It’s almost as hot as watching her sit on a bucking horse and stick the ride.
“I have an even better idea,” Willa says. “I’ll teach you how to play it too.”
Luke’s eyes go wide. “In front of everyone?”
“Only if you want to.” She ruffles his hair, and my brain snags on everyone. Because Luke’s birthday is the one day of the year that Talia likes to crawl out of the woodwork.
I glance over at my dad. We spent enough years working this land together, learned to read each other pretty well, and I see he’s thinking the same thing.
I’ve never wanted to keep Talia away from Luke. I’ve given her every opportunity to be a part of his life, even if she hasn’t taken those chances.
I think it hurts me more than it hurts Luke. For him, she’s not a factor. For me, she should have been. I can’t wrap my head around missing him growing up, but I’ll never shame her for it, and I’ll never gatekeep our son so long as she isn’t hurting him.
“We need to talk about the reunion, Cade,” my dad says. “Come for lunch? You and I can do some planning.”
“Willa too!” Luke is already dragging her up to the house, his tiny hand clamped around hers.
“It’s her day off, pal,” I remind him, seeing the line between everything blur and desperately trying to keep it in place.
She glances down at Luke and over at me. “It’s okay. I don’t need a day off from you, buddy. You’re one of my favorite people in the world.”
My heart stutters in my chest, and I suck in a sharp breath. The way Luke smiles, the way he stands just a little bit taller, makes the bridge of my nose sting.
I scrunch it up and give it a wipe before looking away. Then I stride to the house, head down, so no one will see the emotion in my eyes.
But I don’t need to look at my dad for him to know. After all, who knows their son better than a single dad? Before he retired, we spent long days on the range together, so it’s damn near impossible to keep anything from each other.
“You’ve got it bad, boy,” is what he says, clapping me on the shoulder as I move past him.
And he’s never been more right.
25
Willa
Cade: Just need like ten more minutes.
Willa: Any guesses on whether or not I put panties on this morning?
Cade: I’m sitting with my dad right now. I don’t need a boner.
Willa: No panties. My kitty is too sore from riding your massive pole.
Cade: Woman, are you intentionally ignoring my instructions?
Willa: You don’t tell me what to do. I thought we’d established that by now?
“Willa! Let’s go.”
My head whips around at the sound of Cade’s authoritative voice, barking at me like I work for him. Like it’s not my “day off” and we didn’t spend the entire night fucking each other’s brains out. I shake my head and widen my eyes down at Luke.
“We should hide from him,” Luke says, instantly dropping the sidewalk chalk. We’ve adorned the entire front driveway with hearts of all different colors, shapes, and sizes.
I nod. “Absolutely we should.”
“I know!” He slides his hand into mine, and I try not to think about how sticky it is. Chuckling under my breath, I jog behind him as he drags me behind a big well that sits beside the house. Cement peeks out between the layered stones, and the old wooden beams reach up tall above it. There’s a bucket hanging on a rope, but it has the distinct look of being out of use.
It’s charming, and symbolic, and it smells like wet flint, or the yard after a rainstorm.
“Helloooo!” Luke pops his little face down into the opening, cackling when his greeting echoes back up at him.
I sink to the ground, yanking him down with me. “Shush it, you little hellion. He’s going to hear us.”
“Oh, yeah. Right.” Luke chortles more. Such a happy, goofy kid, even if his attention span leaves something to be desired.
“Hey, Willa?”
“Hey, Luke,” I reply dryly, since the be quiet part obviously didn’t register.
“Sometimes I wish you were my mom.”
I blink at the boy, too stunned to speak, so he continues. “At that birthday party? Where I got held under the water? He told me that even my mom didn’t like me.”
I want to push that kid into the water all over again.
“Well, I don’t just like you, Luke.” My voice comes out thick with emotion, but I’m not so sure he picks up on it. “I love you.”