Steven paced short, irritable lines in front of his truck, raking his hands through his untrimmed hair. He looked as horrible as he had the last time he’d shown up in my driveway in the middle of the night, when he and Theresa had been fighting and he’d come crawling back to talk.
“Bree dumped you,” I said, certain I was right when he didn’t bother with a snappy comeback.
“She didn’t dump me,” he said bitterly. “It was a business decision. I lost too many clients after the police investigation, and I couldn’t afford to keep an assistant on payroll anymore. I let her go a few weeks ago.” I choked on a wry laugh, shaking my head. “What?” His cheeks reddened under the glow of the streetlamp. “I offered to let her come in on an as-needed basis. It’s not my fault she turned it down.”
I dropped my head into my hands, whispering his name through a sigh. He’d be lucky if Bree didn’t take him to court and paint #MeToo all over the billboard in front of his farm. I didn’t even want to know how many women Steven had done this to over the years, casting them aside when they rejected his advances. He’d pulled the same crap with Vero before she came to live with us, claiming he couldn’t afford to pay her, only agreeing to keep her on if she worked a little overtime in his pants. He’d fired her under the guise of a layoff when she’d flat-out refused his proposition for sex.
Arms folded around me, I headed for my front porch. “Go home, Steven.”
“I don’t have a home,” he called after me. I stopped in the middle of the driveway, cursing myself for turning around. His nose was red, his face washed out by the harshness of the streetlight. “That house isn’t home. Not without the kids.”
Too bad it took him so long to figure that out. “What do you want, Steven?”
“I want them on Sunday,” he pleaded. “Just for a few hours. My firs aren’t big enough to cut this year, but I found a farm that has some real beauties, and I thought the kids could pick out a Christmas tree. You know, one for each house.”
I rubbed my eyes, running out of excuses to keep them away from him. “Delia’s got school the next morning.”
A spark of hope lit his face. “I’ll have them home in time for bed. I promise.”
“Fine.” I hunched into my sweatshirt, too exhausted to argue. “I’ll feed them early. You can pick them up at five.”
I turned back to my house—the house he suddenly wanted to dress with the perfect tree. The same house he’d walked away from because he’d thought the sod was greener someplace else. He was still standing in the driveway, hands in his pockets, the fog of his breath heavy in the air as he watched me shut the door.
CHAPTER 4
The library parking lot was nearly empty when the doors opened on Saturday morning, the rest of the world still probably sleeping off their turkey-induced comas and waiting for the buttons on either side of their pants to become reacquainted. Even my yoga pants had felt a little too snug when I’d slid them on that morning. Instead, I opted for the comfy pair of sweats I’d worn, telling myself it wasn’t because they still smelled faintly like Julian’s Jeep.
Tugging one of Vero’s baseball caps low to cover my face, I circumnavigated the circulation desk, hoping the lone woman behind it couldn’t smell the steaming go-cup of coffee hidden under my coat or sense the Thanksgiving leftover sandwich tucked inside my laptop bag with her super-librarian powers as I took the longest route to the farthest set of cubicles offering computers for public use. Checking to make sure no one was lurking in the stacks, I settled in front of a monitor at the back of the room.
I unpacked my sandwich and coffee and fished my phone from my computer bag. My heart skipped at a new notification on the screen. I swiped it open, but the text wasn’t from Julian. It was only my mother, reminding me to pick up the kids early tomorrow, in time for her to make it to afternoon mass.
Curious, I tapped open my Instagram account and searched for Julian’s profile. We didn’t follow each other, but his account wasn’t set to “private.” I told myself that it wasn’t snooping as the mouse hovered over his name. My pulse quickened as I clicked on his profile pic. I don’t know what I had expected or hoped to find, but my shoulders sagged as the same photos I’d seen before filled the screen.
I set my phone facedown on the desk, turning my attention to the library computer. I was here to work, I reminded myself. To find FedUp and write a pitch for Sylvia. Not to spy on Julian while he was enjoying his break from school.