“That’s because it is crazy.”
I throw my hands up. “Then why did you encourage it?”
“Because I didn’t think you would actually go through with it!”
My jaw drops open, but no words make it out.
He sighs. “My brother is the last kind of man you should marry.”
A tightness in my chest grows. “Why?”
“Because he will hurt you. It’s second nature for him, and it’s only a matter of time before you get caught up in the crosswinds.”
“It’s sweet of you to worry, except our relationship is nothing but a contractual agreement. There won’t be an opportunity for him to hurt me.”
That’s why I agreed to this whole idea in the first place. If I was worried about risking my heart, I would have never said yes. But with Declan’s lack of interest in relationships and my fear of commitment, we are a perfect fit.
“You could fall in love with him.”
I laugh until tears spring to my eyes. “Declan and I could be the last two people on Earth and I would still choose my vibrator over him.”
Cal’s lip curls with disgust. “TMI.”
“It’s true!”
“Then how do you plan on having a child together?”
“With the help of someone in a white coat.” While I haven’t reviewed the contract Declan developed, I’m familiar with his expectations for in vitro fertilization.
“Having a child together creates a connection between two people that can never be severed.” A dark look passes over his face, and the ache in my chest intensifies.
I swallow the lump in my throat. “I know that.”
“I hope you know what you’re doing.”
I don’t. Not in the slightest. But instead of letting the anxiety swallow me whole, I roll my shoulders back and face my reality.
“Marriage might be hard, but I’m willing to give it my all.”
I can only hope that I don’t look back at this moment and regret all my choices.
5
DECLAN
I spent the weekend after our engagement party drafting the paperwork, ensuring there was no way for Iris to back out of our deal.
I throw the freshly printed contract against my wood desk. The pastel pink colored pages seem out of place against the other documents strewn on the surface.
Iris looks up at me. “What’s this?”
“Our marriage contract.”
“Why is it pink?”
One would think I asked for her to sacrifice her precious shoe collection based on her facial expression.
“Someone else left it loaded in the copy machine and I didn’t know how to change it.”
A laugh bubbles out of her. “I don’t know what you would do without me.”
“Your inflated sense of self-worth is concerning.”
“You don’t have to pretend to dislike me so much.”
“Your first mistake is thinking I’m pretending.”
She only grins at the barb. “They say there’s a thin line between love and hate.”
“Not thin enough,” I grumble under my breath.
She laughs some more as she grabs the pink contract.
“Initial at the bottom of each page once you’re done reading it.” I pass her a pen.
“This contract is about as thick as the Bible.” She stares at the stack of pages with a contorted expression.
I remain silent as I lean against my desk and cross my arms. “Is that a problem?”
Her brows draw together for the briefest moment before she recovers.
“No, but I’ll need to spend my lunch break reading over it.”
“Take whatever time you need but that contract isn’t leaving this office.”
There is no way I would risk someone catching a glimpse of our arrangement.
She traces the front page with one finger. “Fine. But I plan on reviewing each page three times just to make sure you’re not up to anything suspicious, so don’t get annoyed because I’m eating into your precious alone time.” Her response flows past her lips without a breath of hesitation.
And she accuses you of lying.
“Spare me the play-by-play and get on with it. I have other things to do.”
I take a seat in my chair, and it groans under my weight.
“If you pack on any more muscle, that thing is going to split in half one day.”
My muscles flex under my suit as I unbutton the front of my jacket. “I’m sure you’d like that.”
“Only if I catch it on camera.”
I ignore her and unlock my computer. It only takes a few email replies before Iris lets out a noise of protest.