My old home.
She knew if she could endure this, she could make it through anything, because here was where she had made it through everything.
Cain recalled every step since this was the same path, albeit in reverse, that she had taken on her way to freedom. She turned to the left and came out into a clearing. She needed to be very careful right now. She looked back in the direction of the house. She couldn’t see it from here, but she wanted to make sure no one was coming from that direction.
She continued on, having to fight her way through the wilderness that had grown up in the path since she had last been here. But she paused and studied some broken branches, demolished bushes, ripped-apart saplings, and how the earth underneath her feet had been disturbed by numerous feet plowing through here.
She started sweating again.
The video. People have recently been here. They were heading where I’m going right now. The cops. The FBI.
The freezies started up again, and she leaned against a tree and took deep breaths. Lactic acid was drying out her mouth and enfeebling her limbs. That had happened to Cain in her very first MMA bout. She had been so nervous that she could barely move. The woman she was fighting had knocked her flat on her ass and then tried to arm-bar her. Cain had been so pissed at herself that the lactic acid got blown up in the spike of fury-spawned adrenaline. The ref had finally had to pull her off the woman, whom she had beaten into unconsciousness.
She blew air and acid out all over the Georgia forest until her limbs were freed of their lethargy and saliva returned to her mouth.
When she reached the next clearing, she stopped and looked ahead.
Her old home rose up out of the darkness like some creature that carried only despair in its maw. It was smaller than she remembered, but that was normally the case when folks revisited the haunts of their childhood, and for Cain the word haunts was spot-on. The door was closed, but when she shone her light, it was revealed that there was no padlock. The ivy around the front had been pulled down, exposing the rusted surveillance camera.
She gathered her nerves, stole up to the door, knelt down, and put her ear to it. She heard nothing from inside. Then Cain looked up at the camera and was seized with a terrible thought. Was it still functional? She reached up and pointed it away from her. She fled into the woods and waited for about twenty minutes to see if anyone appeared. When no one did she crept back over to her former prison, steeled herself for a moment, then opened the door and went inside.
Cain shone her light around and was instantly engulfed with thousands of horrible memories; the effect was suffocating, as though the room suddenly lacked all oxygen. She sat down on the floor and guided her light around.
She winced and drew back at the sight of the chain secured to the wall. They had used that on her until she had grown too big and defiant.
And dangerous. They didn’t dare get that close.
As soon as she was fully grown, it became about two things: keeping their distance, and the gun. Desiree hadn’t been able to torture her anymore. But she had done plenty of it over the years. Enough to leave Cain permanently disfigured.
She looked at the filthy mattress on which she had slept for thousands of nights; then there was the shelf with odd objects on it, all treasures to her back then. She had given names to all of them and they had been her only friends during those years. She talked to them, had tea parties with them, then, as she grew older and bolder, she formed an imaginary gang with them that did mischievous things to drive the Atkinses crazy.
She breathed deeply, and the smell of wet clay and mold and rotting wood filled her lungs like water in a bucket. As a captive here, she had breathed this air every day. But every day that she had been alive to breathe was a victory.
There were items she didn’t recognize. A pair of boys’ sneakers, a baseball mitt, a deflated soccer ball, some girly magazines. Maybe the people living in the house now had kids and they had found this place and used it as a hideout or something. In fact, the more she thought about it, maybe that was how the place came to be found by the cops.