She swallows a few consecutive times, her blunt nails digging into the strap of the bag. “Away.”
“Away where?”
“Just away. I’m leaving.”
The dooming feeling from earlier crashes against my ribcage and a blind sense of anger spreads throughout my bloodstream. “Like fuck you are.”
“You can’t tell me what to do.”
“Well, I am. And you’re not going anywhere, Anastasia.”
“This whole thing was only meant to be temporary.”
“This whole thing?”
She throws her hands in the air. “The sex, the arrangement, me being here. All of it. I was never meant to stay.”
“Well, I’m telling you that you will stay, whether you like it or not.”
Moisture gathers in her lower lids. “You…don’t understand.”
“I do, perfectly. You’re running away again, just like you ran from your previous life, because that’s what you do best, right? Leaving. Running. All the fucking time.”
She releases the bag, letting it fall to the ground, and barges in front of me. “You don’t have the right to stand there and judge me when you have no clue about my life.”
“And whose fault is that? You’re the one who’s hiding on top of running.”
“That’s none of your business.”
“I’m making it my business, my little liar. Did you really think I’d stand by and let you run as if I never happened?”
“You should.”
“Think again, beautiful. Do you know me to be the type who gives up? Ever?”
Her shoulders hunch as she comes to the same conclusion herself. We might have been together for only a few weeks, but she knows me better than anyone else.
She knows I wouldn’t let it go.
“Why don’t you tell me what’s going on instead of choosing the running route?”
“I can’t.” She sounds so pained, so defeated, as if the weight of the world has settled on her slender shoulders.
So I soften my voice, “Does it have something to do with your family?”
“You don’t need to know.”
“So it does.” I pause. “Is that why the lock was messed up. Was someone here?”
She stiffens. “N-no.”
“You’re such a bad fucking liar. Who was here?”
“No one.”
My hand shoots out and wraps around her throat. It’s so I can attach myself to her, to keep myself from letting my anger loose, because that motherfucker is on the verge of burning everything in its path as we speak.
Her eyes snap to mine and even though they’re brown and fake, the emotions behind them aren’t. There’s a multitude of them, rising and falling in the favor of others. I don’t recognize them all, but I recognize the most prominent one—fear.
Not of me—or at least, I hope not.
But it’s there and it’s eating at something inside her.
And inside me.
I never thought I would ever be attuned to another human being other than my twin sister. Never thought I’d feel her emotions before she’s even aware of them herself.
But at this moment, right here, I know, I just know that I would do anything to make these emotions go away.
“Anastasia, I’m on your side here, so don’t make me force you to speak. Who was here?”
“No…one…” It’s a whisper now, a haunted one at that.
My hold tightens on her, the pads of my fingers digging into the sensitive flesh of her pale throat. When I speak, it’s in a low warning tone. “Anastasia…”
“Just leave me alone, Knox.” A tear slides down her cheek. “Let me go.”
“No.”
“Why? Just why the hell do you keep holding on to me?”
“Because I’m not done with you.” And I probably never will be. But I don’t voice that thought aloud in case it would freak the hell out of her as fast as it’s growing roots inside me.
“What if I’m done with you?”
“You’ll have to mean that first, and even if you are, I’ll win you over again.”
“Even if I hurt you?”
“Even if you hurt me.”
“You’re not supposed to say that.” Her tears soak her cheeks unchecked.
“Then what am I supposed to say?”
“That you won’t let me or anyone hurt you.”
“I won’t.”
She swallows. “Promise.”
“I promise. I also promise that no one will hurt you under my watch.”