I run my fingers along the wood. The shape of a chant forms in my mouth—a messier, more indistinct thing than any litany. Keep us safe, keep us safe, let this not be a mistake …
The air tastes of ash and smoke. An indistinct memory stirs up, of a moonlit forest, a winter night. Frost in the air and across my cheeks. A heavy weight in my arms. My breath a cloud of steam as I whisper into the dark. My hands spread open to the cold. Please help us …
I fold my arms tightly around myself as a shiver passes over me.
The cries dim, and the silence fills with a new sound. A hush. A sigh. The light in the room goes soft. The silver, moonlit darkness blackens, blink by blink.
Shadows begin to rise. Shadows. They creep from the corners, slow and languid, then rise like mist around the edges of my bed. No no no … A cold gust of air hisses through the room. The curtains billow out then sweep back against the window. All the cloths draped over the furniture snap and flutter like startled birds.
Shadows. The same shadows that unfurl from Arien’s hands when he dreams.
I get to my feet and rush across the hall. His bed is empty. His room is empty.
I turn back to the doorway. It’s gone. There’s a solid sheet of darkness across the wall. The shadows creep toward me as I stagger back, cold with terror. The thought of that darkness touching me, of being lost beneath it, fills me with a desperate panic.
It moves forward, pushing me farther and farther into the room, until I’m scrambling back on Arien’s bed. The hard plane of the headboard is behind me, solid against my spine, and the icon is a leaden weight in my hand. My heartbeat thunders panic in my ears and pulses hard at the edge of my throat.
I curl my fingers closed, remembering the cold iron of the front door, how it slowly warmed beneath my touch. This beautiful house, with its carved flowers and faded wallpaper and neglected ivy-wreathed loveliness, would it hurt me?
From above comes a rhythmic drip drip drip. I look up. The ceiling is ink black. Rivulets of thick, dark liquid ooze down from the cornices and streak across the walls. The floor ripples and the shadows become a pool of water. The new, wet darkness covers the floor.
The air in the room thickens, until everything sounds hollow and muted. It’s like the damp stillness of the well house. That silent air above the water’s surface. I am there, waiting in the breathless dark. I want to cry out, but all that comes is a whimper.
I think of Rowan, his hands on my arms as we stood beside the trees, the roughness of his voice when he said I can’t promise you safety. My heart twists desperately in my chest. I’m not afraid. I’m not. It’s just light, just the wind. It’s a dream—surely. Arien’s shadows never hurt me, and these won’t, either. Only dreams.
But Arien’s shadows aren’t dreams. They’re a darkness. A darkness that Rowan wants from him, and I—
Another wash of air stirs over me. The cold is a kiss against my cheeks. The water rises, higher and higher. I’m in the lake. Strands of sedge grass start to wrap around me, and I scrape my hands against my throat as they wind tighter and tighter, cutting into my skin. Water washes over my face, and the world turns to a blur of opaque ripples.
I open my mouth to scream, and the black, icy water fills my lungs.
Chapter Six
I wake up breathless, alone in Arien’s room. Crimson sunset spills through the window; it’s the next evening, almost an entire day has passed while I’ve slept. And the nightmare … I can still feel it. Still see it. The shadows that crept over my bed, the blackened water that dripped down the walls.
It was a dream, that’s all it was. There are no shadows in the corners. The walls are smooth, faded paper, and the bare floorboards are dry.
I kick my way free of the tangled quilts and get out of bed. Arien has unpacked. The handful of things he brought from the cottage sit neatly on the dresser: his brushes, his paints, a roll of parchment paper. His shirt from yesterday is crumpled in the corner, the same careless way he always leaves his clothes.
I smooth down the wrinkled fabric of my dress and comb my fingers through my snarled-up hair, trying to reason with myself. What must have happened was this: I had a nightmare, I slipped into Arien’s room. I slept deeply while he woke up this morning and went off into the house. That’s all.
When I step out into the hallway, everything feels just as empty as it did last night. No voices. No movement in any other rooms. The only sound is the echo of my footsteps. On the landing, the arched window is lit up brilliantly by the sunset. I’m so high up that when I look outside, I can see down over the entire estate.