I rise from the bed and pick up the wedding photo. The frame is heavy and feels expensive. I look at the couple in the photograph—they look so young and happy, with so many good years ahead of them. I run my fingers over the glass, tracing the array of cracks, distorting the image. I suppose it must have fallen at some point and we never got around to replacing it.
In the scheme of things, it’s trivial. But there’s something ominous about the effect: Graham and I, holding hands, me in a wedding dress and him in a tuxedo, with a giant crack slashing our faces in two.
I replace the photo on the dresser and make my way to our beautifully renovated bathroom. Harry and I had such grand plans for that bathroom, and it’s gorgeous, but nothing like the way we would have done it. I can’t imagine us installing a bidet, for starters. Harry would have laughed if I even suggested it.
Not that there’s anything wrong with a bidet. I’ve heard they’re quite nice. We just weren’t bidet kind of people. Maybe Graham is though.
I close the door to the bathroom behind me. I start to turn the lock, but then realize the lock is gone. We did have a lock—that part I remember. Why would I have gotten it removed?
Well, it doesn’t matter. I don’t need a lock on the bathroom door.
I remember the words in the first of the two letters I read—the one that explained about my accident. Some previous version of myself warned me not to panic. Just accept my situation and try to make the best of it. I suppose that’s all I can do in this situation. I live in a beautiful house and I have a husband who cares about me. It could be much worse.
I pull my nightshirt over my head. I drop it on the lid of the toilet, then I pull down my underwear. But as I look down, I notice something on my upper thigh. Something written in pen. My eyes widen as I read the words placed there for me alone to read.
Find Harry.
And then a phone number.
Chapter 40
I have very little privacy.
When Graham told me he would work most of the day, I assumed I would be alone on the first floor of the house. I was wrong. A woman named Camila showed up at breakfast time, and after the meal was over, she cheerily started cleaning the living room. She is the “cleaning woman,” but it’s increasingly obvious her actual job is to keep an eye on me.
Which means it’s not easy to reach out to the phone number I found scribbled on my leg.
After I saw that message on my leg, I didn’t know who to trust. There was an entire letter I wrote to myself, in my own handwriting, warning me about Harry Finch. But the message on my own skin superseded that. The message on my leg was meant for my eyes only.
And what it comes down to is that I know I can trust Harry. I don’t believe he did anything terrible to me. He would never.
I just need to find a time to call him. When nobody will overhear.
Besides Camila and Graham, there are two other numbers on the favorites list on my phone. Lucy and my father. Two more people I would trust with my life. I’m desperate to talk to either one of them, hoping they can shed light on what’s going on, but neither one of them picks up. I leave them both rambling messages, begging them to call me back as soon as they can.
Camila spritzes our coffee table with a lemon-scented cleaning fluid and wipes it down with a paper towel. Everything in our house smells vaguely of lemons. I feel guilty that I’m not helping her, but at the same time, I’m not even sure why she’s cleaning the coffee table. It’s spotless. The paper towel comes away clean.
“Is this your only job?” I ask Camila.
“Oh yes.” She bends down over the coffee table to give me an eyeful of cleavage. “This is a full-time job.”
I watch her furiously scrubbing the clean table, working at an invisible coffee ring. “Do you enjoy working here?”
She laughs throatily. “Sure. Why not?”
I shrug. “I don’t know. It seems like it would be kind of boring.”
“Every job has its boring moments, doesn’t it?”
I remember when I started up My Home Spa. I had always wanted to own my own business, and I loved every minute of it. I looked up the company on my phone and discovered that it took off in a big way. I wonder if I still loved it when it got huge. I hope I did.
My phone rings on the sofa next to me. My heart leaps in my chest and for a moment, I’m sure it’s got to be Harry. But no. The name flashing on the screen is Lucy. That’s almost as good. I snatch up the phone and click on the green button to take the call. It’s amazing how easy it is for me to work this phone even though I don’t remember having one before today.