It was then that he noticed the larger carriages in the back—they had more cargo space than the others, but less finery. After speaking with a driver smoking a pipe, he confirmed that these were the musicians’ coaches, and a plan emerged in his mind. Merritt didn’t have to go in and hear the music, filter through the crowd, and catch Ebba’s attention. He just needed to wait by these doors for her to exit. If nothing else, it offered a semblance of privacy.
The next few songs seemed eternal, but when they finally finished and applause filled the building, Merritt forgot all about the autumn chill.
When the doors opened, his nerves coalesced into a ball, rushing up his torso before dissipating like feral dogs throughout his chest and arms. His pulse was hard, his veins stiff, his mouth dry. But he would not yield. He would not have this chance again.
The first musician to exit was a portly fellow carrying a massive black case that had to hold a tuba or some such in it. He held the door for a much slighter man towing identical luggage. Dozens of string players poured out after them. Some were focused on their carriages, but most conversed in tones of excitement. A couple of yawns came from a clarinetist. Merritt stood on his toes, searching the building crowd, all dressed in black. Most of them were men, which made his job a little easier . . . unless their bulk hid the women who traveled among them. If she reached her carriage before he saw her—
His bones and blood froze painfully, sending a rush to his head, when a familiar face slipped from the building. Pale, slight, long dark hair pulled up with careful elegance. She looked the same and yet entirely different. More mature, with slimmer cheeks. She spoke to another flutist briefly before waving goodbye and setting out for her carriage.
Old aches bubbled in Merritt’s gut. He shoved them down and strode toward her, matching his pace to hers so that they reached the carriage door at the same time.
He chose formality. “Miss Mullan, if I might have a word.”
She turned, smiling, and said, “Yes? I’ve only a moment—”
The smile faded as recognition—and horror—bloomed on her face.
With that single expression, Merritt understood that she knew exactly what she had done. Exactly why he was here.
Her breath clouded when she murmured, “M-Merritt?”
“In the flesh.” He tried to make it sound light, but the words came out heavy.
She pulled away, obviously uncomfortable. “I-I’m surprised to see you here.”
“So am I. I need to speak with you. Now.” He didn’t have much time.
She rolled her lips together. Glanced around as though she needed to be saved.
“Really, Ebba.” His toned morphed to pleading. “I only want to talk. I need to know what happened. I’m not here for you. Only for answers.”
Still, she shied away, one hand gripping the handle of her flute case, the other moving to her hair. “I-I don’t think that’s a good idea.”
“Not a good idea?” he repeated, heat rising from his lungs.
“This bloke bothering you?” one of the clarinetists asked, tailed by a man without an instrument.
No. Not now. “I’m an old friend,” he said in his defense.
Ebba turned toward the clarinetist. “Oh, yes, but I’m tired and ready to go home.”
“Ebba,” Merritt pressed, but the clarinetist slipped between him and Ebba, while the second man opened the carriage door. Ebba stepped inside.
Merritt’s hands formed fists so tight his nails cut into his palms. “Ebba, I deserve to know!”
She paused.
The clarinetist put a hand on Merritt’s shoulder. “You heard her. She’s done for the night. Move on.”
Merritt shrugged the man off. “I’m not going to hurt her. Stay, if you must, but—”
“It’s all right.”
All three men turned as Ebba came out of the carriage, her flute still on the seat. She pulled her cloak around her shoulders. “I . . . I do need to speak to him. Just for a moment.”
Her friends glanced at each other, uncertain. “If you insist . . . but we’ll be just over there. Won’t leave till we see you boarded.”
Ebba nodded to them, then jerked her head toward city hall. Steeling himself with a breath, Merritt followed her to the wall, far enough from the doors that they couldn’t easily be overheard.
“Thank you.” His words were clouds on the still night air.
She finicked with her cloak hem, much the way Hulda busied herself with the end of her shawl. She looked everywhere but at him, trying to get her thoughts together—she’d always done that when discussing something uncomfortable. It brought up an odd sense of nostalgia.