“The police don’t know. The ones Eoin heard about were home invasions, and no one was caught.”
“What happened to those people afterward?”
“They went home.”
“Why can’t Marian come home then?”
“He thinks it’s because hers went wrong, with the surveillance camera. He reckons she’s in a safe house now. He said he’d ask around.”
“Do you trust him?”
“Yes,” she says, folding her glasses. “Well, I trust that he wants to help.”
“Did you ever see Marian with a second phone?” I ask, and my mam shakes her head. “Fenton said she had a burner phone.”
“No, she didn’t.”
“The police found it in her flat, inside the fireplace.”
“They must have planted it,” she says firmly.
“I don’t think Fenton’s bent.”
“Then someone working for him must be,” she says.
“Do you think Marian might have been buying drugs?”
“Catch yourself on,” says my mam, but, then, she never took MDMA with Marian at a concert. It’s been years and years, but still.
I stand to rinse our mugs, leaving the sodden bags of chamomile in the sink. “Did you go somewhere afterward?” I ask, trying to keep my voice light. We both know the prison closed for visitors hours ago.
“I had to drive over to Bangor,” she says. “I had to tell the Dunlops about Marian, before they heard it somewhere else.”
“Oh, god.”
“They said they don’t want to have to let me go, but they can’t be involved in this sort of thing.”
My mother has worked for the Dunlops for fourteen years. They’ve met Marian.
“They were having a party,” she says. I picture her standing alone at their front door, feeling nervous, with their guests’ glossy cars pulled up on the gravel behind her, and this image hurts as much as anything else has over the past two days.
The Dunlops made her wait in the front hall while they excused themselves from their party. She overheard Miranda telling the guests that it was her cleaner, and the surprised, amused noises they made in response.
My mother had prepared for the party. They’d hired someone to cook on the day itself, but she had done everything else, all the shopping and cleaning and arranging. She had swept the floor, chosen the ingredients, polished the silver, bought the ice that was chilling their champagne.
While my mother told her employers that her daughter was missing, their guests carried on talking and eating in the dining room. A slab of salmon was on the table, with bowls of sea salt, double cream, and crushed juniper set out alongside it. Occasionally the sound of laughter came from the other room. Miranda asked my mam if she’d known her daughter was a terrorist.
“I told them Marian’s not in the IRA,” she says, “but they didn’t believe me.”
Miranda and Richard told her to plan to come in on Monday, since they needed some time to consider their decision. When she returns, the dirty tablecloth and napkins from their dinner will be in a pile on the laundry room floor, smeared with butter and wine and lipstick, and crusted plates and roasting pans will be stacked by the sink. They always leave the washing for her.
10
IT’S AFTER TWO IN THE MORNING. Finn has just gone back down after nursing, and I’m filling a glass of water at the kitchen tap when I see torches in the field behind my house. I stand frozen at the window, aware of my breathing, of the lock on the sliding door, of the baby asleep in the other room.
I can’t see the people holding them, but they’re advancing steadily. The torches are being held level, angling through the darkness toward me. They seem to be pointing straight at our house. In a few minutes, their beams will catch the stone wall at the bottom of the garden.
They could just be teenagers, out late. Except teenagers wouldn’t be moving at that pace, or in lockstep. I try to think of other reasons for two people to be crossing the field at this time of night, but in my bones I know that they’re IRA, and that they’re coming to hurt someone.
The cottages on this road all look the same from the rear, eight identical houses backing onto the field. They might have counted wrong. They might be coming for my neighbor, Luke. He is a police constable, which makes him a legitimate target in their view.
Or this is about Marian, and they are coming for me. Someone might have told them that I went to the police station, that I gave information, that I accused the IRA of abducting her, which would be enough for them to consider me a tout.