And then I hear the stations change and change again. But then I hear the words “fire” and “Hyacinth Court,” and “one injured.”
Injured. He probably tripped running out of the house and cut his finger or something. That’s not so bad. I’m sure he had house insurance.
“Ben.”
I stand up to join Kyle in the living room. I’m sure he’s summoning me to tell me it’s okay, that everything is okay and I should go to bed.
When I reach the entryway to the living room, my feet stop moving forward. There’s a picture on the TV in the top right-hand corner. A girl. She looks familiar, and I can’t place her right away, but I don’t have to because the reporter does it for me.
“Latest reports indicate that Fallon O’Neil, sixteen-year-old lead actress in the hit TV show Gumshoe, has been airlifted from the scene. No word as to her condition, but we’ll keep you updated as reports come in.”
Kyle doesn’t tell me it’ll be okay.
He doesn’t say anything at all.
We stand in front of the TV, soaking up news reports that break in between infomercials. At a little after one in the morning, we learn that the girl was taken to a burn center in South Bay. Ten minutes later, we learn she’s in critical condition. At one thirty in the morning, we learn she has suffered fourth-degree burns over thirty percent of her body. At one forty-five, we learn that she is expected to survive, but will undergo extensive reconstructive surgery and rehabilitation. At one fifty, reporters state that the owner of the home admitted to spilling fuel near a car parked outside his garage. Investigators state they have no reason to believe the fire was caused intentionally, but a complete investigation will follow up to corroborate the homeowner’s claims.
One reporter insinuates that the victim’s career may be put on hold indefinitely. Another says producers will have a huge decision to make when it comes to either recasting the role or putting production on hold while the victim recovers. The news reports transition from updates on the victim to how many Emmy Awards Donovan O’Neil was nominated for during the height of his career.
Kyle turns off the television at approximately 2 a.m. He sets the remote down carefully—quietly—on the arm of the couch.
“Did anyone witness what happened?” His eyes lock with mine, and I immediately shake my head.
“Did you leave behind anything? Any possible evidence?”
“No,” I whisper. I clear my throat. “He’s right. He kicked over his gas can and then went inside the house. No one saw what I did after that.”
Kyle nods and then squeezes the tension out of the back of his neck. He takes a step closer. “So no one knows you were there?”
“Only you.”
He then closes the distance between us. I think he might want to hit me. I don’t know for sure, but the anger in the set of his jaw indicates he might want to. I wouldn’t blame him.
“I want you to listen to me, Ben.” His voice is low and firm. I nod. “Take off every item of clothing you’re wearing right now and put them in the washing machine. Go take a shower. And then you’re going to go to bed and forget this happened, okay?”
I nod again. I might be sick in a second, I’m not sure.
“You are never to leave the slightest traceable connection to what happened tonight. Never look those people up online. Never drive by their house again. Stay away from anything that can trace you to them. And never, ever speak another word of this. Not to me . . . not to Ian . . . not to anyone. Do you hear me?”
I’m definitely about to be sick, but I still manage to nod.
He studies my face for a minute, making sure he can trust me. I don’t dare move. I want him to know he can trust me.
“We have a lot to do tomorrow to prepare for her funeral. Try to get some sleep.”
I don’t nod again, because he walks away, turning out the lights as he goes.
I stand in the dark for several minutes. Quiet . . . still . . . alone.
I should probably be worried that I’ll get caught. I should probably be upset that from this point forward, I’ll always feel a sense of guilt whenever Kyle looks at me. I should probably be worried that this night—coupled with this morning and finding my mother—will screw me up in some way. If maybe I’ll suffer from PTSD or depression.
But none of that matters.
Because as I run up the stairs, swing open my bathroom door and expel all the contents of my stomach into the toilet, the only thing my thoughts surround is that girl and how I’ve just completely ruined her life.