I can’t look away.
I won’t.
Because there are words and phrases in that gaze. A book, maybe, and while I’m not able to delve into all of its pages and decrypt its code, I can at least try.
Trying is the first phase of anything.
But I can’t figure out the reason behind his reaction, so I ask, “Why are you laughing?”
“Because I just made a decision, beautiful.”
“Which is?”
“I’m going to fuck you.”
2
ANASTASIA
When I was young, I lived in a house surrounded by a forest where no one could enter or leave. It was far from other houses and I had to take trips through that forest with its tall trees and haunting sounds.
With time, I stopped thinking of the trees as ominous and embraced them. I embraced the forest and made it mystical, just like I embraced hiding in narrow places when Mom told me to.
I didn’t really like hiding, partially because I knew what would come after, but mostly because it suffocated me. However, I loved the forest. I loved having my white, witchlike hair in braids, wearing my pink dress dusted with glitter, and running throughout the green heaven.
I spoke to the trees and rocks because I thought I was in a fairy tale.
I thought I was like Wendy from Peter Pan and no one could find me, catch me, or hurt me.
It was my world and mine alone. I was hidden in Neverland and no one could touch me.
I was invincible.
Until I wasn’t.
Until the pirates found me and took me away, and Mom couldn’t come along.
That’s where I’ve been living for the past fifteen years, with the pirates, and tonight is the first time I’ve been able to escape.
Sure, I didn’t find my Peter Pan. Hell, he might as well be a devious version of Captain Hook. Sure, he probably won’t let me keep my fairy dust and will throw me back to where I came from, but at least I’m free.
I’m me.
Even if it’s for only one night.
And he said he’d fuck me. He decided it earlier when we were at the Black Moon bar. We’re not there now. We’re in a hotel, right beside the bar. It’s called Black Diamond.
That’s the most precious type of diamond and the men I live with deal in it, all around the globe. Not only is it profitable, but it also makes many others bow down in front of them.
I wonder if this British stranger would bow, too. If he’d dirty his Armani suit and mess up his perfect hair and lose his luxurious watch to the men in my life. Or maybe he’ll fight them.
The thought of him in a fight makes me shudder with a different type of arousal. I’ve been in a constant lusty haze since he sucked on my ears and neck and whispered in that hotter-than-sin voice of his.
Oh, and his accent. That’s the icing on the cake. It’s why I’m sure he’s in a different category than the men in my life. Their accent is different to his. Less sophisticated and more dangerous.
Though he might be dangerous, too, since he’s managed to do what none of the men I’ve lived around have even dreamed of.
He’s managed to have me.
Or he will soon.
The moment we step into the room, I take a deep breath to tell him this is a one-time thing, that like the no-names rule, it’ll be more thrilling if we never see each other again.
One fuck.
One moment.
And then it’s over.
But I don’t have the chance to utter any sound except for a gasp. Because the second the door closes, he whirls me around and his body pins me against it. His chest ripples against my spine and there’s something hard poking against the small of my back. Not something. It’s his erection, massive and ready, and holy shit, did it just twitch?
My breasts heave against the door and my breaths come fast and uncoordinated as I lay my heated cheek on the surface.
As if that’s not enough to send me into hyperawareness, he tangles his fingers in my hair and pushes the long strands to the side, baring my back and neck, then wraps his hand around my nape.
He grabs it in a steel-like hold, leaving me no room to move, and the knowledge of that? The fact that I’m completely at his mercy draws a shudder from deep within me. It’s long and consuming and leaves me in a daze.
I’m not supposed to surrender to this, right? To the knowledge that I might not be able to escape his clutches, even if I wished to.
It’s not in my good-girl genes to want this, but I can’t help the subconscious tremors rushing through me.
His teeth find my earlobe and he bites down. I’m drunk on the scent of his cologne, the discreet yet mystic quality to it, just like that forest from my childhood.