IAN COULD SMELL it long before she pulled back the bearskin that hung over the door of the longhouse. Smoke and sweat, a trace of piss and shit. But mostly the smell of fire and food, meat and roasted corn and squash, the tang of beer—and the smell of furs. He had done his best to forget the touch of cold winter on his skin and the smell of her smooth musky warmth in the furs. He shoved the memory aside now, with the ease of long habit, and stepped inside. But the heavy air touched him and followed him into the dark like a hand laid lightly on his back.
It was a small house, only two fires. Two women sat by one of them, tending a couple of pots, while three small children played in the shadows and a baby’s squeal was cut short by its mother putting it to her breast.
The squeal raised the hairs on his neck in reflex. Another memory, and one he had forgotten: Emily’s silent tears in the darkness, after the loss of each of their bairns, when she heard the mewling of new babes in the longhouse at night. But Oggy was older and louder. Much louder. Strong, and the thought comforted him.
She led him to her sleeping compartment and sat down on the shelf, gesturing him to sit beside her, against the dark soft mass of the rolled-up furs.
They were far enough from the women outside as not to be overheard unless they shouted, and he didn’t think it would come to that. The glow from the fires was enough, though, to see her face. It was beautiful; still young, but serious, and shadowed with something that he couldn’t name. It made him uneasy, though.
She looked at him for a long moment, unspeaking.
“Do you not know this person anymore?” he said quietly in Mohawk. “Is this person a stranger to you?”
“Yes,” she said, but with the trace of a smile. “But a stranger I think I know. Do you think you know this person?” Her hand touched her breast, pale and graceful as a moth in the semi-dark.
“Wakyo’teyehsnonhsa,” he whispered, taking the hand between his own. “I would always know the work of your hands.” It was rude to ask someone directly what they were thinking, save when it was men planning war or hunting, and he laid her hand back on her knee and waited, patient, while she gathered either her thoughts or her courage.
“What it is, Okwaho, iahtahtehkonah,” she said at last, using his formal name and giving him a direct look, “is that this person will marry John Whitewater. In the spring.” Well, so. Clearly she had taken Whitewater to her bed already; a man’s stink was noticeable in the furs behind him. It gave him an absurd pang of jealousy—followed by guilt at the thought of Rachel—and he wondered for an instant why it should be worse that now he kent the man’s name?
“This person wishes you happiness and good health,” he said. It was a formal statement, but he meant it and let that show. She drew breath, relaxed a little, and suddenly smiled back at him—a real smile, which held acknowledgment of what had been true between them and regret for what could be true no longer.
She put out her hand, impulsively, and he took it, kissed it—and gave it back.
“What it is,” she repeated, her smile lapsing into seriousness, “is that John Whitewater is a good man, but he dreams of my son.”
“Of Tòtis? What does he dream?” It was plain that the dreams were not good ones.
“He has dreamed that when the moon begins to wax, he sees a boy standing there”—she lifted her chin to point to the entrance of her sleeping compartment—“against the moonlight that comes from the smoke hole, and the boy’s face is not seen, but clearly it is Tòtis. Waiting. He dreams that the child comes, night by night, the light growing stronger behind him and the child growing bigger. And John Whitewater knows that when the moon is full, a man who is my son will come in to kill him.”
“Well, that’s not a good dream, no,” Ian said, in English. “Ye havena had this dream yourself?”
Emily grimaced and shook her head, and the live thing quivering in Ian’s backbone settled. He didn’t ask whether she believed that Whitewater had in fact dreamed this; that was clear. But if she had been dreaming the same thing, that would be very serious. Not that it wasn’t anyway.
“I have not shared his dream,” she said, so low that he barely heard her. “But when he told me … The next night I, too, had a dream. I dreamed that he killed Tòtis. He broke my son’s neck, like a rabbit.”
The live thing leapt straight up into Ian’s throat, and a good thing, too, as it stopped him speaking.