They’d been there a week and a half when Jonathan told her he needed to go on a business trip to the West Coast. Before he’d even finished the words a feeling of dread descended on her. She didn’t want to go back to New York. She didn’t want to leave this house. He must have seen it on her face because he quickly said, “Stay here if you want. I’ll only be gone a week or so and then I’ll come back here to be with you.”
She’d been relieved, but the day he’d left to go to the airport there’d been driving rain all afternoon, and the cold, creeping sensation that something was wrong in her life had returned to her. It wasn’t quite a premonition, but she felt a negative energy in her bones. Lying that night in the enormous bed and staring at the network of cracks along the yellowed ceiling, she tried to quell the feeling by picturing herself swimming in the warm Atlantic Ocean, but the image of Tobacco Bay kept turning into something else. Cold, gray water, pocked with steady rain. A slack tide. Wheeling gulls. Dark, seaweed-fringed rocks.
She got out of bed, and wandered the top floor of the house, eventually slipping underneath the slightly musty-smelling sheets of a single bed in a corner bedroom. The wallpaper was patterned with small blue flowers.
7
FRIDAY, OCTOBER 14, 12:02 P.M.
It was fully autumn now, Caroline’s favorite season, and the drive from her cottage to her mother’s house on the other side of Ann Arbor was so peaceful she was tempted to skip lunch with her mom and just keep driving.
She was listening to a Lucinda Williams album recommended by Ethan, and the majority of the trees were at peak color, oranges and yellows and reds. The sky was a cold blue, and steady wind was whipping dead leaves through the air. She felt as though she could have stayed in this particular moment forever, but her mother was waiting for her, and a police officer was watching her every move. She parked behind her mother’s Taurus and walked across the leaf-strewn lawn to the open door of the ranch her mother had bought two years earlier in order to be closer to her daughter.
Lunch was an elaborate chicken casserole and a spinach salad with nuts and pomegranate seeds. This was a sign that her mother was feeling well. When she was depressed, bluesy was her word for it, one of the first things she stopped doing was cooking nice meals.
They ate in the dining room, Meg’s elderly labradoodle sleeping underneath the table.
“I’ve met someone,” Caroline said, surprising herself.
“Oh,” Meg said, her eyes lighting up. “Who is it?”
“I should back up. I have met someone nice, but I haven’t actually met him yet, not face-to-face. We talk on the phone. He’s a singer-songwriter in Texas.”
“Interesting. How did you meet him in the first place?”
She considered lying, but her mother had always had a good nose for lies. “He’s actually on that stupid list, same as me. That’s how we started talking to each other.”
Her mother took a sip of Riesling. “Haven’t they caught someone yet? Do they tell you anything?”
“If they’ve caught someone, they haven’t told me about it, and I’m still getting followed around by policemen, so it seems unlikely. And I don’t know anything more about it than you do.”
Meg rubbed the side of her face, then looked down at her food. “I know they’re watching you, but I still hope you’re being extra careful. I get so worried …”
“I don’t know what else I could do to be extra careful. I’m just waiting until they catch who even is doing this. They haven’t called you back, have they?”
“Who hasn’t called me back?”
“The FBI. The ones who questioned you. They haven’t called back, have they?”
“Are they going to? I told them all I knew, and it wasn’t much, I think.”
Caroline had already quizzed her mother about the questions she’d been asked by the FBI, and her mother had sworn that she’d answered truthfully. Despite believing her, Caroline also suspected that her mother might be suppressing important memories. It wouldn’t be the first time.
“Mom, remember when you and Dad broke up the first time, right after Julius left for college?”
“I remember when Julius left for college because he was so happy to get out of the house, we thought we’d never see him again.”
“But do you remember kicking Dad out of the house?”
“He left around then, didn’t he? He told me he was going to stay in a hotel and it turned out he was staying with that grad student who was his girlfriend at the time.”