“We’re leaving,” I say, grabbing my shirt that she was in. I pull it over her head quickly.
“What’s going on?”
“Paparazzi.”
“Uh-oh.” She hurries to put the baggy sweatpants back on. They fall at her waist, and I tighten the string so they stay up. “What’s the plan?” she asks, trying not to appear scared. But she still hasn’t told anyone about the cut on her face, and I’m sure she’d rather tell her mom instead of letting her find out from the tabloids.
“I’m carrying you out,” I tell her. “Front piggyback. Put your face to my chest, okay?”
“Like how Lo carries Lily?” she asks.
I didn’t realize…but yeah, that’s how my brother carries Lily in front of the paparazzi. “Yeah, like that.”
“How many are out there?”
“A fucking lot.”
She smiles. “What’s a fucking lot? Ten? A hundred?”
I give her a look.
“What?”
“Just get in my arms.” I hold them open.
She grins wider. “Say that again.”
“Get in my fucking arms, Calloway.”
She mock gasps. “I thought you’d never ask.”
I don’t smile, but my nerves slowly start to subside. She does that to me—calms me. Makes me feel like this worry is one that should be smaller, less significant.
She crawls towards me, and I lift her in my arms, her legs wrapping above my waist and her cheek pressed to my chest. I rub my fingers through her tangled, messy hair. “Hold tight, sweetheart.”
I open the tent and the lights go off like a neon bomb.
< 42 >
DAISY CALLOWAY
We’ve split up.
I’m in a black two-door sports car that Rose had rented with Lily, heading down a freeway with Ryke. Rose, Connor, Lily, and Lo took the SUV. The paparazzi parted. Some following us, others following them.
Ryke shook off the three vans on our ass in under thirty minutes. Our sports car is manual, and Ryke switched gears and cut corners sharply, driving like he owned the road. He wasn’t scared to slam on the brake at the last minute, go in reverse or hit hundred-mile-per-hour speeds. If we didn’t just have sex, I’d think it was the sexiest, hottest thing he’s ever done with me.
Now the open freeway is less exciting, but it is peaceful. And I am thankful for no tail and the crazed paparazzi.
With a bit of decent cell signal, we made a plan with the others to meet up in Utah at the Canyonlands.
I glance over at Ryke. He has his hard eyes set on the road ahead, but his hand has been on my thigh most of the drive. Now that we’re alone, truly, it seems like more of our restrictions are disappearing. I love the freedom, and I want to make it last past this trip.
“Stop, Dais,” he tells me. “That’s fucking annoying.”
I realize I’ve opened and closed the dashboard about fifty times.
“Play with the fucking window.”
“I have,” I say. “It’s revolted against me and no longer rolls down.”
He keeps one hand on the wheel and glances at me. “You have problems.”
“What a true, true statement,” I say with a smile. “Say another.”
He flips me off and then messes my hair.
I laugh. “I can’t help my fidgetiness. It’s boring in a car.” And I’ve downed five Lightning Bolts! to battle my exhaustion. Thank you, insomnia. I’ve already untied my sneakers and braided the shoelaces into bracelets. Now I’m considering playing Cat’s Cradle with the strings.
Ryke’s eyes flit to me, and then he reaches up and presses a button by the ceiling light. The sunroof groans open.
I beam, happy to have air and the wind. I unclip my seat belt and kiss his cheek quickly before standing on the middle console. A gust blows into me first, and I take a giant breath, filling my lungs. The road has very few cars. We’re on flat land with no traffic lights and few cops in sight.
I raise my arms and shut my eyes.
I’m flying.
In this moment, I’m really, really happy.
Ryke is holding one of my ankles, but his hand runs up and down my leg. The friction and mystery of what he’s going to do races my heart. But he won’t…
His gentle movements turn rough, and his fingers urgently find the button to my jeans, and he yanks them down, all with one hand.
Holy shit.
He forces them to my feet, and I clutch onto the roof to keep my balance
He doesn’t swerve the car.
Not even as he pushes aside my panties and plunges his fingers into me, filling me instantly. Oh God. This can’t be happening. I’m standing up. Half suspended out of the freaking sunroof.