It’s okay, Momma, it’s just Lee being Lee. She’ll find her way down. She always does. Don’t be mad at her, Momma.
Was Lee my sister? Was she up a tree and I was telling our mother not to be mad?
The weight on her chest was suddenly crushing. It felt like when she had overdosed the first time. She was panicking; she felt she couldn’t breathe.
She got out of the car and proceeded to run. She ran faster and faster down the street, turned right, then left, and reached what looked to be a small park. Cain plunged directly into the thicket of trees and ran until she could run no more. She stopped at one massive oak, wrapped her arms around it as though to prevent herself from lifting off the ground, and slowly slid to the dirt.
She lay there for she didn’t know how long.
Cain wept so hard, it got to the point where she could form no more tears. Her chest stopped heaving, and she was able to stand by gripping the tree trunk and hoisting herself a few inches at a time, like she was climbing a slicked pole.
She composed herself and walked unsteadily back to her car; she almost couldn’t find it, but when she climbed in and shut the door, she felt a bit better.
She hadn’t been this way in years. After escaping from the Atkinses, every fourth or fifth night of freedom would end in night terrors. She would awake certain that Desiree was right on top of her ready to drag her back to hell.
She drove off, found a hotel, and checked in. The place was more than she could really afford, but right now she wasn’t thinking about that. Later, Cain had a drink in the bar and some dinner at a restaurant a short walk down the street, because she just needed some brisk air to chew on. After that, she walked back to the hotel and wondered what she was going to do now.
Desiree was in jail. There was no way to get to her. And even if she did, what was she going to do? Kill the woman with her bare hands? Scream at her? Torture her like she had tortured Cain? And then what?
I go back into another prison for the rest of my life?
Has all this been for nothing?
CHAPTER
37
FOR THE TWENTIETH TIME, BUCKLEY STUDIED the frozen image on his computer screen. His first viewing had filled him with curiosity and even sympathy. The woman, who he now knew had been called Rebecca Atkins, was obviously scared; he could easily see that in her features. The wild eyes, the unnatural stretch of her jaw, the bulge of her cheeks, the chaotic gap in her mouth—all spoke of crisis. But there was also just the tiniest hint of something else there too—exhilaration, perhaps?
Her physical state was deplorable. The long, thick hair was bushy and filthy, the clothes were near rags, her skin was dirty and scarred; clearly the woman had been through a long ordeal.
Next, Buckley had researched online an “incident” related to the Atkinses in the early 2000s, in a rural Georgia county. It had not been hard to find the account of Joe Atkins having been found dead, and his wife, Desiree, missing and either presumed to have killed her husband or else been a victim of his murderer.
He reclined in the desk chair in his hotel room. There was an extremely curious point to all this. These news accounts had made no mention of a Rebecca Atkins. The most obvious reason for this would be that the authorities were not aware, back then, of the woman’s existence. So how could that possibly have come about?
Buckley once more looked at the woman’s image on his computer screen. Back then there had been no ubiquitous wireless home surveillance camera technology tied to smartphones. So why have a security camera in rural Georgia nearly twenty years ago?
Buckley enlarged the image and studied the edges of the picture. A tree branch, the murky outline of a bush, a darkened path; all of this was behind the woman who was staring at the lens. She was in the woods, which in rural Georgia was not unexpected.
He enlarged the image even more and now could see the wall of the place. It looked dilapidated, with vegetation growing around it.