Joan settled into a seat next to Miss Dawn, her sketch pad open.
August patted Miss Dawn’s shoulder. “I’ll let you two ladies get to it. Duty calls,” she whispered, then rolled her eyes in Mika’s direction.
Right as August turned to Mika, for the smallest of seconds, out the corner of her eye, she saw herself: Her own face was drawn in intricate penciled detail in Joan’s sketchbook.
She was taken aback—by the image of herself, so lifelike, and by the fact that a ten-year-old had drawn it. She has the gift, August considered. Like how she herself had the gift of song. Isn’t that something? How the gifts can travel.
August loved it all. The chaos. Mya jumping onto furniture like all of it was some horse to mount. Even the poverty, the uncertainty. What had happened and what may yet happen between Derek and Joan, she would worry about another day.
Only a few remnants of the laughter remained, now dwindling giggles and suppressed glee, like a symphony in diminuendo. Eventually, a soft quiet descended over the crowded shop. Women went back to reading their Essences, their Jets, their novels. Miss Jade checked the time on her watch. Even the girls settled down, bored, finally, with the jukebox. August saw Joan had finally put down her sketchbook in order to help her sister down from the jukebox.
August began to hum, slow and deep, matching the pitch of laughter that still echoed in her ears. Her voice grew louder, syllables forming words. A song as familiar to the women in the little shop as daughters are to mothers, sisters to sisters. Mya, without having to be told, paused the music coming from the jukebox. Miss Jade joined in. So did Mya. Miss Dawn. Joan. All of the women in the shop. August felt she knew the words better than she knew herself, most times. And when she hit that high note—that high C—even Mika nodded her roller-adorned head and sang along.
Maybe it was the fact that they were all together again—North women underneath one roof. Maybe it was seeing Joan’s drawing and the rush of love and protection that had welled up in her in that moment. Wanting Joan to always cherish her gift made her want to honor her own. August couldn’t rightly explain it herself, but she figured her mother would have been right proud. So, maybe she did it for her.
How sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me.
CHAPTER 12
Joan
1997
The honk of a car horn sounded in the driveway, startling us all. Auntie August lurched forward with a start, and coffee spilled from her cup. Mya had been in between bites of cheesy grits but paused with her spoon midway to her mouth. I sat next to her with my sketchbook in my lap, and my pencil swerved on the page. Derek had one hand on the refrigerator door and another holding a pint of buttermilk.
Two years. It had been two years since my mom, Mya, Wolf, and I had filed into our white Chevy Astro van filled with all we had—each other. We arrived at Grandma Hazel’s house exhausted, hungry, AC broken, hair untamed, remembering every sin a Black man had committed against us.
My mom was still in the bath. From my spot in the kitchen booth, I could hear the water running. She would soon start her day by rushing off to class with a half-eaten bagel stuffed in her mouth. She had gotten into Rhodes College, the same college and the same nursing program her mother had attended. Mya, Mom, and I would sit at the kitchen table on Sunday evenings and finish our respective homework. Mama had even snagged a part-time job at the college library, shelving periodicals and sorting microfiche far past the library’s closing hours. It wasn’t much, but it was something. I had never seen my mom so busy and so content.
The morning had been a typical one. I had been sketching the vase of flowers on the kitchen table, but my mind was elsewhere. It was summer vacation, and I planned to spend mine drawing as much as possible. In the two years since we moved to Memphis, even my hate for Derek could not blind me from the beauty of my new city, my new home. I had never seen summers so lush and green, never been this hot before in my life. Back at Camp Lejeune, we had the cool of the Atlantic that touched our brows, chilled our sweat even in the midday. Here, the ladies in Douglass did not leave the house without a paper hand fan with a church program printed on the back. We climbed trees to escape the heat—me, Mya, and the cats. Too hot for the stone of the porch, the cats had moved to the magnolia in front, the plum tree on the side, and lounged sleepily from branches, and we followed.