Or her.
I don’t know which at this point.
However, no matter how many times I follow her home, she doesn’t experience that state. She only slips into it when she’s with friends or sitting alone.
I planned to end the night as usual—watch from afar and gather clues, but then she stuck earbuds in her ears and some assholes thought it was a good idea to follow her.
Only I am allowed to do that.
When she saw me, there was no point in hiding further, and I made a last-minute decision to bring her here. She needed to realize that Landon King isn’t the revered saint she makes him out to be.
He’s a monster like the rest of us—if not worse—and has no business being held in high fucking regard.
But I didn’t think she’d vomit and dissociate at the view.
If it were anyone else, I’d completely ignore her and get on with my day. I have zero interest in people. Especially shady ones who might or might not be getting in the way of my plans.
But something stops me.
The stiffness in her limbs, the freezing state of her face. The bulging of her eyes that nearly pop out of their sockets.
I grab her by the shoulder and shake her, gently at first, but when that doesn’t work, I use more force.
Nothing.
Her gaze remains glued to Landon’s erotic show that he offers to anyone willing to watch.
Motherfucker.
I tug her with me, but I might as well be moving a stone. One that’s planted in place and refuses to move.
So I physically drag her behind me. But no matter what I do, her attention remains glued to the fucker.
I round the table and click the button underneath it that blacks out the scene and mutes the sounds. The painting slides back into place, but Cecily doesn’t snap out of it.
Her bulging eyes that have transformed into a muted green color watch the red impressionist painting with undivided attention.
I fall on the chair and pull on her arm so that she sits on my lap. Her muscles don’t unlock, remaining as stiff as granite, and she’s barely sitting. Her hands are glued to her thighs as if they’re an extension of them.
“Cecily,” I call her name with a firm voice.
She doesn’t show a hint of hearing me.
The Cecily I’ve come to know these past few weeks has sensitive hearing. A misophonia of sorts. She can’t handle a lot of noises and uses sleeping buds to be able to go to sleep.
It’s also how she knows I’m there whenever I couldn’t give a fuck and become sloppy in hiding my tracks. She hears a step or the rev of my bike’s engine, and her ears twitch like a fucking cat—or rabbit.
So it’s not like she didn’t hear me just now.
It’s that she can’t.
My fist clenches before I slowly flex it and force myself to breathe deeply.
Then I tap her on the cheek once. Her pale skin immediately reddens at the impact, and I didn’t even put force behind it.
Still no response.
My hand splays out on her skin, on the redness that spreads all over her cheek and neck. Then I stroke it, sliding my fingers over the tiny freckles beneath her eyes. “Cecily, can you hear me?”
No reply.
I rummage through her bag and retrieve her packet of sugar-free mint gum. I’ve often seen her crunch on these, even during her zoning-out states. The moment I place two pieces at her lips, she gobbles them inside and chews them. Maybe it’s a sense of recognition at something familiar that makes the gum a break from the unusual. It’s robotic, though. As if she’s not aware of the effort.
“Cecily?”
More chewing, but no reaction.
I grab the glass of vodka and place it to her lips. Maybe some alcohol will snap her out of it.
I’d pour it over her head, but that would shock her, and shocks aren’t good for getting someone out of a dissociation episode.
Her lips thin in a line and she swallows the gum. Her mouth doesn’t move, doesn’t allow even a droplet of alcohol inside. So I press on her cheeks in an attempt to make her open up. Her lips part slightly, but not enough.
I take a sip of the alcohol and then use that opening to seal my lips to hers and pour it in her mouth. She shudders in my hold, so I do it again; this time, my lips linger on her full, velvety ones longer than need be.
I bite her lower lip into my mouth, licking and toying with it. My tongue slips inside and latches onto hers, stroking, playing.
My cock twitches and strains against my jeans. Her taste, the flavor of her tongue, the way she slowly melts in my hold boils my blood.
Fuck her.
Finish what you started the last time and show her what it means to be fucked raw.