She didn’t want to talk, but she was pretty certain that a mulish silence wouldn’t work with this man. She’d lay odds that he had the patience of a sniper.
“Fine. What’s common?”
“The pain in your lost leg. It’s weird, I hear. Feels like it’s actually in the foot.”
That got her attention. “Yeah. How am I supposed to forget about it if it keeps hurting?”
“I don’t suppose you’re going to forget about it anytime soon, do you?”
“No.”
“It’s the cut nerves. They’re just as confused down there as you are. Nothing feels right to them; they’re looking for that foot.”
“Me, too.”
“I can help you deal with the pain until the nerves heal completely. Teach you some basic relaxation techniques. Exercise and a nice hot bath can help, too.”
“The morphine worked.”
He laughed again. “Soldier girl, we aren’t giving you any more morphine. You can’t just sleep through this.”
“I suppose you have a better idea.”
“I do indeed. What physical therapy did they start with you in Germany?”
She lifted her casted right arm. “What do you think? It’s not like I can use crutches.”
He frowned thoughtfully. “Gee, you’re right. I guess I won’t start you there.”
“Look, Conny, as much fun as it is to have you stalking me, I’m tired. I didn’t sleep well last night, and I’m exhausted. Why don’t you come back later?”
“I’m here now.”
“I’m asking you to leave. Telling you to, actually.”
“Wait. Are you confused, soldier girl? You think we’re in some big-ass helicopter and I’m your crew?”
“Look, Con—”
“No, you look. As my grandbaby says, you aren’t the boss of me. I’m the boss of you. Your family is paying plenty for you to get rehabilitated, and that is exactly what’s going to happen.”
“I can’t move. Get it?”
He smiled. “Well, I know that. I’ve got your chart. And then there’s the flat blanket and the busted-up arm. I’m not asking you to move. Yet.”
“So what are you asking of me?”
“Just to start. I thought you wanted to fly helicopters again.”
“You going to grow back my leg like one of those sea-monkey kits we had as kids?”
That made him laugh. “I have to say, they told me you were nicer.”
“Yeah, well. I lost a part of me. Nice went with it.”
“Here’s what we’re going to do. We’re going to start real easy, with something you can do.”
“Hopscotch?”
“I’m going to show you how to wrap your bandages. The pressure of a good, tight wrap helps with the pain. Think of it like swaddling one of your baby girls.”
She tried to scramble away from him but there was nowhere to go. “No. Go away.”
He put a hand on the headboard and leaned toward her. His lopsided ponytail fell to one side. “It’s normal, not wanting to look, but it’s part of you, Jolene, part of your body. You have to learn how to take care of yourself. I’ll go slow.”
“I don’t want to look. Go away,” she said, quietly now. She was having trouble breathing. Panic had a good, strong hold on her.
He let go of the headboard and moved down toward her legs, peeling back the blanket as he went.
She reached for the blanket, grabbed it, tried to hang on; he pulled it free.
She saw her lower half—the blue pajama bottoms on one leg, with its perfect pale foot at the end, and the other, jutting out beneath the fabric that had been cut away with scissors and now was fraying.
It was grossly swollen, huge, rounded at the end, wrapped in white.
“Take a deep breath,” he said.
“I … can’t.”
“Look at me, Jolene,” he said.
Her one good hand curled into a fist. She tried to catch her breath and couldn’t.
“Just look at me.”
As he said it, his hands moved to what was left of her leg—her residual leg, they called it. Wouldn’t want to say stump; that was an ugly word.
You’ve got this, Jo, she thought desperately. You can handle anything. Just don’t look away. The first time is the hardest. But that was the old Jo talking, and her voice was quiet, easy to ignore.
He unwrapped the elastic bandage slowly, so slowly she knew he was giving her the time to readjust with every motion. He lifted her leg a little, unwrapping the back, then moving across the front.