“Remember, your mom gets tired quickly,” Michael said, coming up beside her.
“In ten minutes?” Betsy said.
Jolene could feel the homecoming fraying around her. She’d disappointed them instantly, despite her best intentions. Focus, Jo. Be the mom they expect. How would she have acted before? “Why don’t you wheel me around, Betsy and Lulu? Show me what you’ve done.”
“How come you aren’t walking on your fake leg?” Betsy asked.
“Conny thinks I should wait a while. Our floors might be uneven. I’ll need to start slowly.”
“Oh.” Betsy sounded disappointed at that. No doubt because she wanted a mother who looked normal, at least. Betsy positioned herself behind the wheelchair; Lulu tucked herself against its side. For the next hour, they rolled her through the house, showing her the changes they’d made for her—the food in the fridge, the cake on the counter, the banner on the wall, and a new bedroom in what had once been Michael’s office. All through dinner, Lulu never stopped talking.
By eight o’clock, Jolene could barely keep her eyes open. She had a pounding headache, and her stump hurt so badly she had trouble concentrating. Twice Betsy had accidently banged her into the door frame.
“Quit sleeping, Mommy,” Lulu demanded. “I’m showing you your new nightgown. See?”
“Yeah, like that’s important,” Betsy said. “She doesn’t care about any of it.”
Jolene looked up. “I’m sorry. I do care. I’m a little tired.”
Mila stood up from the sofa. “Come on, girls, upstairs. Time to get ready for bed.”
“Come on, Mommy,” Lulu said. “I’ll show you how I brush my teeth.”
“Girls,” Michael said. “Your mom has had a long day. Just kiss her good night.”
Lulu looked like she was about to cry. “Isn’t she coming up to read us a story?”
Betsy rolled her eyes. “Wheelchair, Lucy.”
“Oh.” Lulu pouted. “I am not liking any of this.”
Jolene opened her arms. “Come here, Lucy Lou.”
Her youngest daughter scrambled up into her lap; it hurt. Jolene gritted her teeth and hoped her grimace looked like a smile. “I’ll be able to go upstairs someday. Just not yet, okay?”
“O-kay,” Lulu said, drawing the word out to show her displeasure. Betsy mumbled good night and left the room. Mila took Lulu’s hand and led her up the stairs.
Jolene let out her breath. She was in the open doorway to her new bedroom. All that was left of the previous décor was Michael’s old college desk, tucked in beneath the window, with his computer on it. The door to the en suite bathroom had been widened; the molding hadn’t yet been replaced, so it was bracketed by raw wood.
An antique queen-sized bed filled the center of the room. Bright pink and yellow Hawaiian bedding attested to the girls’ shopping trip. There were several down pillows scattered about and a thick white blanket lay folded at the foot.
She could see how hard they’d worked to welcome her home, and she wanted to be moved by it, but, honestly, all she felt was tired. It had only been a few hours and already she’d disappointed them.
She heard Michael come up beside her. “I shouldn’t have let the girls badger you so much,” he said. “They were so excited to have you home.”
Jolene could barely say, “It’s fine.” All she wanted now was to be left alone. She had failed tonight. Failed.
“I added a bunch of handicapped stuff to the bathroom in there—railings and handles.”
“Great. Thanks.”
He glanced down at her half leg, sticking out there, ending in a flap of fallen material and then looked quickly away. “If you need help…”
“Don’t worry, Michael. Your duty ends at the bedroom door. I can handle myself from here,” she said tightly.
“That’s not fair, Jo.”
“Fair?” That pissed her off. “None of this is fair, Michael.” She gripped the wheelchair and rolled away from him. She was almost to the bathroom door when he said her name. She stopped, looked back at him.
“Do you want me to sleep with you? In case you need something?”
In case I need something. How romantic. “No, Michael. I’d rather be alone.”
“Maybe I didn’t say that right. Maybe—”
“Good night, Michael,” she said firmly, rolling into the bathroom, closing the door behind her.