needed to go . . . even if it was really smelly and quite a struggle.
The phone rang and was answered. “Patrick Vitt.”
No Can I help you? or delivering his title. Just a straightforward kind of guy.
“Hi, my name is Catherine Crosby, and I’m interested in hiring you for some work.”
Five minutes later, I had a link for a form I would fill out detailing what I needed from my new PI guy. As soon as I filled out the form, signed an agreement for services, and sent a deposit, Pat Vitt, former investigator with the Caddo Sheriff’s Department and former head of Lucky Diamond Casino security, would start getting the goods on Scott.
Rubbing my fingers against my eyes, I released a heavy but determined sigh. I’d pressed the launch button and my course was set. This missile would hit my marriage and blow my sanity to smithereens. But after the dust settled, I would find a new place for myself. A place where I could grow and hopefully thrive.