I consider checking in on her a few times but think better of it. Whenever she’s gotten irritated at work, I’ve found it best to leave her alone to sort out her feelings. She knows the stakes here, and she of all people knows how much this deal means to me. It would be ridiculous for her to think I would tell Yakura no after the struggle I went through to get him on the phone.
Our meeting time closes in, and Iris still hasn’t come to set up the computer. I grab my phone to call her, but it turns out that I don’t need to.
She walks into the living room with her laptop tucked beneath her arm.
The ever-present tightness in my chest whenever she is around intensifies as I scan her from head to toe. Gone are her usual high heels and dresses, replaced by an all-black outfit that accentuates every dip and curve of her body.
I stand taller in her presence if only to make her notice me. Except she doesn’t as she busies herself with setting up the computer for our video call without sparing me a glance.
I somehow resist the temptation to grab her chin and force her to look up at me, instead settling on stepping in her way. “Ready?”
Her hand clutching the charging cable tightens around the cord like a chokehold. “Yup.”
Still, her gaze doesn’t meet mine. Her lack of acknowledgment shouldn’t be a concern for me when I have more pressing issues to handle, yet I am acutely aware of the tension building between us.
I don’t like it. Not one bit.
“Iris.”
“Yes?” She assesses the login screen like it’s written in Morse code.
“Tell me what’s wrong so we can get on with our day.”
She seems to not like my command based on the way she smashes her fingers against the keyboard. “Why would anything be wrong?”
“Quit the passive-aggressive attitude and talk to me.” I cover her hand with my palm, stopping her typing.
“You’re the last person I want to speak to right now.” Her eyes finally slice into me as she steals her hand away.
What I find reflecting in them is not what I expected. She might as well wave a red flag above her head, warning me to stay away. Yet I find it impossible to ignore the way her eyes glisten.
I have come to realize that, while her smile might be my weakness, her damp lashes clinging together will surely be my downfall.
“Were you crying?” My next breath is pinched, the oxygen fighting its way into my strained lungs.
“No.”
“You’re a pathetic liar.”
Her nostrils flare. She stands tall, barely reaching my chin. “You want me to be honest?” Her voice drops dangerously low.
“Yes.”
“Even if you hate what I have to say?”
“I can assure you I’ve heard worse.”
For a brief moment, her iciness melts away as her gaze softens. “Don’t do that.”
“Don’t do what exactly?”
“Don’t remind me that there’s a human being locked up inside of you somewhere.”
“What the hell are you talking about?”
Her gaze shifts away from me as she focuses on a far corner of the room.
“I—” The chiming notification on the computer screen cuts her off. Her bitter laugh fills the room. “I’ll leave you to it then.”
Fuck the meeting.
The thought acts like a punch to the throat. My ragged inhale does little to calm me, and my thoughts spiral out of control.
You’re losing sight of what’s important.
I shake my head, sobering up as I unbutton the front of my jacket and settle onto the couch in front of the laptop. “We’ll continue this conversation after.” I leave no room for opposition.
“Of course, sir.” Her snide remark bounces off me. She accepts the call and steps out of the frame.
“Hello, hello!” Mr. Yakura grins into the camera. I try to return the gesture, but the forced smile only makes him laugh.
I don’t understand how he can be so damn happy all the time. He reminds me of a golden retriever—all smiles and good times. It’s mind-boggling how someone like him, with all the power on his side of the hemisphere, can act the way he does.
Not everyone is a miserable fuck like you.
“No need to smile on my account.” Yakura laughs.
“Good. It’s not natural.” And it requires using one too many facial muscles for my taste.
His chuckle eases some of the tension from my shoulders.
“Where’s Iris?” Yakura asks as he scans the room for her.
“Here!” Iris steps behind me, using the back of the couch as a barrier between us. The scent of her, like a warm day at the beach, washes over me. I breathe through my mouth to spare my lungs another deep inhale.