Lebensmal was going to kill him.
He closed his eyes for a few moments, listening to the stirrings from the studio audience: the seat shifting, the small coughs. From off in the distance, he heard Elizabeth talking about the role potassium and magnesium play in the body. The cue card he’d written for this particular segment had been among his favorites: Isn’t spinach a nice color? Green. It reminds me of springtime. She’d skipped right over it.
“…many believe spinach makes us strong because it contains almost as much iron as meat. But the truth is, spinach is high in oxalic acid, which inhibits iron absorption. So when Popeye implies he’s getting strong from spinach, don’t believe him.”
Fantastic. Now she was calling Popeye a liar.
“Still, spinach offers plenty of nutritive value and we’ll be talking about that and more,” she said, brandishing her knife into the camera, “just after this station break.”
Jesus Fucking Christ. He didn’t bother to get up.
“Walter,” she said at his elbow mere moments later. “What did you think? I took your advice. I engaged the audience.”
He turned to look at her, his face wooden.
“It was exactly like you’ve been saying: entertain. Knowing I needed more counter space, I thought of baseball—the way the vendors throw the peanuts at the crowd? And it worked.”
“Yes,” he said flatly. “And then you invited everyone to help themselves to the home plate, and the bats, and the gloves, and whatever else they could find lying around.”
She looked surprised. “You sound mad.”
“Thirty seconds, Mrs. Zott,” the cameraman said.
“No, no,” he said calmly. “I’m not mad. I’m furious.”
“But you said to entertain.”
“No. What you did was you took things that didn’t belong to you and then you gave them away.”
“But I needed the space.”
“On Monday prepare to die,” he said. “First me, then you.”
She turned away.
“I’m back,” he heard her say in an irritated voice as the audience clapped its approval. Thankfully, he heard very little after that, but that was only because his stomach hurt and his heart was pinging about his chest in a way that he hoped indicated something very serious. He closed his eyes to hasten his death—stroke or heart attack, he’d take either one.
He looked up to see Elizabeth waving her arm around the empty kitchen. “Cooking is chemistry,” she was saying. “And chemistry is life. Your ability to change everything—including yourself—starts here.”
Good god.
His secretary bent down and whispered something about Lebensmal wanting to see him first thing in the morning. He closed his eyes again. Relax, he told himself. Breathe.
From behind his eyelids, he saw something he did not care to see. It was him at a funeral—his funeral—and lots of people in colorful clothing were milling about. He overheard someone—his secretary?—telling the story of how he died. It was a boring story and he didn’t like it, but it fit his afternoon programming profile. He listened carefully, hoping to hear news of his life mixed with compliments, but mostly people said things like, “So, what are you doing this weekend?”
From off in the distance, he heard Elizabeth Zott talking about the importance of work. She was sermonizing again, filling the funeralgoers’ heads with ideas of self-respect. “Take risks,” she was saying. “Don’t be afraid to experiment.”
Don’t be like Walter, she meant.
Weren’t people supposed to wear black to funerals?
“Fearlessness in the kitchen translates to fearlessness in life,” Zott claimed.
Who’d asked her to give his eulogy anyway? Phil? Rude. And rich considering that the only risk he, Walter Pine, had ever taken—hiring her—was turning out to be the reason for his premature death. Take-risks-don’t-be-afraid-to-experiment my ass, Zott. Who was dead here?
He continued to hear her voice in the background accompanied by the insistent thwack of a knife. Then after another ten minutes or so came her closing remarks.
“Children, set the table. Your mother needs a moment to herself.”
In other words, enough about dead Walter—back to me.
The mourners clapped enthusiastically. Time to hit the bar.
There wasn’t much after that. Unfortunately, his imagined death was a lot like his life. It occurred to him that “bored to death” might not just be a phrase.