How had he gotten so old so fast? He really needed to cut down on his drinking. Tonight he’d tell Gloria that for every drink he had—every real drink—he’d also drink a seltzer water. That would be a good thing. Then maybe he wouldn’t wake up in the middle of the night, his mouth so dry that his tongue felt like an unused sponge. Yeah, tonight he’d start drinking more seltzer water. And no brandy while he lay in bed. And he’d get whatever the daily fish was instead of the cheeseburger. That would impress Gloria—no, not Gloria, Shelly!—and maybe she wouldn’t leave him after all. He liked the way she lowered her voice when she talked with him—it was very intimate, even though he didn’t always understand what it was she was saying to him.
He was nearly at the jetty when the disk of the sun appeared in the sky, the mist starting to burn off. His eye went to the barnacled rock he always superstitiously touched before turning back. The shape of the rock made him think of a child curled into herself, her head tucked between her thighs, her hair the black seaweed that clung to the rock at the high-tide line. The rock, like the beach, had stayed virtually unchanged in Frank’s long life. What was surprising on this particular morning was the presence of a single white envelope resting at the top of the rock. The envelope was held in place by a perfectly round gray stone, ringed in white. Frank picked the envelope up, holding it at just the right length from his failing eyes so that he could read the mailing label. It had his name and address on it. A strange sense of unreality passed over him. Why was there a letter for him at the jetty? Was he dreaming? If so, it would make sense. He dreamed the same dreams over and over, and they often took place on this very beach, near this very jetty. He blinked rapidly, as though to prove that he was still in reality, then looked down to see that the damp envelope remained in his grip. With trembling hands he opened it, pulling out a single sheet of paper that he unfolded. He didn’t exactly know what he’d been expecting but it wasn’t the simple list of names he was presented with. He ran his eyes over the names, noticing his own, and not immediately recognizing the others.
He was about to turn to see if he could spot who’d left the envelope on the rock when he felt the tight grip of someone’s hands around his ankles, then he was yanked violently, so that he pitched forward and landed facedown on the damp sand. His head had partially struck the edge of his turn-around rock, and there were sudden tears in his eyes, a sharp wet pain on his temple. Whoever had attacked him hoisted him by his belt and moved him a foot forward along the sand so that his face landed in a shallow divot filled with seawater. He tried to get up, but his arms felt weak, and he yelled out for help instead. The person on his back pushed his face violently into the pool of water. Frank’s nose stung with terrible pain, and his mouth filled with sand and water.
“Do you know why you’re going to die?” came a voice in his ear.
Frank coughed, and now he could taste warm salty blood mixed in with the sand clogging his mouth. “No,” he said, although part of him did know why he was dying. It had to do with the jetty, didn’t it? And the dreams he always had.
The voice spoke again. He could feel breath moving over his skin, and the words that his murderer said made him realize that he had been right. His dreams had been right too. And for a moment he felt something resembling peace, the real world mixing in with his dream world to make just one place, the world of his existence, rapidly coming to an end. The strong hands pressed his face deep into the sand, the water licking at his ears. In the red darkness he saw concentric circles, like tide pools growing and shrinking. And he saw his mother, back in the old kitchen, wearing an apron over a dress. She was turned away from him, doing something at the stove, and he was crying, begging his case, telling her how sorry he was. I’m sorry, Mommy. I’m sorry. But she wouldn’t turn around. Even the darkness was now shrinking until there was nothing but tide pools, and his mother still not turning back, the world getting smaller, breathing water instead of air.
EIGHT
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FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 16, 8:45 A.M.
Detective Sam Hamilton stood about eight feet from the body, attempting to memorize the crime scene, take it all in. The victim was on his stomach, one leg hitched up slightly, as though he were sleeping. His face was submerged in the damp sand so that all you could see of his head was straggling gray hair and a sunburned neck.
“Is it definitely Frank Hopkins?” Lisa Banks, one of Kennewick’s patrol officers, was standing next to Hamilton.