18
I grab another flute when a waiter passes by, depositing my empty glass on the table beside us. “At least there’s free champagne,” I deadpan, taking a healthy glug of the expensive amber-colored liquid as my eyes scan the packed hotel ballroom. My parents are doing the rounds, leaving me and Audrey to our own devices. While Reeve wasn’t able to secure a ticket for my bestie to the premiere, he scored her an invite to the after-party. Thank god, because there’s no way I would have attended without her. “Maybe if I drink enough, I can erase the image of Reeve with that bitch from my mind.” I should probably lower my voice, but I’m beyond the point of caring.
The movie was good, but it’s blatantly obvious Reeve is the star. His performance was utterly magnetic, and I am so proud of him. He nailed it completely, enough to become the latest hot commodity in Hollywood. Directors will be hammering his door down after tonight. Reeve’s performance was so masterful I forgot who he was a lot of the time because he wore Camden Marshall’s skin with effortless ease. However, I couldn’t forget it was Reeve during the sex scenes. I had to close my eyes and not look after the first one almost killed me.
“She truly is shameless.” Audrey glares daggers into Saffron’s back. The bitch hasn’t left Reeve’s side, and my patience is in short supply. We’ve been at the after-party for over an hour, and Reeve hasn’t come near us, apart from a fleeting hello when the main cast members arrived. He’s the man of the moment, and everyone wants to speak to him, but it’s like he’s completely forgotten I’m here, and I’m getting sick of being an afterthought. If you had asked me a year ago if Reeve would ever treat me like this, I’d have laughed in your face.
My loving, attentive, protective boyfriend exists now only in my memory.
And I’m sad.
So sad and lonely.
“Fuck her,” Audrey says, spotting the forlorn expression on my face. “When karma comes for her, we’ll celebrate.”
“Are you going to talk to Alex?” I inquire, needing to stop thinking and talking about Saffron fucking Roberts. Subtly, I jerk my head to the side where Alex is congregated with a couple of guys from our old high school. I’ve watched him sneak longing glances at Audrey when he thinks no one is looking, so I don’t understand why he hasn’t approached her yet.
“Probably not. Our last conversation at Christmas didn’t go too well.”
Alex and Audrey had met for coffee over the Christmas break, and they ended up having a massive argument when Alex confirmed he was sleeping with the blonde. They’re not dating, just fucking, but the distinction doesn’t matter to Audrey. It still hurts that he could move on so fast when they parted out of necessity, not because they had fallen out of love.
For a while, I wondered if Reeve and I should adopt Alex and Audrey’s strategy, but it’s clear it doesn’t matter how you play it when feelings are involved. My bestie thought she could cut ties amicably and maturely and it wouldn’t hurt. Technically, Alex hasn’t done anything wrong, and apparently, guys find it easier to engage in no-strings-attached sex. But I honestly don’t understand how you can switch off your feelings so quickly. You couldn’t convince me Alex no longer loves Audrey. From the way he can’t take his eyes off her tonight, it’s clear she still owns his heart. Yet he wasted little time climbing into bed with another woman.
Men are such confusing bastards.
After a half an hour, and another glass of champagne, I have reached my limit, and I need to get out of here before I do something I regret. “Want to ditch?” I ask my bestie, and she eagerly nods.
“I was ready to ditch the second we got to the hotel.”
“I’m just going to the bathroom. Can you find my parents and tell them we’re leaving?”
She agrees, and I exit the ballroom, heading toward the ladies’ restroom.
After attending to business, I step out of my stall to discover Saffron Roberts waiting for me. “I’m surprised you managed to peel yourself off Reeve. Clinging to his coattails makes you look desperate and pathetic,” I say, my tongue much looser, thanks to the alcohol sluicing through my veins. I know she staged this little meet and greet, and I want to get the first shot in. “It’s clear to everyone he’s the star of the show, and you’re destined to linger in his shadow.”
She laughs, and it’s a haughty, shrill sound that grates on my nerves. I wash my hands in the sink to keep them occupied so I don’t do something reckless—like strangle her.